The Neurodivergent Library

AuDHD + OSDD vent posts and books

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

my name is cj

★ audhd and osdd blog

★ this acc ill mainly vent and talk about books

★ I’m 27, verbal with frequent verbal shutdowns and moderate support needs

★ I love movies, film, books, and space

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

Also!! Being physically disabled doesn’t mean you can’t be ableist or vice verse. You talk about barriers of getting places which is true and you should say it!! And then turn around and call us the r-slur and defective and talk to grown people with autism and Down syndrome like we’re toddlers. It’s still ableism. And yknow what while I’m at it, be nicer to toddlers too.

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

friendly reminder that this isn’t an autism education blog. I won’t be teaching you and I will be an asshole about it

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

Yall really wanna just bully autistic people off the internet and out of public life don’t you?

I know the answer but it’s still bullshit.

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

I know my communication isn’t the greatest but sometimes I’m convinced NT people misunderstand me on purpose so they can get mad.

[minart-was-taken]

Magical Pride flags time!!

I wanted to draw the autism pride flag too, since... I mean, my me

Are there other recognised disability flags? I'd love to draw more. :]

More from this series

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

Autism is working all day and feeling unaccomplished and still going to be before the sun goes down because you have no energy

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

Sometimes I feel so guilty for not being able to make art as often as I want and write as much as I want but I go do fun things around town as much as I want.

But I’m autistic and I have something going on with my bones (no diagnosis yet but my hips shouldn’t pop yet) and I have to work to be able to live and I have nothing left.

Maybe people think that if you can work you aren’t really autistic or you don’t need any help. I know there’s people who need more help than I do, but I have no choice but to work so I can have a place to live but there are things people don’t see.

I can’t drive so I reply on the train.

I cant live alone and need help washing my hair.

After work I have energy left for one task: showering, eating, cooking, cleaning, etc. I can never do both on the same day so I end up eating something frozen.

I go to the cry room at work and lay on the floor almost every day.

I don’t get to go travel and go to concerts with my partner because I can’t handle it.

I may have it better than some others like me but it’s still really fucking hard. Sometimes I feel really fucking disabled.

[tinyrock-syph]

something that reallt sucks about autism, is not being able to do a lot. I get really easily overwhelmed, and even if I am able to mask it, it requires hours and often days of recovery which often gets interrupted by school. I can’t do many extracurriculars outside of school hours, because the schedule ends up being too much. I can’t go to a lot of big events, because being around people is so exhausting. When I’m not with the closest people to me, i can barely communicate if we are in a bigger group and end up tired from the interactions. Its exhausting to say how exhausted i am from my autistic traits

idk. support ur autistic friends guys, it means a lot to us

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

“I’m really burnt out and stressed and overwhelmed about work”

“At least you have the luxury of a job I can’t work and it’s people like you who take the conversation away from us”

(in regard to autism and employment)

This is a Reddit post. For late diagnosis. I beg you to understand that me posting in a Reddit for autistics diagnosed in adulthood about my experience is not taking your help away.

[scooplery]

"it's just growing pains" -> "you're too young for that to hurt that bad" -> "you just need to get in better shape" -> "welcome to being old, everyone is in pain"

[draconym]

It's nuts how common it is to not allow children to be angry, even (especially) in households where adults are angry all the time. As a child I knew my own anger was unacceptable--not just expressing it outwardly but feeling it at all. So now as an adult my immediate reaction to my own anger is often to feel guilt instead of like. Noticing when someone is being rude or unfair or my boundaries are being violated or whatever. fucked up.

[prokopetz]

Level 1: Asylums are scary because there's crazy people there.

Level 2: We shouldn't treat mental health facilities as objects of horror because it stigmatises mental illness.

Level 3: Asylums are scary because there's psychiatrists there.

[theneurodivergentlibrary]

I don’t think many people understand that autism does make you violent sometimes. And it fucking sucks. I pride myself on not being an aggressive, mean person but during a meltdown I break stuff and hurt myself and lash out. And then I crash and I feel so fucking guilty.

That doesn’t mean I don’t have systems in place to minimize it or that I don’t put the work in to undo it. I am able to so I do, not everyone can. It’s gotten better since I was a kid. As a kid I’d break my belongings, I broke a door, I ripped my clothes and pillows. Now as an adult, I had a meltdown and the only thing I broke was the lid on a box of Clorox wipes with a small bruise on my arm. Then inevitably crying about it.

It sucks ass but its progress. But pretending that autism is just frolicking through the fields while wearing headphones and not liking wool, that autism is a carefree child who doesn’t understand, it’s harmful and not at all correct. Even your low support needs autists are usually not frolicking about.

[e-rose]

[angel-fruitcake]

i can handle one (1) Event™ per day. whether it be a phone call, an appointment, trip to the grocery store, play date with a friend, etc. only one, that's it. any more than that and i am Stressed

[burntblueberrywaffles]

I LOVE being autistic and trying to communicate because every time it’s