Dear Future Soulmate,
Iâm clingy, but Iâll never admit it. Iâll check my phone every 5 minutes to see if youâve replied to something Iâve drafted numerous times in my head. Iâll get anxious when you donât answer me back for a long time, and Iâll think to myself maybe youâve had enough of me. Yet when your message finally comes, it doesnât matter what youâve said because the simple act of replying assures me that youâre still mine. At least, for the time being it will.
Iâll get jealous a lot, but please donât misconstrue it as me tying you down. I wonât get jealous because I want you all to myself, no. I want you to be able spend time with family, friends, and everyone else in between. Iâll get jealous because maybe, just maybe youâll find something special in someone else, as you did with me. Iâll be weary that maybe youâll look at someone just as how you look at me, or your heart will begin to wander somewhere else.
Iâm insecure, and itâs of no fault of your own. When I say something a little negative about myself, itâs not a cry for attention nor is it me wanting you to disagree with me. Itâs me just being me. Before you, Iâll probably never imagine in a million years that youâd be mine. So by virtue of the fact that weâre together makes me even more insecure. But let me make something clear, I wonât be bagging on myself all the time. I know what talents I possess, what I excel in, the aspects in my physique that work in my favor, and so on. Iâm just more vocal on the things which fall in the opposite categories.
Iâll possess many faults, and Iâm not looking for you to fix them. I think when I finally meet you, Iâll be more accepting of these faults than I am now. All Iâm asking is that you accept them with me.
I know this letter seems to be focusing on the negative things about me, and itâs quite a bit to take in⌠so let me make a change of pace.
Iâll always love you. When weâre finally acquainted, and we finally begin to personify the definition of love for one another, Iâll never need another definition. Iâve told myself countless times that I would never cheat on someone because I know what that feels like. Iâll love you more than I love myself and I know that isnât too great but thatâs just how I am. Iâm going to fall in love with the way your smile dances across your face every time you see me, Iâll fall in love with the way you lose yourself in the things you love, Iâll fall in love with the way your voice fluctuates depending on how youâre feeling, Iâll fall in love with the way you say my name, and Iâll most definitely fall in love with so much more.
Iâll study everything about you, Iâll remember the slightest details about you and your life. Iâll know what you look like when youâre upset without you having to say a word, Iâll know how you like your coffee in the morning, Iâll know how long it takes you to get ready before we go out, Iâll know most of the trivial things about you and the rest Iâll learn along the way. I pray youâll be able to do the same as well.
If youâre still reading, and you havenât run away⌠Iâll probably be sitting across from you looking insanely nervous and insecure. Iâd be sitting with my legs folded under me on the chair anxiously waiting for your reaction. On top of that Iâll probably be ready to burst into tears of happiness or tears of sadness.
So to end this letter, which my actual soulmate will read once the time comes⌠Iâd like to say thank you. Thank you for giving me a reason to live again, thank you for proving to me that love really is meant for me, and thank you for being my reason to be alive.
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