ruined

two ppl who shouldn’t of had kids f*cked in the late 90s and now i have trauma

[cptsdbaby]

we’ve been in government funded DBT therapy for a while now, two sessions twice a week, homework, one-one & group, and still going till mid march!

they’re also referring me to the PTSD group, i lost my DID/complex trauma specialist as a support as my income got p bad and she doesn’t have room for me as a client anymore so the government funded stuff is helping

some of our system is either healing, fused or dormant, without a specialist to help us tell its kinda hard to figure out honestly

anyway thats whats been up with us i hope everyone is doing well, this year hasn’t been kind to us

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

The feeling is back.

[titsay]

[cptsdbaby]

TW: very poor mental health vent

applying to disability and being denied despite ur drs supporting u wholeheartedly is hard, then ur lawyer says they wont represent u in court (not just me, they dont rep any disabled ppl here due to amount of disability cases in my city) so u have to rep urself and dunno how and ur scared and ur in extreme poverty and the fucking stress is literally killing u and undoing all the progress you’ve made on ur MH oh and bc of how long waitlists are despite ur dr knowing ur struggling scarily bad again and at a place u havent hit since ur teens and he cant do anything to make it go faster and he knows ssri’s make ur severe POTS worse so nothing can be done all the while ur dealing with ur disability symptoms on top of this made so much worse by the stress ur going through and cant even lean on ur long term partner bc theyre often a source of ur pain and stress too

[cptsdbaby]

OH LOL MY SURGEON REJECTED MY TOP SURGERY RQ CLAIMING MY CLINIC DIDNT SEND THEM THE FUNDING APPROVAL INFO JUST GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[asking-jude]

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[cptsdbaby]

TW: very poor mental health vent

applying to disability and being denied despite ur drs supporting u wholeheartedly is hard, then ur lawyer says they wont represent u in court (not just me, they dont rep any disabled ppl here due to amount of disability cases in my city) so u have to rep urself and dunno how and ur scared and ur in extreme poverty and the fucking stress is literally killing u and undoing all the progress you’ve made on ur MH oh and bc of how long waitlists are despite ur dr knowing ur struggling scarily bad again and at a place u havent hit since ur teens and he cant do anything to make it go faster and he knows ssri’s make ur severe POTS worse so nothing can be done all the while ur dealing with ur disability symptoms on top of this made so much worse by the stress ur going through and cant even lean on ur long term partner bc theyre often a source of ur pain and stress too

[asking-jude]

Do you want free mental help? What about remote, pay-what-you-want counselling? Visit askingjude.org.

[akindplace]

A setback or a relapse doesn't mean you have thrown away all your progress. Sometimes, going forward with recovery has its bumps on the road, but you can still overcome them, move past them and keep healing. Healing is not a linear process and it can take time, please be patient with it. A relapse doesn't mean you will never heal. Keep going on your recovery journey. It is worth it. You are worth it.

[pinkjeepwhitemonster]

faded scars feel so invalidating

[hel7l7]

It is too easy to go back to all that has been

[pinkjeepwhitemonster]

i wish i could tell everyone how bad im struggling 

[sysboxes]

[Text: This alter misses their abuser, but is slowly working on processing the trauma they caused.]

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[boycritter]

silly little comic about chronic pain

[image id: an 8 panel comic

the first panel has a conversation between two people. the one on the right is a light gray, and facing away from the viewer. they are meant to represent a generic person. they are saying, "wow, chronic pain sounds like it sucks." sucks is written in a dark pink. the person on the right has tan skin, a pink shirt, and pink hair. he responds "haha yeah."

the second panel shows the same two people, with the first person saying "how do you tolerate it? i'd go crazy!" tolerate is written in a dark pink. the second person responsed "um..." and trails off

the third panel shifts to a drawing of the second person sitting curled into himself. it is entirely grayscale, except for his pink hair, which is a little more muted. the text around him reads "i tolerate it because not doing so isn't an option". 'isn't an option' is written in dark pink.

the fourth panel shows him sitting and leaning against the left edge of the frame, with his legs stretched out. it reads "because what else am i supposed to do?" supposed is in all caps and written in dark pink.

the fifth panel shows a torso up drawing of him in the bottom right corner. the text reads "i can't hope for a day i'll wake up and be better." better is written in dark pink and all caps on the left half of the panel.

the sixth panel shows him sleeping, with a brown dog near his head. the text above him reads "all i can do is make sure i wake up." wake up is written in dark pink.

the seventh panel is all text, reading "i tolerate it because it needs to be tolerable". tolerable is written in dark pink.

the eighth panel shifts back to the conversation between the two people. the man finishes his response to the other person's question with "i don't know".

end image id]

[reubyarty]

I started to smell smoke and hear screams from upstairs. I ran upstairs, and when I got there, the house was just a burned frame.

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[only-knives]

just had a realization. if you're heavily distressed every day. i think... i think that's called living in crisis. that's not normal. that's not healthy. that's an urgent health concern. you deserve better...

[floweraaaa]

[thebeesystemandmemes]

I feel like we do this a lot so I’m just gonna call myself out