save me

stuck in this perpetual emptiness

[thelastflicker]

some days it's ok if all you did was survive... just stay alive... nothing else really matters, everything else can wait. just stay alive... for me... please

[wovi]

[theoptia]

Emil Cioran, from The Book of Delusions

Text ID: the regret of not realizing the pure life in me, [...] of having been tormented by regrets, despair, obsessions and tortures; [...] of having been tortured every moment by the fear of nothingness, the thought of nothingness and the fear of existing.

[thelastflicker]

I just wish I could have been a better person

[thelastflicker]

here i am, at the end again.

I gave up again.

I burned through every plan... I failed every time.

I have to survive on these fumes a little longer...

I don't really know what happens next.

I don't know if I'll make it...

I'm going to try again.

We have to keep trying.

I won't give up on anyone, so don't give up on me. Please.

Keep trying.

[thelastflicker]

Why do they say you're more likely to regret the things you haven't done?

I've regretted almost everything I've chosen to do and almost nothing i haven't done...

I should have never done anything at all... i should've rotted in the dirt and at least fed the earth...

[thelastflicker]

how many times will I tell myself.. "If I can just make it through this month... If I can just make it through this week... If I can just make it through this day, the worst will be over, and it will get better, it will get easier."

But it never does. Or maybe it does, but I grow weaker twice as fast.

How much longer can I drag out this sad story...

Will I taste any joy at the very end? Will I know any love? Will I finally be free?

I want to find out

[thelastflicker]

god god god i wish I could just have a little break from being mentally ill, just one little moment please please please I can't keep doing this I'm not gonna make it

[thoughtcascades]

the urge to disappear vs the urge to be found

[thoughtcascades]

do i want love or do i just want someone to witness my downfall in real time

[thoughtcascades]

all i do is overcommit to things i don’t care about and underperform at things that define my soul

[age-of-self]

[thelastflicker]

I thought i wanted to go somewhere far away, somewhere beautiful to die... but now I just want to go home. I guess nowhere is as beautiful as home anyway...

I want to go quietly into that familiar night...

I'm so tired

[cozybonfires]

Daniel Fowler

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[freakoutgirl]

not to sound like a victorian woman suffering from hysteria but i do think going to the sea would fix me

[alexxuun]

Would you please, please hurry

In another cycle, they made it out…