Lysander woke in the middle of the night, less-than-sober and full of piss. A cold wind whistled outside. He pawed the ground in search of the lantern and knocked over an empty wine bottle. When he finally managed to light the candle, Mortanius stirred.Â
âMmm, what is it now?âÂ
âRelax, Iâm just going to take a leak. Iâll be back before you know it.â
He stood and put on a heavy coat and boots. Even though it would have saved him a lot of trouble, he felt too embarrassed to use the empty bottle in front of Mortanius, who happened to be watching. Besides, it wouldnât have felt right. It wouldnât be long before Lysander regretted his decision. The cold was practically unbearable. Heading a little ways outside of camp, Lysander found a tree to shield him from the wind and started to relieve himself.
Tonight had been almost perfect, almost because Lysander hesitated to tempt fate even in the privacy of his mind. He had been irritable ever since Declan came down on him for drinking up too much of the armyâs rations, which were running low. Then, right around sundown, Mortanius appeared like an angel and surprised him with a bottle of wine from Helmsburg. Apparently he bribed that mercenary woman to smuggle it to him in secret. He dared say even Moebius didnât know. Lysander was utterly smitten.Â
They passed the evening in loquacious drinking, insulated in Mortaniusâ tent. Mortanius expressed gratitude for Lysanderâs compassion and strength and other words for which Lysander felt woefully inadequate, yet when he lay against Mortaniusâ chest he almost believed it himself. Standing out in the sobering cold, Lysander wondered if he could ever truly live up to Mortaniusâ vision.Â
Having finished his business, Lysander picked up the lantern and turned toward camp. Just then a strange whispering emanated from the woods. Lysander tried to ignore it, telling himself it was only the wind, but as he started to walk away he recognized the sound of quiet sobbing.Â
The sobberâs breathing sounded labored, as if the sobber had been there all along, concealed by the wind. If he hurried back to camp he could send someone to help. But what if the wind kicked up again?Â
Lysander jogged deeper into the forest. Beyond the lanternâs halo the forest was as black as pitch. As the crying became louder he called, âHello!? Iâm here to help! If you can hear me, yell!âÂ