This is a FNAF blog, so FNAF will be the majority of what I post about, although I may also mention things going on in my life or other interests from time to time.
Things you can expect to see the most are my thoughts, analyses, head canons, interpretations, and art and fics whenever I finish them.
You will quickly notice that Michael Afton makes up the majority of my blog, so I don't think it's incorrect to call this a Michael centered blog. It goes without saying that I love him very very much...
Have I made that clear?
Organization and tagging
I like to keep my blog really organized. This is so I can locate things more easily, and so others can too if they wish. When it comes to my posts, I do this by using tags with the format "thefourthfixed's ____." Every post of mine that isn't a reblog is tagged with "thefourthfixed's posts." From there, things get more specific. My tags that I'd recommend checking out the most are the ones for my analyses, thoughts, fics, and art. When it comes to reblogs, I format the tag like "reblog: ____." For example, when I reblog the fan art of other's, I will tag it with "reblog: fan art." You can see all the ones I think are the most notable in my features tags.
Asks
I strongly encourage asks! Anything from questions, thoughts, art or fic requests - please send them! You'll notice I don't allow anons, and that's for my own sake. I've dealt with a lot of anonymous internet harassment in the past (mainly on the hellsite twitter) that has made me very apprehensive, and I've noticed that people aren't nearly as bold if they can't hide behind anonymity. Maybe this will change in the future, but for now I think it puts my mind at ease.
Art, fics, and projects
I always am brimming with creativity and things I want to do. Things can take me a while to finish so I do apologize for that.
Things I have planned:
A large, multi-part Michael centric fic that spans almost his entire life, the majority of which will just be the events of FNAF through his eyes. Pretty ambitious, I know. I can't wait.
A Michael character analysis video. I'm currently writing the script. I'm so fed up with micharacterization and villainization that I just need to make my own.
Art tag
My ao3
Below the cut: My relationship with FNAF, FNAF ships I like, some FNAF related opinions I hold that you may want to know before following, and more about me and my other interests.
Me and FNAF
FNAF is a franchise that is really important to me. I became a fan when I was 10 years old. I had already been watching Markiplier for a while, but in 2015 I came across his lets play of FNAF. My brother came into my room and saw me watching it and said "have you seen the Game Theory videos?" The rest was history. I don't remember exactly when this was, but I remember it being between the release of FNAF 3 and the release of FNAF 4. It's really unique how I got to see everything develop over the years. I have lots of wonderful memories that I'll be sharing.
I am a huge fan of the novel trilogy. They are very special to me. I remember asking my mom to pre-order The Silver Eyes when it was announced. I cannot even begin to describe how excited I was for the release of The Fourth Closet. I preordered it and read the whole thing the day it came out, and it's probably my favorite book in the trilogy (hence my username). The novels aren't where my focus lies at the moment, but I plan on rereading them soon for the first time as an adult which is going to be so exciting. That being said, as shocking as this may sound, Michael isn't my favorite FNAF character - Charlie is. She holds a really special place in my heart. I was about as obsessed with her when I was 11-12 as I am with Michael now, and I think she's engraved in who I am as a result.
FNAF ships I like
When I was young I had a fangirlish level of obsession with Johnlie. it was a really childlike sort of screaming whenever they smiled at each other excitement that I miss feeling. But I'm a multishipper and it's never been that serious to me so I also love Charlessica, and as of today I think my favorite is Charlizabeth (in the games at least). I also recently really got behind Cassidave/Cassevan or whatever name the fandom goes with. And as for Michael, I have an OC I ship him with. Her name is Mandy! Learn about her and her relationship with Mike here!
Things you should know
I know the FNAF fandom can be pretty divisive when it comes to opinions and theories so I thought I should go ahead and make some of my beliefs known.
When it comes to things I believe and things I don't agree with, I'm not stubborn enough to ask people to not interact with me over it, but if you think it'd be best to not follow me that's fine. All I ask is that people just be respectful and not obnoxious.
Some things I stand pretty strongly behind are FrightsParallels, CassidyTOYSNHK, and Mikeguard, and in turn am not the biggest fan of FrightsGames, AndrewTOYSNHK, and HudsonGuard.
I'm pretty sensitive over Mike, so there are a number of theories about him I don't like. Some of these are MikeAlive/MikeSurvival, Glammike, MikeUCN, MikeTOYSNHK, and MikeAccomplice (not as much if through manipulation and more so with him being willing). Overall I am very against villainization of Michael.
I don't like Willcare, but I also don't like Willdespise. I find the whole debate to be very annoying and sometimes removed from reality and insensitive. I believe that William cared about his kids (with the exception of Michael, my reasoning here), but that doesn't mean I think he was a good father. He was objectively abusive to them. Abusers often justify abuse in their head. William is clearly a very selfish person, so he may act benevolent if his kids please him but turn cruel if he is angry, and he thinks he has a right to do that, especially if it's to get them in line. His idea of care comes largely from possession and control, but in his mind it's genuine. Abuse is a really complex thing and I think a lot of FNAF fans treat it very unserious. However, I don't think this makes him a more sympathetic character. At the end of the day his actions matter more than his feelings, and he was a horrible abusive father. I don't think his motivations for murder had anything to do with his kids (the grieving father broken by his son's death thing really annoys me). But I know some people are really uptight about this, so I just wanted to get it out of the way.
I am not the biggest fan of modern FNAF. I was very excited for Security Breach, but when the game came out, I was very disappointed and over time just lost interest. Secret of the Mimic is what pulled me back in recently, but it didn't capture me or invest me. I have my frustrations and opinions on the direction that the franchise is going, and it's not all positive, but I won't talk about that very much here. I understand there are people who like it and I'm glad they do, so I don't want to be that person that spreads negativity. I'd much rather focus on things that I love either way. And there are things about modern FNAF that I can appreciate.
I know a lot of people dislike Scott for the donations that were found out a few years ago. I am a nonbinary lesbian, a member of the queer community, and after I gave it some thought I've come to the conclusion that he did not mean any harm by it. I think it's clear he had other reasons for the donations, and they were over a decade ago. I do understand why some withdrew their support, because even if it wasn't his intention to harm it was still an ignorant decision that had collateral damage. But seeing as he's given much more money to pro LGBTQ+ organizations and supported a trans FNAF youtuber when she came out as trans, as she showed in an email where he immediately switched to using her new name and saying he understood with a smiley face, I don't like it when he is painted as a hateful bigot. He isn't a saint, and he does have some beliefs I disagree with and I don't think he's above criticism (no one is), but overall I've been in the community for a long time and I think he cares about every single one of his fans. That being said I understand why people may feel uncomfortable supporting him, so I just wanted to get this out of the way in case. This is how I feel about it, but I won't tell anyone else how to.
I will say that I am pretty opinionated. I always do my best to word my thoughts, Mike or not, in a way that's levelheaded and open to discussion. I think I do a pretty good job of not being aggressive, but if I ever do come off that way I apologize. A lot of it comes not just from my passion but my emotional dysregulation from bipolar disorder. It hasn't been much of a problem recently though due to med changes and the better environment of Tumblr that has brought me a lot of recent peace. So I don't think everything I've mentioned here will be much of an issue currently.
Credits for images in pinned:
Michael userboxes: @/aftonroboticss
Still Into FNAF userbox: @/ace-of-hearts-and-spades
Bipolar userbox: @/abyss-boxes
Who is Ragan, anyways?
Here's a little bit about me. I'm a 20 year old non-binary lesbian. I prefer they/them pronouns. I'm often told that I am extremely passionate about the things that I love. For a long time, anime and video games have had a huge influence on my life. I also am a huge fan of rock and metal music, and I play bass guitar and drums. I'd love to be in a band if life will allow it for me. I've been drawing since I was 7 and started writing fan fiction around the age of 12. I have diagnosed ADHD and bipolar disorder that have affected my entire life and in many ways made it harder. After a lifetime of feeling the effects, struggles, and ups and downs of mental illness, I've come to find myself fascinated with the human mind, and I've also become an advocate for mental health. So I'm currently a sophomore in college who is majoring in psychology with the hopes of helping other mentally ill people struggling and advocating for more widespread education on mental illness and treatment.
Some of my other interests that may not get talked about:
Video Games:
Danganronpa
The Legend of Zelda
The Promised Neverland (Manga reader. Fuck season 2)
Doki Doki Literature Club
The Portal games
Undertale
Anime:
Attack On Titan
Code Geass
Death Note
Sailor Moon
The Promised Neverland (Manga reader. Fuck season 2)
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Paradise Kiss
Music:
Maximum The Hormone (Fav band ever!!! Fun fact, they know who I am. It's too long of a story to explain here)
System Of A Down
Stone Temple Pilots
Rush
Red Hot Chili Peppers
My Chemical Romance
Alice In Chains
Green Day
The Beatles
Kiss
Books:
The Hunger Games
Percy Jackson and the Olympians
The Outsiders
TV shows:
Gravity Falls
She-Ra and the Princesses of Power
The Amazing World of Gumball
Last Week Tonight with John Oliver
Youtubers:
Markiplier
Game Grumps
Kurtis Conner
Drew Gooden
Danny Gonzales
MoistCritikal
Unus Annus
I've been rather offline the past month, visiting my best friend's little sister which is always fun and I'm glad to keep her company because she has no one when down here with her grandparents. I went to a concert. I met up with two old friends from high school day before yesterday and spent the day together. I haven't been worried about drawing even though I'm close to finishing something else I'm like shit, it's fine to relax. Fine to spend more time in the real world. That's actually healthy and helps prevent burn out. That happened to me bad one time with another franchise because I was unhealthily obsessed.
Just downed the max dosage of Milk of Magnesia, old reliable. Iām calling upon itās power once again. Whatās done is done. Now we wait. Wish me luck .
what flavor gum do you think michael would enjoy the most ? do you think we would like specific brands like extra or trident ?
I don't really have a solid answer for the brand thing since I'm not really a gum person myself. But honestly aesthetic wise Dubble Bubble comes to mind. I actually did used to chew a lot of those when I was a kid. But like in terms of all of the brands out there idk. The idea of Michael having tried all of them and having a ranking is so funny. As for flavors I would think bubblegum and watermelon.
I don't know why but this post started getting likes by the s*x bots that have pictures of hot women as their pfps. I would say ladies please one at a time, but listen, Mike is taken, okay?
Last night I posted a long angry rant on twitter about why Mike is OBVIOUSLY the person sitting in the chair in Midnight Motorist. Someone had commented saying they think it's actually about one of the MCI kids because "there's too many contradictions if its about the Aftons." Dumbfounded at how that could even be a takeaway, I asked them to elaborate and one of the very first things was, here let me just quote it directly:
"If Michael is in the chair, it just doesn't sit right with me than an abused kid would so casually tell his abuser coming home drunk to 'go easy on' the little brother being abused. It'd have to be a partner."
This pissed me off so bad that I just stopped reading it. I actually don't care about any of the other reasoning now I'm sorry. You said that so confidently for someone who has no fucking clue what they're talking about. Older siblings protecting younger ones from their abusive parent(s) is not at all uncommon! I fucking know people!
Dude oh my fucking god I might have just saved some lives today. So we were on our way back home from the Rush concert taking the interstate and there was a really sudden downpour. People don't slow down like they're supposed to when this happens. We passed two separate car wrecks that had happened. Then we saw a wreck that had happened on the other side that's opposite the median. It was an 18 wheeler that was completely on its side. It's quite a sight so we were all looking at it. I was in the back seat, so as we drove past I turned my head around to keep looking at it through the back window of the car. And then I see the 18 wheeler behind us just speeding towards us on a path of collision and I was like "WOAH WOAH WOAH" and my dad noticed and swerved, and when I say we just BARELY missed it.
And my dad is a really attentive driver so he was kind of just glancing at that other wreck a few times then looking back ahead and in the mirrors. He said he would've seen the one coming behind us because he was about to check the rear view mirror anyways, but he noticed it maybe a second or two earlier because I was yelling. And he thinks if I hadn't yelled and he hadn't seen it just a fraction of a moment before it could've been too late.
So it's like. Now I'm just wondering what if I'd already turned around and went back to listening to music, or what if I'd never turned around at all? I can't say for certain how bad it would've been or if it would've been deadly, but there probably would've been injury, if not us then maybe people behind because they become collateral damage especially when you've got a huge truck like that, and also the rain making the view less clear and the slickness of the road.
My dad was saying he thinks the person driving it was probably also looking at the wreck across the median but their attention just left the road completely. I think they did notice last second because it looked like it was coming slightly to the right, so my dad swerved left (thankfully there was no one coming in the left lane!!!) but hitting at an angle like that made me think we could've spun, and then there's that concrete divider they put on the left side so we could've hit that and it's just like. Okay. That there to stop a situation like us ending up on the other side across the median but like still I think hitting it would've been an intense impact. Was I really the deciding factor of what could've been a disastrous situation.
Dude oh my fucking god that concert changed my life. And the entire time I was there I legitimately forgot about everything else. I forgot about Mike. I forgot about FNAF. I forgot about ever other show, anime, and game I like. To put it into perspective I'm rarely ever not thinking about that stuff, even if not present during a conversation at some point I will think about them in the back of my mind but like no. I didn't think of Michael the entire 5 hours I was there not even once not even a passing thought. I cannot stress how insane that is. I'm never not thinking about Mike.
Back from the Rush concert and am winding down for the night. I don't really have a music audience here but I like to yap about things I like so I'll try to kind of explain stuff to anyone who isn't super familiar and is curious. Holy shit. I walked in thinking they're one of the best bands of all time and left thinking. Actually. THE best. Get the fuck out of here Led Zeppelin. Beatles, y'all don't even come close.
Their reputation is deserved. I mean I knew they were talented beyond belief from being a fan and listener but I don't think that fully sunk in until I witnessed it happening in real time in front of me. It sounded almost one to one with the recordings it was incredible. The drummer they picked for this tour (Anika), she is a fucking BADASS. And given she's filling in for their drummer (Neil) who died of cancer in 2020 who is widely considered the best drummer of all time, it's a stressful position to be in, and that's why the way the crowd went wild when she did famous parts, solos, and fills, made me so happy. Seriously, I have seen people in her position get so much hate from fans, and the chances of hate are unfortunate greater when that person is a woman. That just wasn't the case here. I only saw like maybe 5 angry old Rush dudes talking about how they should've chosen this other guy who plays the drums, or they shouldn't do this tour at all because it's disrespectful to Neil. One of those people got ratioed by like 100 comments in an INSTAGRAM comment section like dude you know it's serious when gen x'ers are the ones ratioing.
Speaking of that I knew the crowd was gonna be like 90% gen x but that was especially obvious when during slower songs, no one got out their phone and turned the light on and started swaying it from side to side lmfao.
Yeah that was life changing. There is no better way to have spent $750. And even the money we lost on the last trip when it got postponed because of the hotel and gas and food prices, that plus the hotel and gas and food prices for this trip isn't in vein either. I never thought I'd get the chance to see them. I knew them growing up because of my dad mainly (fork found in kitchen, in fact there were so many Rush dads with their Rush daughters it was kind of funny) but I only got super into them in 2024. They'd stopped touring in 2015, and then after Neil died I think most people thought yeah, nothing is ever happening again.
And this on it's own is incredible. Like you'd think well they started back in the 70s, and now THEY'RE in their 70s, their performance skill may have degraded... Nope. Not at all. It was studio level. MIND YOU their guitarist (Alex) has arthritis and their singer/bassist (Geddy) was sick with laryngitis and bronchitis A WEEK AND A HALF AGO. And like, they would finish playing ONE song and I'd think to myself "the energy they had there seems like the energy of an entire concert on it's own. They're fucking grandpas. HOW can they do this?" The only noticeable difference was Geddy's voice, and that is just inevitable with age for someone who has spent the majority of their life singing. And some people gave him a hard time for his voice back in the day too because of the high pitch and how screechy (for lack of a better term) it was. I don't get that personally. But like it wasn't bad, just different. And of course Anika is not Neil Peart and it's unfortunate I won't ever get to see the true Rush triumvirate, but she was great. She's her own drummer and that's fine. But I'll say, she did NOT miss a beat.
Okay. We just checked into our hotel. The rescheduled concert is in a few hours. I'm so excited and trying to pretend I am normal and not at all freaked out (in a good way) that Rush is going to be playing right in front of me.
I know Iām kind of sensitive with Mikeās fandom characterization in general but Iām extra touchy with 80s Mike. For some he is genuinely way too nice and meek mannered. For some he acts like he was born in the 2000s. And then for some people he is way too fucking mean, so stereotypical of a bully that it feels like a parody. Almost comically evil. Like Tom and Jerry type shit, laying traps outside of CCās door every day.
Mike: They've got names for all of it nowadays. Now it's "trauma." Now it's "parentification." Now it's "derealization." Now it's "mastigophobia." You know what we called that back in the day? LIFE!!!!!!
I know I've yapped about the Mike being a stand up comedian in another life thing but I'm getting the urge to try and write a piece he would make. I love doing stuff like this to like bring me closer to my favorite characters and to understand them better but this one might be challenging, not as much because of the fact I'm not a stand up comedian as it is the fact that I'm not Michael Afton. Like dude I'd have to think. This is not me writing this.
I often get told I'm funny but the thing is I'm not trying to be. I said this before but there is a big difference between people who are unintentionally funny and people that do it on purpose or it comes naturally to them.
The logbook IS intentional comedy. Whether or not you find it funny is subjective (I certainly thing it is) but it is funny to him and that on it's own is funny, it adds another layer of funny. But listen pretty much every comment is drenched in sarcasm, bitterness, irony, mockery, and often are taking a spin on a bad situation. Because he seems to really get a kick out of some of the worst things possible happening. The way he puts the exotic butters on top of the TV in the non canon ending of Sister Location comes to mind. Satire. This guy loves satire. If he had a style it would be satire. Also dark I'd argue, because some of those comments he makes are a bit insensitive or bleak, often at his own expense.
There's also goofiness and childlike aspects to what he says and draws but I do think there is another layer on top of that. I'm really struggling to find the words for it but I think he's self aware that it's really low brow and finds that on its own funny. Those superheroes he draws I liken to parody or character based but I'm not sure if he'd do that as much as he would enjoy watching it elsewhere. Like he'll spend a few minutes outlining a stupid idea he came up with like Math Man but the main thing is how would you pitch this to someone. It's worthy of having a movie made out of it. A hypothetical scenario. You understand. Also anecdotal because my god his own experiences would be an extremely large part of his stuff but I don't think he's the type to do too much exaggeration. Maybe play it up a little bit but not too far off from what actually happened.
I also love the page where Freddy is giving a stand up show and he's fucking heckling. "nOT FUNNY." He is invested in this sort of thing. He's the type of guy to say SNL isn't like it used to be.
