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[theonewithwords]

Nostalgia is killing me

Someone please save me

[theonewithwords]

I love you,

I love you unconditionally and unapologetically

Just do me a favor stay by my side for a little while longer

I'm afraid if you leave the last piece in me will break and I'll

[theonewithwords]

I used to find comfort hearing your voice,

No matter how much I was tired you brought a smile to my face and peace to my soul

But now idk what's wrong with me this life is taking my comfort away it's taking me away from you please help me

I can't go on any longer

[theonewithwords]

You know I always tell my ma that the day you die the very next day I'll follow you

I wish the same for my pa as well

I don't wanna live without them not even a second

I want to be their last goodbye and I wanna send them off by my hands not someone else's I'm their child

But idk why I feel like they'll be the one who'd have to say goodbye to me first

[theonewithwords]

I'm running away

I'm running away from something

Me, my life or my choices idk what I'm running away from but

I can't stop.

It feels like even time is running out for me idk why I'm feeling like this but I feel like the time's leaving me behind and taking everyone else with it

[theonewithwords]

My dear heart I envy you

as you can run away to the places that you were the happiest

and I'm stuck here with these memories

[theonewithwords]

Oh to mourn a living person

[theonewithwords]

I'm a fucking cry baby alright!!!!

I just don't cry in front of people

[theonewithwords]

It's not my heart that's silent, no never lol

It's screaming, it's pounding in my chest wanting to say everything it wants to, fighting till it hurts.

It's my mouth that has failed to utter even a single word

[theonewithwords]

I'm not strong enough to give up

[theonewithwords]

I don't care if I go to heaven or hell

I'm scared for sure but it doesn't matter

I just want to meet all the people I have loved in my lifetime

To meet them one last time to tell them that I loved them with my complete soul,

I want to apologize for my mistakes,

I want to thank them for bringing happiness to me

I just want to meet them one last time and after that

I don't care what happens to me

[theonewithwords]

People say art is inspired with emotions, words pour out of you, the music tells the way you feel, the paint shows the depths of your souls

But what to do when you feel nothing but everything at the same time and you have no idea how tf to get it out of you?

Cuz I'm feeling like that way a lot and please help me

[theonewithwords]

I'll apologize always

I'll apologize whenever I pass by your way

I'll remember you the way you looked the things you liked the food you loved the times you almost gave me a heartattack

I love you I love you still and I'm sorry I'm so so sorry

Sorry can't even come close to how much I want to apologize to you, to beg for forgiveness but that's not possible

but I'll always love you

[theonewithwords]

I was asking you for my worth in your life

I was so so dumb I should've just walked away the moment I gave you the power to measure my worth

[theonewithwords]

I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you, that I don't miss us

The memories haunt me completely terrify me to my core

Even after all these years there's this one place that still hurts in my heart but we don't belong in this life together

I won't ever forget about you but I'll definitely find peace with you not being here with me

[theonewithwords]

I know lol I completely know that life will not get easier just with you by side like my life wouldn't go and say

" aahh you found your soulmate I'll leave you alone now"

No it won't change my problems,issues, general life shit will still be there and not disappear at the drop of a hat

but you know what will happen with you in my life ?

You , you will give me the strength to fight through it, you will make me not give up just by being by my side

So stay by my side

[theonewithwords]

For now I know,

the day I meet you even my tears will betray me and fall at the first sight of you

I'll wait for that day