Cykeldynamo.

to do list become a body-building senior citizen get Dachshund acquire library fit for a queer conjure self-discipline other stuff +

[thejollyape]

I’m at a point in my life where I should feel a lot, but feel nothing. And in my heartlessness the only thing that makes me sad is that the apathy has made words lose their charm. Prose is nothing but another pointless shitpile completely devoid of meaning or merit. Leaving me with nothing and shame, so I think I'll take a break.

[thejollyape]

Everything is bullshit.

[thejollyape]

What's up with tumblr redirecting you to the dashboard when you want to view someone's actual tumblr page?

[thejollyape]

[thequeenismyhomegirl-blog]

[flurrycolton-deactivated2016041]

So ready.

[thejollyape]

I can't be the only one who finds it kind of hilarious that every single gailxholly fic includes them taking care of a child in some capacity.

[thejollyape]

Sometimes I feel like the Universe is a little heavy handed in its rhetorics. Then sometimes I think, yeah I am that dense so it's probably justified.

[thejollyape]

Watching Continuum and the urge to strangle Krycek slowly with ramen noodles is powerful.

[cirkeln]

[will-arnetts]

[lesbianvenom]

#emmy nominated television

[thejollyape]

[thejollyape]

the reliance on fandom

I hate that feeling when you've just closed the book on something that used to interest you and you're left standing there without that burning interest and with no fandom to belong to. It's like finishing a book, but a little bigger.

Or at least for me personally, because I've always been part of fan culture, ever since I was a teenager and Buffy was the shit. It's a huge and lovely thing to find a little group and share interests with. It's a social interaction that's super easy to get into, because it comes with this long list of pre-printed questions to discuss. It makes interacting so straightforward, because there's always that ice-breaker present to smooth things over. Usually the good relationships go far beyond the shared interest, but fandom is a social lubricant that doesn't kill braincells. And the thing is, it's more than that, fandom is a teddy bear of acceptance, most of the time. It's a little cluster to belong to, to make proud, to help produce and to help re-produce. 

Yeah, I'm a huge fan of fan culture and it's also a huge part of who I am. But interests come and go, it's the nature of these things. For various reasons your attention and attraction is not a static island but more a life-raft floating along the river, it changes position and at times even disappears beneath the waves. And it's when it disappears that things get...confusing. Or well you suddenly find yourself in the river without anything to hold on to, everything is rushing by you so fast you can't really make out what's happening. It's just a mindless swirl and you feel pretty isolated. A feeling that's not nearly as much fun or as comforting as being part of a fandom and getting to bob along on that raft.

So when you've dropped an interest you become this lost and confused nomad. Sometimes you revisit old fandoms, which can be fun, but also confusing because it's like only visiting your parents house every 6th months and finding out that they've switched around where they keep the plates and the towels are now in a new cupboard, and I mean everything still exists inside that house, but it's been rearranged and redecorated just enough to make you really feel that this is no longer yours. Still you linger a little in old obsession, kick the ball around with whoever is there playing at the moment, but you know you can't stay more than a few nights, it's just not, no it wouldn't be right.

Which means you soon find yourself drifting alone again. Sooner or later you'll bump your head into a new interest and it'll turn into an obsession and with it you'll be submerged in a new fandom to call HQ. But until that happens you become an individual again and that's...it's scary. Collective living is so much more rewarding. This lone wolf thing is kinda bullshit.

Then again you can't force it, then you'll only break it. Because when that lone wolf tries to go live with the beavers, it's...no it doesn't work. You've got to wait for a new tribe to come along and offer you a place.

Still, until that happens you're weirdly untethered and very individual and it's a weird thing. I mean what topics do you bullshit? Which ideas do you let inspire you? Which fanfic do you read? What do you do with your own creative output when there's no outlet for it? Also how do you interact with people without that lubricant?

[ayrki]

thejollyape replied to your post:I need to stop reblogging gifsets from All…

Everything else is a blur, the lesbians were the protagonists in a non-lesbian movie. After all the bullshit, that’s like sweet mana. But yeah, issues come with consideration beyond gut-yay.

No, but they did have to go for the creepy, stalkery gay chick at the beginning, and throw in a dash of the ‘witch is the creepy, stalkery, queer one’ too.  And it’s just… they did so well to debunk so many other tropes, and then just fell flat on their face with Leena.  And I know: it was probably all intentional, making her tropey beyond all tropes, but… it didn’t work for me.  Instead, it was old ground, retread instead of subverting a couple of really bloody annoying (and insulting) stereotypes.

I did just about die when she was on the back of the bike behind Maddy and they played the uber romantic score.

yeah, I think what frustrated me is they got some things really, really right, and then totally dropped the ball on a few others.  It’s like “you guys did so fucking well here, here, here, and practically everywhere, but then THIS!  THIS.  Why did you do this?!”

I feel like I’m being nit-picky, and I really did enjoy the film, but hey: if Tumblr’s taught me anything it’s that you can totally enjoy a thing and still be critical of it.  And this is one of those things I am doing this with.

[thejollyape]

I know what you mean, and it did make me frown a little until the movie started unfolding a bit, then it got mostly hilarious. Especially with the cat and it's just..hilarious and the trope gets tempered by the fact that she is only one out of three lesbian/bi characters. But there are problems with it all over I agree, like for instance [spoilers ahead] how the only person of colour in the movie with a substantial speaking role is literally the devil himself. That's not just a little bothersome, even if he alongside with the lesbians were the last persons left standing which in the setting of a horror movie is still painfully rare. Still he was the one evil they fought against (don't get me wrong I thought even that in a way was really good, it was a good role and good roles for minorities is always awesome, but he can't exist alone as the villain. There needed to be more people of colour in the movie for him to be contrasted against for it to not come across as white supremacy bullshit). So when it comes to race it got an F. But as a whole it took me by surprise with the feminist themes (that's some serious sisterhood right there) and the way it used lesbian love and men's violence against women (both from a female pov) as a way to further and well create the main plot of the movie. Those movies only come once in a blue moon.

[supernana494]

To Protect and Serve Cover (x)

1600x1200 Wallpaper (x)

[saunteringvaguelydownwards]

Link to the fic, for convenience [X]

[lydiamarty-blog]

I don’t have a temper.

[fyeahchicagofire]

[thundergrace]

"No, it’s not specifically a lesbian movie, but three of the leading characters are queer ladies. Here’s where it gets good, and where All Cheerleaders Die kicks a lot of horror tropes right in the face: their queerness does not exist to titillate any of the male characters…or male audience members for that matter. It’s simply part of the story, and drives certain pivotal plot points.” (x)