save me

stuck in this perpetual emptiness

[thelastflicker]

some days it's ok if all you did was survive... just stay alive... nothing else really matters, everything else can wait. just stay alive... for me... please

[theoptia]

Emil Cioran, from The Book of Delusions

Text ID: the regret of not realizing the pure life in me, [...] of having been tormented by regrets, despair, obsessions and tortures; [...] of having been tortured every moment by the fear of nothingness, the thought of nothingness and the fear of existing.

[thelastflicker]

I just wish I could have been a better person

[thelastflicker]

here i am, at the end again.

I gave up again.

I burned through every plan... I failed every time.

I have to survive on these fumes a little longer...

I don't really know what happens next.

I don't know if I'll make it...

I'm going to try again.

We have to keep trying.

I won't give up on anyone, so don't give up on me. Please.

Keep trying.

[thelastflicker]

Why do they say you're more likely to regret the things you haven't done?

I've regretted almost everything I've chosen to do and almost nothing i haven't done...

I should have never done anything at all... i should've have rotted in the dirt and at least fed the earth...

[thelastflicker]

how many times will I tell myself.. "If I can just make it through this month... If I can just make it through this week... If I can just make it through this day, the worst will be over, and it will get better, it will get easier."

But it never does. Or maybe it does, but I grow weaker twice as fast.

How much longer can I drag out this sad story...

Will I taste any joy at the very end? Will I know any love? Will I finally be free?

I want to find out

[thelastflicker]

god god god i wish I could just have a little break from being mentally ill, just one little moment please please please I can't keep doing this I'm not gonna make it

[thoughtcascades]

the urge to disappear vs the urge to be found

[thoughtcascades]

do i want love or do i just want someone to witness my downfall in real time

[thoughtcascades]

all i do is overcommit to things i don’t care about and underperform at things that define my soul

[age-of-self]

[thelastflicker]

I thought i wanted to go somewhere far away, somewhere beautiful to die... but now I just want to go home. I guess nowhere is as beautiful as home anyway...

I want to go quietly into that familiar night...

I'm so tired

[cozybonfires]

Daniel Fowler

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[freakoutgirl]

not to sound like a victorian woman suffering from hysteria but i do think going to the sea would fix me

[alexxuun]

Would you please, please hurry

In another cycle, they made it out…

[thelastflicker]

Life is so damn short. Too many of us are determined to waste it.

I'm not gonna keep putting off living. Not for any job, not for anybody. I'm gonna live authentically, I don't care who disapproves.

I don't care how much society wants to put me down. I won't take it anymore.

I'm going to live this life how I want to. I'm going to be free. I'm going to make sure this life was worth living.