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I'm tired of crumbs. I want the whole fucking cake.
Me? Oh just spiraling over someone I probably shouldn't be.
Hey, just gonna stop and ask myself: why am I seeking connection with trash people?
It's cool. Just gonna over think and not open up to people anymore. Got it.
My face is having uncontrollable spasms. Great. It hurts really, really, really bad.
I think part of why I have trouble explaining pain to the doctor is when they ask about the pain scale I always think āWell, if someone threw me down a flight of stairs right now or punched me a few times, it would definitely hurt a lot moreā so I end up saying a low number. I was reading an article that said that ā10ā is the most commonly reported number and that is baffling to me. When I woke up from surgery with an 8" incision in my body and I could hardly even speak, I was in the most horrific pain of my life but I said ā6ā because I thought āWell, if you hit me in the stomach, it would be worse.ā
I searched and searched for the post this graphic was from, and the OP deactivated, but I kept the graphic, because my BFF does the same thing, uses her imagination to come up with the worst pain she can imagine and pegs herĀ ā10ā³ there, and so is like, well, Iām conscious, so this must be a 5, and then the doctors donāt take her seriously. (And she then does things like driving herself to the hospital while in the process of giving birth. Probably should have called an ambulance for that one!)
So I found this and sent it to her. Because this is what they want to know: how badly is this pain affecting you? Not on a scale ofĀ ānothingā toĀ āhow Iād imagine itād feel if bears were eating my still-living guts while I was on fireā.Ā
I hate reposting stuff, but Iāll never find that post again and OP is deactivated, so, hereās a repost. I can delete this later, i just wanted to get it to you and I canāt embed images in a chat or an ask.Ā
This is possibly why it took several weeks to diagnose my fractured spine.
Pain Scale transcription:
10 - I am in bed and I canāt move due to my pain. I need someone to take me to the emergency room because of my pain.
9 - My pain is all that I can think about. I can barely move or talk because of my pain.
8 - My pain is so severe that it is difficult to think of anything else. Talking and listening are difficult.
7 - I am in pain all the time. It keeps me from doing most activities.
6 - I think about my pain all of the time. I give up many activities because of my pain.
5 - I think about my pain most of the time. I cannot do some of the activities I need to do each day because of the pain.
4 - I am constantly aware of my pain but can continue most activities.
3 - My pain bothers me but I can ignore it most of the time.
2 - I have a low level of pain. I am aware of my pain only when I pay attention to it.
1 - My pain is hardly noticeable.
0 - I have no pain.
Itās also really important to get this kind of scale to people who have chronic pain, because chronic pain drastically lowers your perception of howĀ ābadā any kind of pain actually is, and yet something like this pain scale is extremely user friendly.Ā
For example, if someone asked me how much pain Iām in at any given time, Iād say hardly any, and yet Iām apparently at a chronic 2.5, and it only goes up from there depending on the day.Ā
Thereās also a similarly usefulĀ āFatigue Scaleā
I havenāt been below a 5 on this scale for 4 yearsĀ
Hereās the fatigue scale
Fatigue scale image desc:
10: can barely move; canāt talk
9: can barely move; can talk
8: can move, but canāt do much more than watch TV
7: can watch TV and play a game on my phone simultaneously
6: can do work on my computer lying in bed
5: can get around the house, but definitely couldnāt go out
4: can run a light errand
3: can get in my 10,000 steps, making my fitbit happy
2: can do three or more activities in a single day
1: going clubbing!
See also the Mental Health Pain Scale by Graceful Patient:
Mental Health Pain Scale transcription:
MILD
1 - Everything is a-okay! There is absolutely nothing wrong. Youāre probably cuddling a fluffy kitten right now. Enjoy!
2 - Youāre a bit frustrated or disappointed, but youāre easily distracted and cheered up with a little effort.
3 - Things are bothering you, but youāre coping. You might be overtired or hungry. The emotional equivalent of a headache.
MODERATE
4 - Today is a bad day (or a few bad days). You still have the skills to get through it, but be gentle with yourself. Use self-care strategies.
5 - Your mental health is starting to impact on your everyday life. Easy things are becoming difficult. You should talk to your doctor.
6 - You canāt do things the way you usually do them due to your mental health. Impulsive and compulsive thoughts may be hard to cope with.
SEVERE
7 - Youāre avoiding things that make you more distressed, but that will make it worse. You should definitely seek help. This is serious.
8 - You canāt hide your struggles any more. You may have issues sleeping, eating, having fun, socialising, and work/study. Your mental health is affecting almost all parts of your life.
9 - Youāre at a critical point. You arenāt functioning any more. You need urgent help. You may be a risk to yourself or others if left untreated.
10 - The worst mental and emotional distress possible. You can no longer care for yourself. You canāt imagine things getting any worse. Contact a crisis line immediately.
These are so important! SO SO IMPORTANT SHARE THIS AND SAVE IT TO SHOW YOUR DOCTORS!
This is the first time Iāve seen the fatigue scale, and HOLY MOLY thatās a revelation!!! These should be on all hospital and doctor office walls.
Iāve never seen the mental health one! or the fatigue one! I printed out the pain one and gave it to my GP.Ā
Modern dating has me so jaded that any potential act of kindness or seemingly genuine show of interest makes me paranoid.
Imagine if 1 in 7 rolls of toilet paper were bought by hoarders.
Actually, do that. Imagine if 1 in 7 rolls of toilet paper were bought by hoarders. It would get real exspensive real fast. But you need toilet paper, so what you gonna do as you can't afford to buy a packet of rolls? Not to fear, those hoarders that I mentioned before dont plan to keep and use the toilet paper themselves, no that would be impossible as they bought more than they could use in a lifetime. So instead they let you buy toilet paper per square. It costs a massive chunk of your income but it's still less than the deposit for a packet and no matter what you need toilet paper. So you buy it by the square, some can afford more or nicer squares but everyone struggles to buy an actual packet. And soon it becomes apparent that over time you've bought several packets worth but are still left buying by the square. We are being straight up robbed and the amount of people who by is shrinking.
Internet: have faith!
Me: ... I can see their online activity? What faith?
I'm doing this to myself aren't I? I know what I want and I'm settling for less thinking what I want is too much to ask for. Why the fuck am I doing this to myself?
I'm tired of forcing things? Where's the ease?
What a long strange trip it's been. Wtf am I doing? Wtf are we doing? Wtf is happening?
The bar is so low for so many things in life at this point. How did we get here?
I'm tired y'all. When can I get back to life?
Reminder to self: when trying to connect with people who don't know you or deserve you, remember how fulfilling it is to connect with people who love you and SEE you
Me, a dumb ass? Most likely.
Ah, I drank the dumb bitch juice. My bad.