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˓ ⌗ yuki . ᝰ

: ˇ bodily 15 . ᡣ𐭩 they : angel

⸝⸝ ౨ৎ. 4312532 , rahl , cddaf

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❝ I once dreamt we were dear to eachother. ❞

❝ I woke to find that we were strangers ❞

❝ An intriguing concerto, symphony of Life. ❞

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things are still a little tense but. im happy we talked. I just hope nothing else happens and they dont get tired of me anytime soon. because I will not allow it sorry ☝️

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I feel. much better after we talked. like a weight has been lifted? I dont know if that makes sense ack

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I luv fianc... fiance warm ndilike them /ref

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ill just leave them alone for a bit. give them space to think about things

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ill just leave them alone for a bit. give them space to think about things

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I know i said everything is fine- and it is! I love them so much and I want them to be mine but. I feel like.. maybe im getting jealous still i dont know maybe I just need space? or no space maybe I need to be closer? I dont know ill just deal with it forever.

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thats nice aka FUCK MY STUPID FUCKING LIFE I HATE EVERYTHING WHY CANT SOMEONE LOVE ME WHY DO I FUCK EVERYTHING UP AND WHY CANT YOU BE LIKE THAT WITH ME aka im jealous and don't wanna tell you so I try to make you jealous back and its really unhealthy and you should probably just leave me

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I still want to be close to them but. I feel like im not even important.

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whagever then dont even acknowledge me! dont even talk to me actually im tired of this.

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I love you but. if you cant do this then let me go

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I do love you but i just. I got so insecure because im not enough i know im not. im not cute or even near you so why would you even try with me.

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no im sorry. that was so uncalled for no i love you I love you so much im so sorry i didn't mean to i

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im gonna die soon. its whatever.

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but youre not. youre not sorry because im not real to you. im just a fake guy in your phone you can say you love every once in a while and pretend to be in the same room with but admit it as I am ill never be enough for you nothing will ever be enough because you need something real and i cant be that for you right now so you seek out something else. I dont blame you. If you want to leave just go.

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youre not sorry. you dont care im just someone to talk to when you feel like it aren't I. this isnt obsession its just. you just like me you dont love me you dont even want to date me you just want me around for security dont you