the difference between a threesome and a throuple: a secret i can’t tell you
what’s the difference between a threesome and a throuple?
is a genuine conversation i had and i talked about people in a grocery store and how they act there
but there’s a separate, more distinct difference
a threesome is how i’d sell myself to you
and a throuple is what i’d turn us into
you see, i’d pretend it was just sex
just a chance for you to know what sex with a girl is like without having to sacrifice him
i’d pretend i wouldn’t want to hold you both after
is that i know what you want
is that what i want is different from what you want
but this isn’t new, i’m just a liar
you see, i want to hold his dick and his hand and i want to hold your hand while we hold his dick
i want to suck hickeys into your necks and mark you as mine
i told you that no stress times was just happiness
i’m by nature, a selfish person
(the milkshake flavor buzzfeed quiz said so)
and no amount of frustratingly sexy swim coaches and their delicious backs can distract me from the fact that the only sets of legs i want to out my head between are yours and his
you take sexy pictures for him and send them to me to see if they’re okay and god, i wish they were for us both
in your version of our future, i have some faceless partner
but in mine, i just have you and him
i’m a selfish person and i need to people to love, two people to fuck
i don’t fear settling down, i fear settling
settling for one person who i don’t want as much as i have wanted the two of you
i want to kiss down your chests and take your nipples into my mouth and leave marks in my wake and end up in cuddle piles on the couch
i want to hear the way you moan together and be the one to cause then
i want to have children and have them look like him and act like you
i want a lifetime, not a moment
i grew up hearing, “you’d be the perfect boyfriend if only you were a boy” and you’ve said that i’m him and if only you weren’t straight
so you see, i’m here and i’ve been waiting my whole life for this it feels like
i can be enough of a boy for you, i promise
i can be lover enough for you both
and this isn’t even a fraction of all that i want and all that i could let myself want
but the difference between a threesome and a throuple is how much i let you know that i want you