Excess romance in an apocalyptic/dangerous setting. You mean the only thing I see when I log on here half the time that canon characters get away with with a pass just because they're canon and get away with it tenfold by starting up sparks with like five other canon characters? Or have a harem of OCs pining after them that they all cave into?
I know I have been guilty of it sometimes but just a second now.
- Right now, that's her biggest support system. They still fight. They still do not always get along anymore like they used to. Honestly, they're only slightly better off than Kenny and Katjaa are by the beginning of episode three. They're in disagreement about a lot of things but right now, one's trying to kick a drug addiction that she was unknowingly feeding. She doesn't want to lose that lifeline so yes. Devotion going in there.
- Tainting OCs who are ten times prone to being reduced to nothing but a love interest than mine are? Even when romance is my favorite genre for writing, I've only written about it when I get prompts. That Mark's mun wants. And they're just making due in the shitty conditions. They used to be a lot more fluffy all around but even then it constantly got ruined so I think that balances it out. They don't do it that often but when there's a drabble prompt for it, yeah, I'm going to try and have fun with that. At least I don't whore out my OC.
- On another note how am I even doing damage here anymore when I hardly have any activity that isn't reblogging?
Overpowered? Okay, genuinely curious how I managed that. I don't adapt her to fit every situation (admittedly there haven't been any in a long time anyway; not that I care because again. Hanging onto this account with little reason other than place-holding.) Is it because she pursued a bunch of different talents pre-apocalypse that are useless in the current situation? Is it because of how she handles herself with Andy St. John even though it's a constant shift of power? Maybe it's because she climbed up the ranks enough to exile another group that was toxic to the res of them but hey, that never made it to Tumblr so maybe that's not even canon. I don't see it and usually that's a dangerous sign of just being too blind but I have revamped her several times since creation and did it with help. Not saying it's perfect and yeah, there's still stuff I want to change but a year into having her on tumblr it just seems really awkward to do so. Maybe it's the mention of anon stuff that's too overpowering. I don't know.
Unless you're one of the people I blocked, I really don't see how you would even know about this. I don't think (think-- I could be wrong) I've ever blocked someone over different taste. I've blocked people who have made me uncomfortable, I've blocked people I honestly just don't get along well with, people I've had bad fights with, people I never want to see again for completely personal reasons but when it comes to just not liking them or having different taste I prefer blacklisting. And admittedly that list happens to be huge but it's not the same. Going to assume you're one of the blocked on anon, associated with them somehow, or just pulling things out of your ass. :/ And frankly, it's none if your business who I'd block anyway but there you have it. If you were blocked though and don't remember interacting then it's probably because admittedly, I'm really paranoid. When I get followed on here by non-RPblogs I freak out and usually do block those and if that's the case with you or whoever you're speaking on behalf for o whatever I am sorry and I'll undo it if that's what it's actually all about...?
As for being an asshole that's about the only thing I can't counter and I'm not particularly interested in changing it. Especially with everything that's gone on with this account.
My OC isn't a master with a gun or anything, usually just does smaller jobs like working on the fence (constantly-- that's what I usually have her doing during interactions), handing out food, and trying to play mediator when it fits. She doesn't have a harem of people pining for her and she isn't throwing herself all over anybody else other than Mark.
If you wanna talk about while she's rarely in the action of things it's because she rarely leaves which could be talked up to cowardice. Doesn't want to face Andy anymore, doesn't want to deal with being the one to find struggling survivors because she brought back too many they couldn't afford as it were already. She does still go but only in larger groups.
And another fatal blow to myself is that most of the better aspects happen off of tumblr. Going on week-long trips out of Macon in search of food, dealing with violent magic!anons (Zombie!Mark, Andy's sadist anon during December, Mark's werewolf anon, all the chaos that happened around Halloween and Thanksgiving).
And now nothing happens because me and the people I was more attached to around here are either broken up or we're migrating to other fandoms now. Not as active as once upon a time. And part of the reason is happens is because it's a zombie apocalypse and after awhile everything gets really really fucking repetitive. You can't kill anyone off unless you/they plan on leaving the fandom for good. Part of the reason I don't do death drabbles anymore is for the same exact reason: it gets fucking repetitive. I used to do it all the time. Suicides, suicide notes, deaths by walkers, reactions to deaths by walkers of comrades, I used to do it all all the time but there are only so many ways to make those deaths special and anymore different than what you wrote last time, or hell, what everyone else has written several times now. I think the only way I haven't had Bri die yet is by having her cannibalized or mauled by werewolf Mark or something. She's died accidentally, she's sacrificed herself, she's been eaten I don't know HOW many times back when I had her first account, she's committed suicide at least three times (and attempted it twice in canon in the span of one full year).
I agree that post-apocalypse shouldn't be all happy-go-lucky sexfest like I see on my dash all the fucking time when I do log in for the five or ten minutes I can stand to but frankly: bonds are formed, bonds fade out, talents are earned, you still fuck up sometimes, muse sparks, muse dies and this one is mostly dead as the zombies.
You want to know the only reason I'm even on here?
It's stupid, much like this rant has been. It's petty, like this asshole, me.
I like the canon these guys all have together and don't want to leave it. I don't want what's happened over the course of a year, the relationships, the friendships, the antagonizing between her and Andy to just go up and smoke. I keep the account so that I can still go to relationships pages and read back about when times were still okay. I don't want to leave because I can't think of a proper way to end things which suits all the future headcanon we've concocted.
I keep hoping that something will spark SOME interest other than trying to for the sake of making someone else happy and myself happy because I get to still have this character matter on a few pages but frankly I doubt it's going to happen and it's fine/ I have other accounts--many. And I still RP off tumblr and still RP better off tumblr than I do on (and with that you don't even have to take my word because some of it has been posted. Not sure if here or on what used to be ifellfromgrayzonerainbow.) I use Bri somewhere where any sort of thing that screwed her up here isn't an issue: Normalverse. With lots of AUs to make that more exciting. Not restricted to just a restricting zombie world but not trapped in a complete mundane reality either. Just a bunch of us from here doing whatever we want over there. I hated 400 Days for the most part and I don't have that much hope for Season 2 and don't get me started on my feelings toward 95% of the show...
I'm still going to pop on every now and again. Do I think I'll ever get anything finished? No. Tooooo much distraction, too much offline crap, too much online crap, too much stuff to do and too much to work on on the other accounts.
jEESUS sorry whoever is still around to see this fuckin thang
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