Hurt Us

there's two of us in here, eli and xavier trauma side blog for our CSA Please do not follow us if Rob is in your bio or username.

[richardgoranski]

someone: talks to me in a way that seems the teeniest bit off, hardly noticeably different than their norm me: lies down in the shower sadly, wondering where i went wrong in this friendship

[alyssaistrying]

when people ??? yell at me??? and ??? expect me Not To Cry???????

[trauma-childhood]

I think I’ll always be difficult to love

[avpdsnail]

i don’t think people understand how excruciating it is when i embarrass myself…. it’s not just “haha whoops lol that was awkward” it’s deadass wanting to kill myself in the most brutal way possible because i fucked up yet again…… it’s unbearable….

[inkskinned]

do you ever get into a mood where you need like affection and cuteness but you resent that you have to ask for it so you end up just like sulking alone in your bed wishing someone would psychically know that you need cuddling 

[timbllr]

[hobpd-deactivated20170705]

me: *wishes people loved and cared for me as much as i care about them*

also me: *literally doesn’t talk to anyone and purposely avoids people so that nobody knows of my existence*

[moomwdwmfqn-deactivated20171118]

hackers: ok lets see what he’s doing through his webcam hackers: …….what the fuck, he’s just crying

[cptsdbaby]

you made me like this and you don’t even care

[leafsea]

i can’t escape // 3.25.2017

[pretty-little-skeleton]

Want to binge?

Stop.

Drink a glass of water.

Count to 50.

Drink another glass of water.

Do twenty crunches.

Chew gum really fast until your jaw hurts.

Stand outside for 10 minutes just doing nothing or you can walk around the block, up to you.

Drink yet another glass of water.

Take the garbage out.

Do 10 burpees. 

Cut up an apple into 8 pieces. 

Throw 2 biggest pieces away. 

Eat two pieces. 

Throw another 2 away. 

Eat the rest.

Brush your teeth.

Go lay in bed.

You can do it, lovely! Beat the cravings!

[makemebelovely]

or, eat one cup (or two!!) of veggies and drink some tea. maybe even do yoga, but don’t eat the bad food. stay strong

[cptsdbaby]

shut up and let survivors hate their abusers, we have at least this right

[cptsdbaby]

im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting im disgusting

[cptsdbaby]

please hurt me, yell at me, use me, say that im just a toy

[cptsdbaby]

it hurts i love it

[prelent]

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Okay but let’s talk about how I thought the original couldn’t get any more beautiful, and it just did. [No copyright intended, all rights go to Jonathon Ng // EDEN]

[depressionresource]

If you struggle with anxiety, overwhelm, or just plain feeling like a failure, I have a mantra for you that’s been really helping me out lately:

Just show up.

I used to skip class because the whole thing was so overwhelming: I had to get dressed in something clean even though I never had the energy to do laundry, walk to school, sit in class for up to three hours, plus pay attention, take notes, and participate in discussion. In reality, I was being a perfectionist, and life would have been a lot easier for me if I had Just Shown Up. By staying home because of my depression and anxiety, I wasn’t giving myself the chance to do any of that. I was such a perfectionist that being a “bad” or average student was unthinkable, so I stopped being a student at all.

If you’re having trouble getting something done, Just Show Up. You don’t have to be employee of the month. You don’t have to be valedictorian. Just Show Up.

[cleromancy]

ime it also helps to be like “you dont have to stay the whole time, you just have to go” bc most of the time once youre there it’s fine. a lot of things are like that, like… you dont have to finish the dishes, just start them. a lot of the time once you start a task it’s easier to finish than to stop, especially if you can trick yourself like “after five more minutes if i still feel bad i’ll go home” or “after washing two more dishes i can stop for today”

even if you don’t finish the task, you started it, and by completing part of it you lessened your future workload and ALSO taught your brain that things may not be as daunting as they seem

[robotplant]

This is wisdom! Peace!