Personal Post
I love Tumblr and other forms of social media because it makes people not feel alone in this cruel world; but there’s a down side to it..some posts (on all sites) perpetuate loneliness and so on and so forth. It really hit me today when I saw that someone I followed retweeted something that read “Warning: Do NOT catch feelings.” And while this normally would not phase me, it really struck a chord in me.
Background: Recently, I was talking to a guy and I thought things were going pretty well for we were getting pretty serious. But then he just up and left saying that he didn't feel the same. Now, I was pretty hurt at first and confused at what signs I missed and I’m sad that I lost a friend. But I’ve moved past it and just realized, that’s life isn't it?
So how this all connects is that when I read that tweet stating to “not catch feelings,” I immediately thought, “Geez, they’re right.” For a girl that this has happened to for the past 3 times, you’d think I’d learn to not “catch feelings.” But I’m so happy I did. I’m NOT ashamed that I had these feelings for various boys. Yes, did it suck that things didn’t work out? Of course it did, but I would rather have those happy memories and know that I can experience love/happiness. To me, everyone is so afraid of, the unknown, things not working out; that they miss out on opportunities that could make them really happy...for just in that moment if nothing else. No one likes to experience pain and heartbreak, but it’s what helps us grow as people and leads us to becoming who we wanna become.
I’ve never been much of a confident girl to begin with, but what these three boys taught me is that: I am a valuable person. No one likes rejection but with rejection comes self reflection and I realized that I’m sort of pretty (something that I’m personally working on.) I’m loyal, a fantastic listener, occasionally funny, and that any guys would be lucky to have me. It also made me I realize that yes, I love hard. I like kisses and hugs, showing affection and cuddling, constant texts and the occasional sext, because to me this will make a person feel wanted and loved and I’m sure as hell not ashamed of this one bit, for one day I’ll find someone who thinks the same.
So to you, if you’re reading this, please don’t ever feel ashamed of how you feel towards a person and do not let rejection harden you. We may not have ever talked or met in our lives, but I can say with 100% certainty that you are a valuable human and anyone who tells you otherwise is wrong. Don’t become a stoic human who never lets feelings in because they’re afraid to be let down or hurt, that’s no way to live life.
Most people on tumblr are usually apart of the younger generation who are obsessed with finding love, but please don’t be devastated when it doesn’t work out (trust me, I know it’s easier said than done.) You've barely had a chance to experience this crazy thing called life, and while it may seem like everyone’s having babies and getting married, it’s only a small portion of people. You’re gonna find someone who is gonna wanna be with you for the rest of your life, you just need time to find them...so have a drink and let life work in its mysterious way.