alam mo minsan, sobrang thankful rin talaga ako na di mo pa ko kilala. wala, siguro kung kilala mo ko, matagal mo na rin akong sinukuan. wala eh, shitty kung shitty pero shitty talaga ko. pero wait, trust me, ginagawa ko naman yung best ko para magpakatino, para magbago pero sometimes feeling ko di ko talaga kaya. eaten by the system, i guess? pero diba ayun naman mahalaga? atleast iām trying. atleast i have the will. i just donāt get it why people find it so hard to see the things i want them to see. siguro lifeās being fair lang kasi i know sometimes they want me to see them as a masterpiece while there i am, seeing them as a trash ācause to me, they really are. yes, this is how i speak. i take things this way. supermakhtan is not a good person, kaya nga minsan naiinis na talaga ko why people are so obsessed with the idea of supermakhtan is a perf guy when he really is not. ayoko magpabango. this is me. and i want you to see me this way. and please, stay. gulong gulo na ko sa mundo ko ngayon pero sanay na naman ako ng ganto. to be honest, i am so tired of everyone just like how they are so tired of me. alam ko dapat sanay na kong sinusukuan ng mga taong ayaw kong sukuan ako dahil paulit ulit nalang pero wala dumarating parin ako dun sa puntong naapektuhan parin nila ako. ang sakit kaya. hindi ako nad-disappoint sakanila, nad-disappoint ako sa sarili ko. nakakatangina, sobra. kaya ikaw, kung sino ka man, wag mo ko susukuan ah. kasi pag sinukuan mo ko, magagalit talaga ko sayo. tagal tagal kitang hinintay tapos katulad ka lang rin pala nila. hayy, magtatampo talaga ko sayo ng sobra, di na tayo bati. alam mo, ang kailangan ko lang naman eh yung taong di ako susukuan no matter what eh. yung despite of the kahirapang intindihin ako, iintindihin parin ako. ayun lang. pag ginawa mo yan, promise ko saāyo, di mo pagsisisihang tiniis mo ko. sobrang babawi talaga ko sayo. i can make you the luckiest girl bes, i can make everything so worth it. just please stay and prove to me na i also am worth the pagtitiis and pag-iintindi. show me my worth na never ko nakita. babaw pero tbh, there are nights na sobra akong nagc-crave dyan. maybe sa iilang punto ng life ko, those are just what i need. i also want to know the feeling of being understood, i also want to know how does it feels like of not being given up. alam kong mahirap ako intindihin kaya if ever na mapagod ka, at sukuan mo rin ako, okay. sige. expected ko na yan. see you soon, sana lang talaga makayanan mo ko. or atleast try. thanks