TheoSparkle

i’m 19 i love almost everything weird and unique mo is my bestfriend

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sad makeup it was super fun to do

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i think i’ve been enjoying sex less because i find myself less sexy recently

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i’m so frustrated and empty i feel like the only emotions i’ve actually felt recently are anger embarrassment and disappointment everything else feels like im making myself feel something instead of it actually happening summer is depressing doing school makes me angry i feel like i cant do better i never try hard enough i submit to my own thoughts and it sucks i want to grow but every time i run into an obstacle no matter how small i crumble i suck dude

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chat look at this aesthetic photo i took whilst cleaning my room

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went in my camera roll to find a free bleeding pic and ending up looking at photos from when i weighed less i am feeling poopy plus i haven’t slept but im gonna try to do some cleaning and feel better

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the phych ward sounds really good until i remember i can’t vape and ill lose my streaks

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bruh i had sex with this ugly ass man last night i got beer tho

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ended up having sex for sure cuz of peer pressure also i hate the teachers sorry for bias but i hateee

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me and the guy i’m talking to idk why i look so mad lolll but anyways on my way home from his house i fell asleep or something on the subway i don’t remember i was drunk and i just remember waking up and the subway people called the paramedics for me i gotta stop drinking man

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i’m so deadass growing up is so depressing

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i’m so excited to go vomit watch “as you are” repeat repeat

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yall my tiktok keeps showing me ed accounts and it actually has me laughing i just saw a comment saying “who wanna join my wl gc” and it made me remember when i was in one when i was like 12 and it was the most diabolical place to be

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next time i get a bottle im gonna drink a lot really fast and see how that goes

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sorry i haven’t updated in a little i think i had a dream where i ate boiled eggs and i hated it ive never actually had one irl also im talking to this guy nate he’s cute really sweet and fun ill put a photo of us from yesterday

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whatever i was just gonna drink alone today

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when i hear audios telling me to wait for someone who understands me i think abt myself for 5secs and then i just think abt the ppl ive met who suck and who theyll meet

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whenever i wear light shorts i get paranoid i shit myself and no one is telling me