Geek monkey .

Hi :) My name is Karina. I'm 30. I'm a nurse. This is not a spoiler free blog.

[russianblush]

#the shadow acting as bars of a prison cell forcing ilya to hide himself in russia vs the overflowing of light at shane's cottage that allows him a place to be free and completely himself

[mymansmoon]

imagining shane hanging out with his parents and while he's away from his phone doing something with his dad a call comes in. yuna sees this and goes, "shane, someone's calling you!"

and shane says, "who is it?"

"lily!"

"oh." shane immediately sets aside what he's doing and walks over, saying to his mom, "that's ilya."

yuna looks at him in confusion as he picks up his phone. "why is ilya saved as 'lily' in your phone?"

and shane looks at her, away, shrugs as if it's obvious and simply says, "I can't have ilya rozanov saved on my phone, mom" before answering the call with a, "hey, baby" and walking away.

leaving yuna (and david) standing shocked and, once again, shaken at how little they knew about their son and the layers of concealment he's had to operate under for years just to love who he loves.

[rozrozhollander]

Shane laughed, which made Ilya’s heart race. What if he’d never heard Shane’s laugh again?

[emziess]

Shane & his parents // Ilya & his parents Heated Rivalry, S01E01

[themoonandmyman]

Can we talk about how both David and Grigori are on the right side of the frame, Yuna is to the left of Shane- but to the left of Ilya is just a sharp drop.

[handsywoman]

my favorite Shanebug moments [ pt.2 ]

+ bonus Hollanovbugs

[thisfeebleheart]

Ilya's fluttery hands when he's overwhelmed by Shane (insp by @gloryhollanovjah)

[littlegirlinvisible]

ILYA ROZANOV WEEK: DAY FOUR FAVORITE TRAIT   ↪ HIS EMPATHY AND KINDESS 🥺💕

“When our childhood homes are chaotic and dangerous, we learn that the way to stay safe is to always be on alert — hypervigilant. Our nervous system never calms down because it’s constantly on the lookout for the next bomb that is going to explode [...] As the show goes on, we will learn that underneath Ilya’s extremely hard shell is the heart of a squishy teddy bear wrapped in a warm blanket, but it takes YEARS for Shane to see it. When we look at Ilya through the lens of what he learned as he grew up, it makes sense why he behaves the way he does. We can even have empathy for the level of hypervigilance and fear he lives with. I like to lay things out this way because it’s usually a hell of a lot harder to give ourselves that same grace. We have an idea of who we “should” be in our heads, and when we don’t live up to that we assume it’s because we’re a failure, a useless waste of space. None of that is true: we are behaving in ways that make complete sense when we understand how our nervous system was trained to respond to our environment.” — Reading Ilya Rozanov through the lens of trauma.

[cakepopsandcoffee]

[jakeperalta]

@pscentral event 50: colours → project hail mary (2026)

[heatedrivalryz]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ILYA ROZANOV! JUNE 15th, 1991 (insp)

[galecstatic]

okay we get it shane hollander is fucking yours and yours only no one is taking him away from you jesus christ

[galecstatic]

shane hollander: *exists*

ilya rozanov: shane hollander is mine he is my husband forever we love each other so much that our love is bigger than the universe i will die for him i will kill for him he is my religion he is my life he is my anchor he is my purpose he is my best friend he is my world he is my everything if you look at him i will carve your eyes out and i will make you explode on my mind if you touch him i will flay you and pour gasoline on you so i can lit you on fire if you even think about him i will murder you in your fucking sleep like nobody can ever take him away from me and if someone will try i will make sure that the person will never see the light of the day again and i will annihilate everyone in their bloodline because not a single soul in this entire galaxy is taking myshane away from me

[thisfeebleheart]

swaying and playing

[drawballa]

Sleepy boys 💤

[thisfeebleheart]

Loverboy Shane

[elenas]

[wyatthazy]

Ilya, I'm gay...

[bloominflowers]

i guess i like these guys a lot 💆‍♀️