Pastry Cookie but awesomer

Moka // 21 // she/they/any prns // autistic + BPD haver + DID sys

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I hate that I'm just jumping between one abusive household to another

I thought living with my grandparents would be better, & it is, but it's still not a place I feel safe & loved unconditionally

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we've likely all considered BPD Eternal Sugar, but what about BPD Hollyberry

like seriously

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I'm so late to the BY ep 15 party but seriously what the fuck was that

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drew the toxic yuri wives

I feel like Holly accidentally looks way too skinny bc I messed up the layers of her dress ;;-;; (I need to get better about drawing the bodies before the clothes..........)

I think I could've made her arms bigger too but oh well, I think this was actually my first time properly drawing her (despite the fact she's my fav ancient ??)

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post-therapy redpastry to me

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My daily routine

- “Wake up”

- Check discord DMs

- Do schoolwork

- Be autistic about Pastry Cookie and/or Cotton Cookie

- Ruin every tumblr user’s day by my mere presence

- Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what happened this past hour 🥴 My memory is a little bit bad, nothing to be alarmed by though (This was, in fact, something to be alarmed by)

- Go temporarily unconscious for the night, if humanity is lucky

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sometimes when I'm bored I dip my Pastry Cookie in Ultimate Dough & she scream loud as fuuuuuuuuuck

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hot take: redpastry is good actually, the artist/writer just just has to actually treat them like equals for it to work

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"only straight misogynists ship redpastry" is such a wild take to me as a lesbian & Pastry irl who experiences misogyny on the daily & is a victim of religious trauma & absolutely loves the ship

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also stop acting like one side is "better" than the other they literally both suck 💔💔💔

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"only straight misogynists ship redpastry" is such a wild take to me as a lesbian & Pastry irl who experiences misogyny on the daily & is a victim of religious trauma & absolutely loves the ship

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my extremely controversial cookie run take is that I think redpastry (despite what I’ve said in the past) can actually work as a dynamic but you have to strip it of literally all fanon that’s popped up around it. like as much as I appreciate people coming to terms with the fact the fandom has absolutely mischaracterized red velvet and pastry in order to create a very specific image of the ship, you can make it work. you can actually make it work as a ship, you just have to think creatively and actually constructively with their characters and their aesthetics

like…….pastry and red velvet are both victims of manipulation and circumstance. red velvet is arguably under the thumb of someone who does not see the life he creates as anything but a tool, while pastry is in a cult that worships by force the beings which were created to eat and consume her. There is a possible path for these two to usurp their common fear, the reason for their existence as cookies, a way that could make them both stronger for it if you were extremely intent on writing such a dynamic with care, Catholic drama, and attention to detail on the nuanced ways trauma victims navigate their world.

like…canon does give you this as an option for you to explore. the open nature of TOSC means that there’s possibilities maybe pastry would revisit red velvet each and every time, each and every time with lowering walls on what she thinks she knows, on what she thinks she believes in. she is so much stronger than red velvet, able to bring him to his knees, and yet his mercy towards his cake hounds is what inspires her to bring herself towards mercy and empathy as well, realizing that is what she has lacked this entire time. she does not live in a world of love, of care, of a gentle hand—she has only ever been taught to kill, to see her body as a machination for destruction. Is that who she wants to be? Does she want to be someone who kills for her beliefs when she is uncertain of them to begin with?

Red Velvet meanwhile gets to finally meet someone out of his relatively sheltered perception of normal cookies. The cookies of darkness regard him as a freak of nature, a dog sometimes more than he is one of them, and even though pastry came to him on hostile terms, he could find it in his heart to learn to be more amicable if she put down her weapon and helped feed his hounds. If she wanted to genuinely know more about the beasts he keeps, he would allow her to—with some distrust in the beginning, sure, but the idea dynamic between these two isn’t one of subjugation. It’s not of them overpowering each other. It’s of them healing, slowly learning from a hostile, awful world that told them they are worth less than nothing in it except to serve someone else’s purposes, so who is to say they cannot serve now themselves with their hands in each other’s? Who is to say their 200k slowburn romance has to be predicated on violence when instead it can be just something natural, and not at all cruel?

who is to say they can’t put down their weapons and fight against what kept them from truly living their lives?

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Redpastry……..

I have talked about redpastry here before, but my opinions on it haven’t changed much. I hate hate hate the fanon that surrounds it because of how misogynistic and abuse-apologistic it is. On both sides particularly. It’s a ship I enjoy very privately because people can’t really handle it correctly and many people have brainrot about what “rivals to lovers” means. I don’t trust m/f “rivals to lovers” stuff because too often it relies on misogynistic tropes and it’s gross.

But like? When it’s handled perfectly? 10/10 I like it a lot. It’s cool

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"the chance of a redpastry hater giving me excrutiatingly detailed death threats is low but never zero"

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context: I'm an irl of Pastry Cookie & I selfship with Red Velvet

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"the chance of a redpastry hater giving me excrutiatingly detailed death threats is low but never zero"

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being a holyhound/redpastry shipper comes with being a Red Velvet yume/selfshipper sometimes

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wouldn't be my blog if I didn't go off topic a million times!

fit check in my mom's classroom cus I visited (also I moved out yay!!!)

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so... guess who got into Cookie Run again

(I'M BACK IN THE FUCKING BUILDING AGAIN)