theforeverhiatus

Hi, I'm Aoife, I'm 22 and that’s my dog’s nose Just assume everything is a queue. about me / fics / poetry / side blogs header / icon

[geekberry]

[pseudophan]

dan baiting phil into accidentally roundabout saying he loves him has given me severe brain damage

[fortyeightsuns]

“dan, look —”

[tiktoksthataregood-ish]

[steponmepinkjun]

My moms house has high ceilings and those sort of shelf-spaces all around the perimeter of the room, where most people would put vases or decorative plants.

Instead, they put Dimitri's cat bed up there, because he, like most cats, likes to be high up, and also his sister Persephone can't jump up there, so it's a good place for him to relax unperturbed when he needs some alone time. (Dimitri was an only child for the first five years of his life, and is very introverted/private, whereas Pcef needs constant attention, so sometimes he needs time away from her to decompress)

We call this are The Penthouse. Dimitri will frequently look down upon us mere mortals from his heavenly perch.

(it is not uncommon for me to ask, "Where's Mitri?" and be told "He's in the Penthouse.")

A King amongst mortals.

[lordgolden]

I don’t like those TikTok vids that are just people reading tumblr posts why r u spying on us come wallow in the mud like the rest of us

[lordgolden]

It’s like we’re gnawing at the bars of the enclosure and they’re tapping on the glass and throwing peanuts

[gay-irl]

Gay💪irl

[thepowerwithin]

“If it means a lot to you, then make the time to do it. If it’s something that lies close to your heart, then allow for yourself to feel it. Make space in your life for what matters, for these are aspects that are meant to be held close to you.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin

[theforeverhiatus]

Hey,

I’ve kind of stepped back from the phandom for quite a few months now because I just wanted to work out how I really felt before I deactivated; whether I was losing interest because of depression, or because I genuinely have moved on. It’s fairly safe to say at this point that I’m just not the same person anymore. Which I guess is something that just happens as you get older - you change, and so do your interests.

I first started watching Dan and Phil when I was about 12, which was way back in 2010, and 9 years is a long time to be part of a fanbase. I still have old merch from when they had a district lines store. I remember Dan hitting 100,000 subs and thinking it was the biggest deal (and it /was/ a pretty big deal then). Dan used to have a weekly upload schedule and everyone would go batshit when it hit midnight on his upload day. They used to answer fan mail and answer questions on vyou. I remember sitting down to watch the first radio show and screaming when they read my Twitter comment out. I once stayed off school to read a fanfiction update because I was so into it. I have literally grown up and navigated some of the most difficult years of my life alongside this fandom, and it’s been incredible - from the small community it used to be, to the enormous entity it is now - it’s been a blast.

That being said, I’ve changed a lot over the years, and moreso in the past 12 months. There’s a lot of things in the phandom that I love - a LOT of things - but there’s been some little things bothering me for a while, and it’s just not a healthy place for me to be anymore. I’m happy just watching videos casually and wearing merch I find aesthetically pleasing. I’m just not here for the drama, and I know that only equates to a small percentage of fans, but it just sticks out, yknow? I unfollow the drama blogs and more crop up. I’ve loved being part of this, but it isn’t for me anymore.

So with that, I’ll be deactivating for good very soon, and I’ll still have a tumblr, but it’ll just be aesthetic, memey, gay shitposting with a sprinkle of dogs. Just stuff I’m into. And I hope Dan and Phil will have a place in it from time to time, but just not so much. I still support them, and I still enjoy the content, but I have to focus on me and my life, and the irl people in it.

So thank you. For the company, the drama, the art, stories, shitposts…everything; for an /awesome/ almost-decade.

Aoife.

[theforeverhiatus]

It’s been 18 months since this post, and a lot has changed. I’ve worked on myself a lot, and that meant taking a long break from tumblr.

During my break, I:

- Got a job in the NHS

- Received my assistance dog, who has been my lifeline the past year

- Moved out of foster care and into my own place

- Went 100% sober

- Reached 18 months self harm free

- Worked on my mental health, a continuing battle

- Finished my college diploma

- Applied to university

- Came out irl

I’m a different person, and a work in progress, but I’m proud of how far I’ve come. I’m cautiously returning to this account - just dipping my toes in. I’m not going to be an exclusively dan and phil account anymore, but I still very much follow and support them. I don’t know what this account will be yet. I just know that during such a shitty time in the world, I need to distract myself a bit.

[theforeverhiatus]

Hey,

I’ve kind of stepped back from the phandom for quite a few months now because I just wanted to work out how I really felt before I deactivated; whether I was losing interest because of depression, or because I genuinely have moved on. It’s fairly safe to say at this point that I’m just not the same person anymore. Which I guess is something that just happens as you get older - you change, and so do your interests.

I first started watching Dan and Phil when I was about 12, which was way back in 2010, and 9 years is a long time to be part of a fanbase. I still have old merch from when they had a district lines store. I remember Dan hitting 100,000 subs and thinking it was the biggest deal (and it /was/ a pretty big deal then). Dan used to have a weekly upload schedule and everyone would go batshit when it hit midnight on his upload day. They used to answer fan mail and answer questions on vyou. I remember sitting down to watch the first radio show and screaming when they read my Twitter comment out. I once stayed off school to read a fanfiction update because I was so into it. I have literally grown up and navigated some of the most difficult years of my life alongside this fandom, and it’s been incredible - from the small community it used to be, to the enormous entity it is now - it’s been a blast.

That being said, I’ve changed a lot over the years, and moreso in the past 12 months. There’s a lot of things in the phandom that I love - a LOT of things - but there’s been some little things bothering me for a while, and it’s just not a healthy place for me to be anymore. I’m happy just watching videos casually and wearing merch I find aesthetically pleasing. I’m just not here for the drama, and I know that only equates to a small percentage of fans, but it just sticks out, yknow? I unfollow the drama blogs and more crop up. I’ve loved being part of this, but it isn’t for me anymore.

So with that, I’ll be deactivating for good very soon, and I’ll still have a tumblr, but it’ll just be aesthetic, memey, gay shitposting with a sprinkle of dogs. Just stuff I’m into. And I hope Dan and Phil will have a place in it from time to time, but just not so much. I still support them, and I still enjoy the content, but I have to focus on me and my life, and the irl people in it.

So thank you. For the company, the drama, the art, stories, shitposts...everything; for an /awesome/ almost-decade.

Aoife.

[theforeverhiatus]

You haven't posted in a while, hope you're okay <3

Oh my gosh hello 💞 I’m alright, I had a really tough summer which resulted in me having to move home but I’ve now started college, started work, found an LGBTQ+ group to go to and I’m going to Australia in 8 days! Thank you for asking anon x

[the-memedaddy]

meirl

[thegayshitposter]

don’t mind me i’m just crafting in the corner

[tiresomespaceplant]

a screencap redraw because i suddenly had the rare motivation :.`*

[pumpkinsforsale]

Casting director: we need the voice of pikachu to be a recognized name. It’s going to be tough to find a respectable actor wh

Ryan Reynolds: ME

Ryan Reynolds: I’LL DO IT

Ryan Reynolds: PIKA PIKA MOTHER FUCKER

[outer-space-howell-blog]

i don’t understand why people think that depression goes away on holidays?? like ho ho ho I’m still feliz navidying

[huffylemon]

Please be nice to moths 

They spend their whole caterpillar lives thinking theyre going to be beautiful butterflies and then they turn out ugly and everyone hates them.

Please be nice to moths

[yummy-tummy-time]

get out of here, moths are freaking gorgeous have you even seen them

what is there to not love about moths

[raesoldblog]

THE LAST ONE IS SO CUTE

[millenianthemums]

​MOTHS HAVE NEVER DONE ANYTHING WRONG IN THEIR LIVES I WILL NOT STAND FOR MOTH HATE

[asa-de-ouro]

Please destroy the idea that all months are those plain grey things that flap around your lights and make summer nights out annoying

[lildreamysoul]

I WANTED TO ADD MY FAV MOTH WHICH IS THE ROSY MAPLE MOTH

[xylo-copa]

@satanatemymagicbeans APPRECIATE MOTHS YOU MOTH FEARING CHILD

[xvynth]

WHO SAID MOTHS ARE UGLY I WILL F I G H T

[blackbearmagic]

Also, within the order Lepidoptera, which includes moths and butterflies…. moth species greatly outnumber butterfly species. 

So, statistically, it’s much more likely that a caterpillar spends its whole caterpillar life thinking it’s going to grow up to be a gorgeous, colorful, ruffed and fluffed moth like all of those above, and instead it emerges from its chrysalis (not a cocoon; that was its first mistake) as

[theforeverhiatus]

I have a tattoo of a moth on my inner wrist and people are always like ‘nice butterfly’ and when I correct them that it’s actually a moth they’re always confused like why would you want a moth tattoo. I need them to see this post.

[infinitylester]

what a dork

for @philsextendedbday