This is a FNAF blog, so FNAF will be the majority of what I post about, although I may also mention things going on in my life or other interests from time to time.
Things you can expect to see the most are my thoughts, analyses, head canons, interpretations, and art and fics whenever I finish them.
You will quickly notice that Michael Afton makes up the majority of my blog, so I don't think it's incorrect to call this a Michael centered blog. It goes without saying that I love him very very much...
Have I made that clear?
Organization and tagging
I like to keep my blog really organized. This is so I can locate things more easily, and so others can too if they wish. When it comes to my posts, I do this by using tags with the format "thefourthfixed's ____." Every post of mine that isn't a reblog is tagged with "thefourthfixed's posts." From there, things get more specific. My tags that I'd recommend checking out the most are the ones for my analyses, thoughts, fics, and art. When it comes to reblogs, I format the tag like "reblog: ____." For example, when I reblog the fan art of other's, I will tag it with "reblog: fan art." You can see all the ones I think are the most notable in my features tags.
Asks
I strongly encourage asks! Anything from questions, thoughts, art or fic requests - please send them! You'll notice I don't allow anons, and that's for my own sake. I've dealt with a lot of anonymous internet harassment in the past (mainly on the hellsite twitter) that has made me very apprehensive, and I've noticed that people aren't nearly as bold if they can't hide behind anonymity. Maybe this will change in the future, but for now I think it puts my mind at ease.
Art, fics, and projects
I always am brimming with creativity and things I want to do. Things can take me a while to finish so I do apologize for that.
Things I have planned:
A large, multi-part Michael centric fic that spans almost his entire life, the majority of which will just be the events of FNAF through his eyes. Pretty ambitious, I know. I can't wait.
A Michael character analysis video. I'm currently writing the script. I'm so fed up with micharacterization and villainization that I just need to make my own.
Art tag
My ao3
Below the cut: My relationship with FNAF, FNAF ships I like, some FNAF related opinions I hold that you may want to know before following, and more about me and my other interests.
Me and FNAF
FNAF is a franchise that is really important to me. I became a fan when I was 10 years old. I had already been watching Markiplier for a while, but in 2015 I came across his lets play of FNAF. My brother came into my room and saw me watching it and said "have you seen the Game Theory videos?" The rest was history. I don't remember exactly when this was, but I remember it being between the release of FNAF 3 and the release of FNAF 4. It's really unique how I got to see everything develop over the years. I have lots of wonderful memories that I'll be sharing.
I am a huge fan of the novel trilogy. They are very special to me. I remember asking my mom to pre-order The Silver Eyes when it was announced. I cannot even begin to describe how excited I was for the release of The Fourth Closet. I preordered it and read the whole thing the day it came out, and it's probably my favorite book in the trilogy (hence my username). The novels aren't where my focus lies at the moment, but I plan on rereading them soon for the first time as an adult which is going to be so exciting. That being said, as shocking as this may sound, Michael isn't my favorite FNAF character - Charlie is. She holds a really special place in my heart. I was about as obsessed with her when I was 11-12 as I am with Michael now, and I think she's engraved in who I am as a result.
FNAF ships I like
When I was young I had a fangirlish level of obsession with Johnlie. it was a really childlike sort of screaming whenever they smiled at each other excitement that I miss feeling. But I'm a multishipper and it's never been that serious to me so I also love Charlessica, and as of today I think my favorite is Charlizabeth (in the games at least). I also recently really got behind Cassidave/Cassevan or whatever name the fandom goes with. And as for Michael, I have an OC I ship him with. Her name is Mandy! Learn about her and her relationship with Mike here!
Things you should know
I know the FNAF fandom can be pretty divisive when it comes to opinions and theories so I thought I should go ahead and make some of my beliefs known.
When it comes to things I believe and things I don't agree with, I'm not stubborn enough to ask people to not interact with me over it, but if you think it'd be best to not follow me that's fine. All I ask is that people just be respectful and not obnoxious.
Some things I stand pretty strongly behind are FrightsParallels, CassidyTOYSNHK, and Mikeguard, and in turn am not the biggest fan of FrightsGames, AndrewTOYSNHK, and HudsonGuard.
I'm pretty sensitive over Mike, so there are a number of theories about him I don't like. Some of these are MikeAlive/MikeSurvival, Glammike, MikeUCN, MikeTOYSNHK, and MikeAccomplice (not as much if through manipulation and more so with him being willing). Overall I am very against villainization of Michael.
I don't like Willcare, but I also don't like Willdespise. I find the whole debate to be very annoying and sometimes removed from reality and insensitive. I believe that William cared about his kids (with the exception of Michael, my reasoning here), but that doesn't mean I think he was a good father. He was objectively abusive to them. Abusers often justify abuse in their head. William is clearly a very selfish person, so he may act benevolent if his kids please him but turn cruel if he is angry, and he thinks he has a right to do that, especially if it's to get them in line. His idea of care comes largely from possession and control, but in his mind it's genuine. Abuse is a really complex thing and I think a lot of FNAF fans treat it very unserious. However, I don't think this makes him a more sympathetic character. At the end of the day his actions matter more than his feelings, and he was a horrible abusive father. I don't think his motivations for murder had anything to do with his kids (the grieving father broken by his son's death thing really annoys me). But I know some people are really uptight about this, so I just wanted to get it out of the way.
I am not the biggest fan of modern FNAF. I was very excited for Security Breach, but when the game came out, I was very disappointed and over time just lost interest. Secret of the Mimic is what pulled me back in recently, but it didn't capture me or invest me. I have my frustrations and opinions on the direction that the franchise is going, and it's not all positive, but I won't talk about that very much here. I understand there are people who like it and I'm glad they do, so I don't want to be that person that spreads negativity. I'd much rather focus on things that I love either way. And there are things about modern FNAF that I can appreciate.
I know a lot of people dislike Scott for the donations that were found out a few years ago. I am a nonbinary lesbian, a member of the queer community, and after I gave it some thought I've come to the conclusion that he did not mean any harm by it. I think it's clear he had other reasons for the donations, and they were over a decade ago. I do understand why some withdrew their support, because even if it wasn't his intention to harm it was still an ignorant decision that had collateral damage. But seeing as he's given much more money to pro LGBTQ+ organizations and supported a trans FNAF youtuber when she came out as trans, as she showed in an email where he immediately switched to using her new name and saying he understood with a smiley face, I don't like it when he is painted as a hateful bigot. He isn't a saint, and he does have some beliefs I disagree with and I don't think he's above criticism (no one is), but overall I've been in the community for a long time and I think he cares about every single one of his fans. That being said I understand why people may feel uncomfortable supporting him, so I just wanted to get this out of the way in case. This is how I feel about it, but I won't tell anyone else how to.
I will say that I am pretty opinionated. I always do my best to word my thoughts, Mike or not, in a way that's levelheaded and open to discussion. I think I do a pretty good job of not being aggressive, but if I ever do come off that way I apologize. A lot of it comes not just from my passion but my emotional dysregulation from bipolar disorder. It hasn't been much of a problem recently though due to med changes and the better environment of Tumblr that has brought me a lot of recent peace. So I don't think everything I've mentioned here will be much of an issue currently.
Credits for images in pinned:
Michael userboxes: @/aftonroboticss
Still Into FNAF userbox: @/ace-of-hearts-and-spades
Bipolar userbox: @/abyss-boxes
Who is Ragan, anyways?
Here's a little bit about me. I'm a 20 year old non-binary lesbian. I prefer they/them pronouns. I'm often told that I am extremely passionate about the things that I love. For a long time, anime and video games have had a huge influence on my life. I also am a huge fan of rock and metal music, and I play bass guitar and drums. I'd love to be in a band if life will allow it for me. I've been drawing since I was 7 and started writing fan fiction around the age of 12. I have diagnosed ADHD and bipolar disorder that have affected my entire life and in many ways made it harder. After a lifetime of feeling the effects, struggles, and ups and downs of mental illness, I've come to find myself fascinated with the human mind, and I've also become an advocate for mental health. So I'm currently a sophomore in college who is majoring in psychology with the hopes of helping other mentally ill people struggling and advocating for more widespread education on mental illness and treatment.
Some of my other interests that may not get talked about:
Video Games:
Danganronpa
The Legend of Zelda
The Promised Neverland (Manga reader. Fuck season 2)
Doki Doki Literature Club
The Portal games
Undertale
Anime:
Attack On Titan
Code Geass
Death Note
Sailor Moon
The Promised Neverland (Manga reader. Fuck season 2)
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Paradise Kiss
Music:
Maximum The Hormone (Fav band ever!!! Fun fact, they know who I am. It's too long of a story to explain here)
System Of A Down
Stone Temple Pilots
Rush
Red Hot Chili Peppers
My Chemical Romance
Alice In Chains
Green Day
The Beatles
Kiss
Books:
The Hunger Games
Percy Jackson and the Olympians
The Outsiders
TV shows:
Gravity Falls
She-Ra and the Princesses of Power
The Amazing World of Gumball
Last Week Tonight with John Oliver
Youtubers:
Markiplier
Game Grumps
Kurtis Conner
Drew Gooden
Danny Gonzales
MoistCritikal
Unus Annus
On the drive home from seeing Obsession I was talking about how I had (correctly) anticipated a moment where a character was going to throw up and closed my eyes and covered my ears, as I tend to do when watching movies. I found out later it was done into a trashcan and nothing was shown, but I never know for certain if something is off screen, so I don't take any chances. I started discussing this phobia that has plagued my life for so many years with my parents. I explained how in fiction it's not just scenes where characters throw up that can be upsetting or triggering. I hate it when characters cough/throw up blood from an injury or illness. I hate in The Fly where he throws up the white fly juice. I know this isn't vomit and I don't care, I still hate it. I hate it when things come up people's throat, like that one gif of Superman pulling the mechanical wires out of his throat that you've seen at least three hit tweets of when someone captions it "Michael Afton."
And this led me to bringing up the Fazbear Frights story Pizza Kit. I read this one in 2021 and was so horrified by it. I forgot about it for years and then last summer when I got back into FNAF it suddenly came back to me and I had to go into the living room where it was cooler and lay on the couch because I was getting uneasy/nauseous. I explained to them the plot of the book and that there was only one scene where she actually threw up and it was probably the least upsetting. The upsetting part was the extremely detailed description of her sickness. The feeling of something uneasy and heavy and sick in your stomach. The feeling that it doesn't just need to come back up, but that it's TRYING to. Trying to induce that. Actual nightmare fuel for someone with emetophobia.
This led me to talking about how wild the Fazbear Frights stories are. That led me to talking about how FNAF has always had lots of younger kids interested in it. This led me to talking about all the things I learned from Mat Pat's theory videos when I was a kid, which include minimum wage, sequel vs prequel, lobotomies... And my mom was like wait, lobotomies? So I went to explain it, but in order to do that I had to give the entire background of FNAF 4 as a game, theories about the game, and the huge Dream Theory debate. It was probably getting close to 10 minutes before I was like "so if you're missing or have damage to the frontal lobe" and my mom went "oh so that's the lobotomy part of it. I knew you must have been going somewhere with all of this."
One of the first things she did was have a hiccup fit that she was unable to stop. The game gave me the option to help her myself or bring someone else. I decided there was someone better suited for that job than me.
Big brother Mike will always come to the rescue. Granted, I don't know exactly what he did. It sounded like he was working on something with mechanical parts when the screen went black. I guess he put her back together, just like I asked him to.
After this they immediately started some sort of motivational work out session.
Liz is really hyper and quirky. I'm not sure if it's her personality or if the game actually accounts for the behavioral differences between children and adults. So far Liz is the youngest on the island, with her being 11 and everyone else being 18. Here she is looking around with a flashlight and watching ants crawl around. She also wanted to play red light green light.
I introduced Liz to Mandy, and she overwhelmed her with yapping about batteries. That being said, the two of them seem to get along really well. I feel that it won't be long before she's shipping Mandy and Mike.
In about a month it's going to have been a year since a sudden obsession with Michael Afton pulled me back into FNAF and I started drawing again for the first time in years after a mental health lapse and it's actually kind of incredible how I have only managed to produce three finished drawings one of which I hate and deleted. I don't know what the deal is. Really. It wasn't just fall quarter which I want to blame it on, because it was last summer too. And ever since. I have all the time in the world and I will work on something for hours and hours and hours and I still somehow never get anything done. You understand it's not that I haven't been working on it. I'll work on it all day. I even kept working through migraines which worsened my pain, I went as far as to put sunglasses on inside. Still. It does contribute to this feeling of uselessness I often have because I do think I link my self worth to my ability to create or provide SOMETHING to a fandom. Doesn't matter what fandom. That's probably not good but oh well. At least it's not horrifically upsetting anymore because I'm on too much medication to care as much as I used to.
Giggling at how lore accurate this is. When she had a crush on him but they'd never properly met she started always sitting near him when in the same room pretending to do something else when she was actually just watching and listening to him like a little weirdo.
Idek know what this is. I was like. Girl. What the hell are you doing. But he fucking ate it up lmfaoooo.
Downloading the new Tomadachi life rn and the first Miis are gonna be Mike and Mandy. Earlier I said I can't wait for them to have a kid so they can call me and ask me to raise their child for them, but I've been informed this is no longer a thing that happens. Maybe a good thing because some people loved tormenting those babies. But I think I'm gonna miss checking in on the families and seeing the kid grow up over time.
The thing about Mike is that if you've become someone important to him he will love you. He will love you until he's sick. He takes the hatred he receives and turns it into love towards those he cares about.
So long as he feels he's got life under control. As long as he can take it. As long as he knows what to do with his emotions. If things become chaotic and feel out of control then the lines could start to blur. But that wouldn't ever happen because he can handle it.
He's always handled it just fine whole life. The hate and bitterness always goes towards those that are responsible for putting him through it, and the bad people who do the same to others. Why would that change? He knows who to direct the anger at. He always has.
I had yet to get around to posting the photos of me dressed as the puppet when I went to see FNAF 2 on Instagram because I wanted to make an official statement that no one asked for, and I had too much to think about at the time and was also having trouble with migraines. A few nights ago I recorded 25 minutes of me yapping about the movie itself and 40 minutes of me yapping about Michael. Although I tried to be fair rarely any of it was praise.
I managed to splice and trim it down to 13 minutes, which I'll split into one video slide about the movie and one video slide about Michael when I post it. The thing about my Instagram is that I'm posting to a lot of irl and second hand irls and people I've picked up from fandoms over the years. In other words, not a FNAF audience, and I doubt a whole bunch of people will watch the full thing anyways. So I am WAY more blunt about things. I considered maybe converting it to audio and posting it here because I'm just echoing a lot of sentiments I've already shared, but I'm just way more blunt so I don't know lmao.
