The Old You, The New Me

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—ben wyatt’s relationship with li’l sebastian

[anxietyproblem]

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[just-another-disordered-soul]

I just used “oh ok” like 2 mins ago

[p3nny4urth0ught5-deactivated202]

I use oh okay and no problem about 50 times a day I feel like

[kevinexeworld-deactivated202009]

an everyday cycle

[thats-our-lamp]

“I understand” and “oh ok” 1234567times a day

[spookyseinaka-remade-deactivate]

don’t worry about it! oof

[bear1na]

The Joker and Batman by William Gray *

[ruinedchildhood]

[kelseyeng]

Gotham Girls RPG redesign for fun :) They actually make a very well-balanced team! I was originally going to do them all as knights but then saw Mindy Lee’s Poison Ivy Druid and got inspired. www.instagram.com/kelseyeng32

[januaryhoney]

“Damn eternity. I don’t want eternity. I want you, and the present, forever and forever.”

— Daphné du Maurier, Hungry Hill (via antigonick)

[the-moon-loves-the-sea]

You know what, I don’t think Aziraphale did know Crowley meant him when he said, “I lost my best friend.” Hence the sad, confused little “I’m sorry to hear that,” and then moving on immediately to strategy. Because he doesn’t think he deserves to ask who that was, and he already knows it’s not him. He had said horrible things to Crowley the last time they’d talked—had denied he liked him, had refused to choose him, and had made himself cry when he said it was over, because he thought it really was. He didn’t think he’d get another chance with Crowley if he chose heaven over him, but he thought doing that was his duty. Still he didn’t expect to be forgiven, since it felt so wrong even to himself, which is why (I think) he looked so shocked when Crowley asked him back to his place, after everything. It’s obvious he wants to—his look goes from stunned to wistful in a second—but he says immediately that heaven won’t like it. We know he doesn’t trust them any more, he called them bad angels and said he wasn’t a good one—he left them. But I think he left them to go down fighting. I think there was a good chance he assumed he was doomed, that he couldn’t win, and when the world didn’t end he had no idea what to do next. He thinks he’s already hurt Crowley too badly to get his trust back; he rejected him, twice, when Crowley had just laid his heart out, and he wouldn’t forgive himself for that. He thinks heaven is all he has left and he has to try not to alienate them any more, even if that’s a doomed effort too. He might think Crowley is just being kind by offering him a night’s shelter—he may well think it’s the last thing Crowley will do for him, and then he’s on his own. Or he might be testing to see if Crowley means it—if Crowley would still face down heaven’s wrath for him, after everything, the way he faced Satan himself when Az asked him to. Which is why it’s so important that to Aziraphale’s “My side wouldn’t like that,” Crowley says immediately, “We don’t have sides any more.” He’s echoing what he said at that bandstand. He’s telling Aziraphale that he’s forgiven him; as far as he’s concerned, they can still be on their own side. He’s letting him know that the offer to run away with him—even just to run away home—still stands.

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I think so too, now that you mention it. It’s so sad to think that Aziraphale can’t see, or doesn’t believe, that Crowley actually loves him as much as he loves Crowley no matter what happened. But I think a lot of people can relate to the feeling of not really believing that the person that you care about more than anything else in the world feels the same about you. I feel like dealing with emotional abuse for an extended period of time plays a lot into that.

[the-moon-loves-the-sea]

Yes! That! Aziraphale spent millennia assuming that strict purity of ideology and obedience was all that bonded him to anyone like him, unable to stay pure in practice, and so terrified of doing anything significant at all—focused on minutiae in the hope of being ignored, and now he’s been forced into making huge choices extremely publicly. And he made some really wrong ones and some really right ones, like everyone does in crises. But he’s been trained to believe that wrong choices aren’t normal, they’re stunningly embarrassing and will scar how people think of you permanently. And he’s been trained to mistrust his own instincts for good and to expect that even when he does the best he can no one will think it’s good. And he’s been trained to believe Crowley can’t really love him because they never shared an ideology. When he said, “We’re not friends,” I think that’s his heaven-trained fears coming into play, that love is only earned and held by pure and perfect agreement. But now on the bus stop bench Crowley’s saying that he isn’t just forgiven for choosing wrong, he’s seen as good, and wanted, despite the ways their loyalties have clashed. Not despite his individuality—because of it. Crowley is teaching him what love really is, and how he looks to someone who loves him—worthwhile.

[schizophrenicarchivist-remade-d]

Crush - Richard Siken

Good Omens - Douglas Mackinnon

“Fast Car” - Tracy Chapman

[nightsnonsense]

Perhaps this is a Hot Take™, but as a queer person old enough to have very little formative concept of Representation In Mass Media, especially beyond queer-coded villains and the occasional Butt of The Joke (looking at you, the 90s & early 2000s), I cannot begin to see how people who are part of the LGBT+ community don’t see how deeply in love Crowley & Aziraphale are.

This is only compounded, I think, by my being an adult well past the Terrible Uncertainty of Puberty and Adolescent Feelings. That’s not to diminish the impact and potential depth of falling for someone as a kid/teen/young adult of the near-18, pre-drinking-in-America-legally persuasion; rather, that is merely to say that all this talk of “but they didn’t kiss or outright say I Love You, therefore It’s Not Canon” feels like it completely oversimplifies and wraps in far too tiny a box the matter of love, especially between queer folk. It simply overlooks how much of love is so much more than that easily wrapped box.

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[vampirejuno]

I am a houseplant and god is holding me by the leaves threatening to chuck me down the garbage disposal

[andyouknowitis]

Good Omens (2019)

[assiraphales]

it’s been a long time since I’ve seen a love story that matches the pure devotion of “don’t leave me here alone. don’t go where I can’t follow”, but “we can run away together. Alpha Centauri, lots of space up there, no one would even notice us” comes pretty damn close

[andhumanslovedstories]

Can you imagine being the gentlemen of the discreet gentlemen’s club who are trying so hard to flirt with this very odd man who couldn’t be more enthusiastic about dance lessons and always brings the best wine, and you get nowhere, absolutely nowhere with him to the point where you’re all wondering if he’s one of Those Men who are so absolutely dense to subtext that he believes this really is just a discreet gentlemen’s club for gentlemen to be discreet about nothing more than billiards and drinking*, and then one day the very odd man comes in with another very odd man in all black and sunglasses, who walks so much from the hips that he looks like he’s about to tip over and moves his arms like he isn’t fully certain what they’re supposed to be doing but he’s having a good time with them, and then all the discreet gentlemen look at each other with sudden realization, because ah. Yes. The very odd man is already taken. By this other very odd man. Alright everyone, let’s line up for the gavotte.

*to reference a different Terry Pratchett work, the gay club equivalent of the men who turn up to the Seamstresses Guild in hopes of getting their socks darned, and for whom that is absolutely not innuendo for anything

[lookatmeenoww-deactivated201301]

Okay seriously. Reblog if you're OLDER than 11.

[danisontnonfire]

why is it that not more than 1/20 of Tumblr haven’t reblogged this

[nochancennochoice]

Int: This is what people - This is what I love. I almost want to get all the outtakes of you guys in full costume doing this with each other. Gwen: No one likes it. We’ve annoyed everyone. We’ve annoyed everyone on set and they don’t want to be around us. We did alienate people over the years, didn’t we? Nik: Everyone didn’t appreciate the fun we were having.

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