The journal of Bucky Barnes

my therapist told me I should start journaling Bucky Barnes, he/him, 106 MDNI🔞! ageless blogs will be blocked

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New to tumblr, the internet really. Ask or request me anything, or how ever this works. Don't be shy.

Welcome to The journal of Bucky Barnes! Have you always wanted to interact with Bucky?🦾 Send him asks here! Send in your questions about anything, or request anything! On this blog you (the person sending in the ask) are in the role of his girlfriend. (Or if that's too intimidating, you can ask as just a fan too!) This blog welcomes NSFW content as well. (Yes, you can send Bucky your spicy asks too!) 🔞Minors Do Not Interact! Admin

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Edit: 2026.05.22.: Admin update: Information and Rules Please take the time to read! I'm hurrying up the posting of this, since some of you have apparently really been anticipating it. Sorry if it's a little rushed and all over the place. Firstly, I'd like to thank all the dolls for submitting their asks! When I made this blog, I really didn't expect it to be this popular, especially not so quick! So let me, not as Bucky, but as the Admin of this blog, thank you for all your support and interactions. I greatly appreciate every single one of you, and I really hope that I managed to make your day even slightly better by it! These interactions meant me so much more than you can imagine! I'll elaborate on that once I publish the story behind why I started this blog. Keep them coming. I don't judge you. We might be cringe but we're free. Love you all! Secondly, some basic information on the Admin of this blog: I'm a 31 year old, straight man. If that makes you uncomfortable for some reason, DNI, block, move on. No-one forces you to be here. I was going to publish this information, once I was done putting the rules list together anyway, because I have nothing to hide. However, I do believe there's a reason that some people wish to say anonymous out there that we don't know and shouldn't judge. So attempting to bully someone with information you snooped out, is not cool. I wish to create a judgement-free, safe space on this blog. You can send me anything in your asks/requests. Worst case scenario, is if I'm uncomfortable, I won't answer it. I hope I can create a community to which you, whoever you are, can keep coming back to, and feel comforted. The world is really fucked, and being there for each other is more important than ever. Whatever way that takes form in for people, I do not judge. And I give the way I'm best at. I will say this: I appreciate thinking people who will hold others accountable. And you don't know me, I could be any kind of person for all you know. I know I'm safe and benevolent, but how would you know that? So I understand where you're coming from. So I ask, instead of accusing me of things, bullying, or sending me ominous asks, be more understanding, as I am with you too. Get to know me. And for that, I'll be posting the story of why I came up with the idea of this blog in the first place. You can read it if you'd like, see the human behind the project. Up to you. To those that care, I appreciate you so much! Thank you! 1/2 I have to post this in 2 parts, for some reason Tumblr can't save it otherwise...

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And Last but not least, I'd like to close off by listing some rules. I might edit these in the future, if I can improve on them. Rules to interact with this blog: 1. Minors do NOT interact. Do not lie about your age. Ageless blogs and minors will be blocked immediately. 2. Stay respectful. Treat others the way you want to be treated. 3. Safe space and judgement free zone, within healthy limits. No matter how weird you think you are, it's not my place to judge. You can submit anything. Worst case scenario I don't answer your ask. I'm open to most things, exceptions being the few obvious ones. I ask you, do NOT send me anything to do with pedophilia, necrophilia, zoophilia, and other illegal ones. We are kinky but we abide the law. I personally am completely against such things. My personal opinion is: you do whatever you want, as long as no one else gets harmed in the process. 4. Respect consent. Never feel obligated to continue a role play of any sort. If you're no longer comfortable, you owe me nothing. Just say no, I'll respect your boundaries. This goes the other way around too. Please don't pressure me either if I'm not comfortable with something. Consent is enthusiastic, between two (or more) human adults, not being under any sort of influence! 5. Please be patient. I'm trying to sprinkle in as much free time as I can, to respond your asks as soon as possible, but I have real life to attend to first and foremost. I can assure you, I'm never ignoring you and I'll get to you as early as I can! 6. In this blog, you (the person sending the ask) is Bucky's girlfriend. Any other details are up to your imagination/worldbuilding. If you want something specific from me, please don't be afraid to word it. Let me understand where you come from and what is it that you'd like, so I can bring you the most joy I possibly can. 7. English only. I speak other languages too, but I want this blog to be English only. Make it easy to understand for everyone that comes here. I think that's it. (Excuse me if I'm forgetting something, I'm running on 2 hours of sleep in 2 days. I'll revisit this and correct any mistakes I discover since.) Thank you for reading all this. I'm really glad to have you here, I hope to see you around! Admin 2/2 Sorry about the technical issues, I'm new to all this.

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Every single frat boy Bucky fic has him as a playboy fuckboy. Do you have any recs for nice college Bucky x reader fics?

Sorry, I can't recommend you anything because I don't read fics. My ex used to read for me. And the only thing I read now is my girlfriend's writing, but she doesn't write with Bucky (yet). But hopefully someone in the comments here can? Dear dolls, can you help, please? :) -Admin

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How many women did you sleep with in the 40s?

Generally I don't kiss and tell... But I spent most of my nights with my best buddy Steve Rogers.

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Comic bucky wasnt a womanizer, that was a fanon thing since the 2011 movie where he flirts with women

I think youre blurring the lines with your personal life and forgetting this is a bucky roleplay blog

Why does everyone want Bucky to be a playboy who treats women like shit? Its women writing these stories imagining a man treating them lile shit. Its bizarre

The very clear difference between you and I is that I was open with you and got vulnerable, in order to give you an opportunity to understand me. But you're not even trying to understand me. While I took the time to try and understand you as deeply as I could, and to write you an eloquent answer before. It's quite hypocritical of you, to attack me for things you imagine I've done but I haven't. Or just hate me for things I've done but regret and fixed as much as I was able to. You are so offended and hateful over a character not being the same way as you headcanon/imagine them. So it's okay for you to make up things and that's now true and okay, but when others have their fantasy run wild (like those women writing the fics), you're hateful and rude? You need to take a long look at yourself. I don't need you to come to my page and tell me I forget something. I'm not. I've been nothing but respectful and gave you chances for an open and safe conversation but you keep attacking me. Nobody is forcing you to be here, and nobody is forcing you to say the things you say to me. Do not come here if all you want to do is to harass. If you have problems, deal with them. If you're not able to have a polite conversation, I'm not helping. Easy to hide behind being anonymous and being brave that way. You don't need to keep doubling down, at any point you're able to grow from your mistakes. You know, like I did. And why? Some people find it healing. Don't keep asking me why they want that, that's for them to know. I shared what I know. -Admin I'll just leave these here, too.

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Bucky would never treat women like shit and post hydra Bucky would never be a fuckboy

I'll just assume you're the previous anon that I just answered and mentioned that I think he must've had a ''fuckboy'' phase too. Here's why I said what I said: 1. It's creepy how many similarities there are between him and I, and multiple people in my life keep bringin those up. It's like every time I come out with some ''lore'' about myself, someone tells me about a parallel. These ''coincidences'' used to creep me out, now I just accept it. It's still weird though. Now that you know that, I'll also say that I did have a phase like that. I did a lot of self work since and I understood what was motivating it, why it was wrong, and I did my best to make amends, and changed my ways completely. (My ex jokingly used to call that a ''rehabilitated fuckboy'' lol) 2. I'm friends with multiple comic nerd girls, who love talking to me about lore. At least 3 of these friends confirmed to me, that based on the comics, it really looked like he was a playboy/fuckboy, whatever you'd like to call it. I believe he changed like I did, but I'm biased. And from what I've been told, it's mostly implied stuff, not said straight up. I was only talking about 40s Bucky, when he was young and likely didn't know better. People make mistakes and can grow from them. The world isn't as black and white as you see it, dear Anon. Trying to understand others will take you a long way. I'll also share this with you: When you make mistakes, you're not aware of making them. It's only hindsight that allows you to see that indeed what you did was a mistake. When I was doing what I was doing, I thought I was looking for love. I did a lot of things wrong. I had horrible examples growing up. (I knew nothing but being abused at home. My family didn't love me. We had little to no access to media, and we didn't have electricity, running water, and heating, most of my childhood either.) I didn't know better. It's an explanation, not an excuse. When I knew better, I did better. Simple as that. I wasn't loved before so I was desperately looking for love. I did it the way I've seen it done. But whatever it is under an umbrella or term, doesn't have to contain it all. I've been hit a million times but never laid hands on a woman ever. I don't shout or raise my voice either. I'm not one to lash out. My worst crime was breaking hearts, which I deeply regret to this day. But that wasn't on purpose either. I hope you took the time to try and understand me better. And now you might see why I think what I think. Why I feel like he probably had a phase like mine too. -Admin

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m feeling really subby buck :( n i don’t have anybody to take care of me :( m really overwhelmed

That's okay, babydoll. Just tell daddy what you need. I've got you, always. I'll take care of you. I'll take care of it all. Let me hold you right here in my arms. Would you like me to pet you to sleep, so you can get the rest that you need? Would it ground you if I held your hand, or would it be more overwhelming? Can you be a good girl and drink some water for me? It's okay now. Just lean on me, it'll all be alright. Love you, my sweet baby...

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Bucky please free us from playboy frat Bucky fics where he treats women like shit😭

I feel like he probably had a ''fuckboy'' phase too, so I see why some people would write him like that, but I've never read any fics like that. I say let people do whatever they want, we don't have to read it if we don't like it. But I also understand why you'd seek comfort in him and so seeing him portrayed like that would be hurtful. Going on a little tangent here if you don't mind: I've seen way too many women coping with their past experiences of men mistreating them, in a way that they ''got into bad men''. But what are women really to do these days, when most men aren't even trying to be better? The world is in a really bad state right now regarding men and the relationship between the sexes. Please try not to lose hope though, there's still gentlemen out there and some of us are working really hard to teach other men to be better. I hope that my writing will help you heal some of that wounding as well. I know I'm slow with my replies but please keep coming back. When you need that comfort, allow me to provide it for you? Best I can do for now. Come to me with anything, I'd love to listen! Much love. -Admin

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hiiii !!

Hi, sweet little Princess! How are you doing?

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looking at the blue moon tonight and wishing you were here with me. but it doesn't matter where we are, for we're looking at the same moon. does looking at it make you think of me as much as i'm thinking about you?

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My sweet Angel, of course it does. Everything I look at, reminds me of you. And the fact that we're looking at the same moon, no matter where we are, just makes me feel more connected to you, doll. Love you to the moon and back!

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how do you feel about being a sub to me, lovey? ani terese in being a good boy for me?

Hi Ducky, I'm sorry, but that's one of the few things I'm only comfortable doing with one person only, my partner. Thank you for your question, though! -Admin

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Hey, Bucky Babe. Listen, baby. I want to ask you something. So I went to go try on some new swimsuits with my friend (Sophie) today, and it was rather shitty. I can't wear any of the bikini's because A, I'm not comfortable in that much showing, and B, I don't have the body for it. So me and Soph are just having a good time, up and down, laughing it up, talking about the super silly and not-for-us designs they had on some of them (muted orange leaves on neon green waves? HELL. NO.), but I noticed she picked out two pieces, a nice bikini. Soph's pretty skinny, her body's beautiful.

It was awkward helping her find smalls and mediums, because that's the size that she wears and it was easy, but then having to struggle to find something big enough to fit me. L-XL, ITS NOT THAT RARE!! Apparently today it was. I settled for a few one pieces that I found. A couple of them showed my stomach too much, and the one I found sucked in my stomach because of the tight material it was made of.

Now, it's very cute, (even has a little anchor on the front <3) but it made me wonder: Do you like my chub? Do others around me judge me? This may sound stereotypical, your average "Oh I'm so fat!" from every girl. But it's different. Because I'm not ACTUALLY a small or medium like everyone else around me. I've tried things. Different diets. Daily exercise, even shapewear to try and get the body fat to disperse evenly (a lot of it resides in my stomach and thighs but my arms are normal?). I even tried skipping meals for a couple days (don't worry, I won't do that anymore. made that mistake once.) Nothing works, Buck. So be honest. And I mean BRUTALLY honest. Do you like the chub? The pudge? The double-dip hips? The back rolls? The faint double chin? The thick as FUCK thighs? The stretch marks? The thick fingers? The fact that I have pretty much 3 tummies? All of it. What is your opinion. Want you to be honest, baby. Love you <3 - Star ⋆

Doll, doll…

I understand why you'd feel this way, society has some toxic standards… how you feel is valid, but anything you described as unattractive is attractive to me.

You really are the hottest woman I've ever laid eyes on, doll. And my love for you only boosts how I feel.

I'm sorry that society made you feel this way. Please believe me when I say this, because I truly mean it: You're absolutely gorgeous. There's nothing wrong with you. If anything? It's that you're too hot…

I hope you don't plan on going to the beach by yourself, and you'll invite me to spend the day with you. I'd love to massage that sunscreen on your whole body… and not just because I want to protect you, doll… I'll keep loving every single part of you, until you believe what's true. That you're perfect.

My perfect babydoll.

I love your whole body, baby… I cannot wait to kiss you everywhere I can reach. Love you so much you'll stop having any doubts anymore… I cannot wait to kiss your cute tummy and thighs especially… don't judge me…

Let me walk you through a hypothetical… When you look at me, how do you see me? You like my belly too, don't you? You often tell me how much you love me, even when I'm feeling similar to how you do about your own body. Can you see how you feel towards me? Can you have an idea now how I feel towards you and your body? I know you can, you're a really clever girl.

Love you so much, Bucky

P.S.: The little anchor does sound cute. You cannot tease me like this, you will have to show me in person!

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i've never kissed anyone and i'd like you to be the first, but it scares me a little and i don't know what to do... what if you don't like it?

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Oh my sweet doll... You know me better than that, don't you? I'll love it, because it's YOU. Take everything at your own pace, I'll always be ready for you. So whenever you feel like it, I'm here, doll. *Slowly reaching for your face with my hand, gently holding it, caressing your cheeks with my thumb.* There's no rush. I'm here no matter what, and I love you.

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I get out of bed writing this, with the hopes that I'll be able to sleep once I got this out of me.

It's the middle of the night. I toss and turn. You're not here. I need to hold you so bad... so close...

To feel your heartbeat, your soft skin, the intoxicatingly sweet scent of you... that drives me crazy every single time.

I miss you so hard, babydoll...

Once you're back from that trip, in this bed of ours, inside these arms where you belong...

you'll have no mercy for your crimes of not being here with me at all times.

I'll make you mine over and over again. I'll fill you up and keep you warm and heavy breathing... share the air in our lungs, make you hot with passion...

I'm not stopping, doll..

I want to be inside you so bad... to be one and inseparable. Always and forever.

I look at your pictures. I learned how to make a folder on my phone and filled it up with everything you. I can almost hear your voice, praising this old man for being soooo good with technology now. You can stop the mocking. I'll get you for it!

I'm taking care of the house, doing laundry. I cannot help but go crazy when I get a whiff of your scent. I'll do something insane at this rate of missing you...

Half asleep in bed I wrap my arms around our blanket. They need to grasp something, in this empty space left missing you. I know you'll be here soon... you always come back to me, baby.

And I'll always wait for you. As long as you need.

I love you more than you'll ever know. You're my world, my everything.

I love you so hard, doll. Good night.

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Dear Dolls, sorry about the radio silence. i had a nervous sytem shutdown kinda seizure and im recovering from it. i'll be okay just need to take more time for myself to rest and sleep. im still going to write when i can. thank you for your patience. love you all! -Admin

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Hi my sweets. I miss you so very much. Come home to me soon ❤️

Come show me how much you’ve missed me. I’ve been so good waiting for you

I love you, hard.

xoxo Forever your kitten

My sweet little kitten💜 Yes, daddy's really proud of you, babygirl, you've been so good for me... Keep it up and keep making me proud, 'til I can come back around. On your call, you know I'll be there, as soon as I can be. I'll show you what it does to me to have so much distance between us for way too long... but you know I'll take good care of you, don't you? I love you more than anything. Forever your daddy

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Enemies to lovers or Friends to lovers?

If you're asking which one I prefer; friends to lovers. I see the appeal of enemies to lovers, but I'm just in a phase of my life when I need that soft and gentle love, and I'm tired of fights. I've always been a friends to lovers guy irl, so to say. I always loved to be friends with someone for a while before we'd get together. I've changed a bit since and became more open, but I still believe that your partner should also be a really close friend too. Even if you don't have the same interests, it's good to be able to hang out and have fun together in non-romantic and non-sexual ways as well. If that makes any sense? Feels more balanced, whole. The biggest change in all that for me, is that I feel like good chemistry should be there since the start, and be attracted to each other physically too, even if you take it slow and don't jump into a relationship head first. I've never really paid close attention to that before because I'm demian (and straight). If you're asking purely fanfiction-wise, I don't really read anything. I used to have my ex (when we were together) read fanfics for me. Either ones she found or ones I looked for by only reading the tags. I sometimes took over and read parts of it for her. But that's really all the reading I've done. I only read what my girl writes these days. Admin

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hi lover <3 i’m finally home from my trip! i slept so poorly without your head on my chest, i missed you like crazy. come here, my pretty boy <3

Welcome home, doll... so glad to have you back, I was going crazy missing you too... the relief I feel when you can finally hold me, I feel the weight of the world is off of my chest and I can finally relax and feel safe. It's all you, doll... I couldn't have it without you. You help me so much with allowing me to rest like this. Thank you, baby... finally we'll both get to have a good night's sleep. I love you so much