shane crashout/breakdown fics <3
licked by fire by Anonymous
“You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—”
It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here. Abruptly, Shane is furious.
Shane tries to grab at the right words. “It’s not that simple. Shane Hollander is me but it's also like - it's a thing people use to sell something. It's like a cardboard cutout of me.”
Trade Winds by northisnotup
WIP but worth it to start reading now imo
Nothing happening in that moment, on that bench, almost midway through the 3rd period down fucking 7-1 to the fucking Scouts, was impulse.
It was just the next logical step in a degradation that's been a long time coming. The slow dissolution of Shane's loyalty to the Montreal Metros.
virtue theory by gone_girl
When Shane thought back on his life, he could not identify a serious misstep. Nothing should be wrong with him. He'd done everything exactly how he was supposed to.
all the dishes intact by all_delighted_people
Shane liked The Centaurs. He really did.
Or: The Centaurs lose in the finals. Shane and Ilya host a dinner party.
i'll sleep on the floor (you're making this so hard) by morganalegay
Shane has been the favorite son for twenty-nine years. Ilya, he’s sure, has never been the favorite son. Maybe when Irina was alive, maybe when he had his mother to adore him, to support him and encourage him, to cheer him on. But he’s never basked in the glow of people who love him, not like Shane has. When Ilya disappointed his parents (his real parents, not Shane’s), he had something to be afraid of, something real, real danger, real fear of losing, of not being good enough. Ilya was raised starving.
Shane should be willing to share. He should want to.
cardiac tamponade by asthestarsforetold
Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice. As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.
Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.