things I can tell no one

I wish I could change 80%of the cards I've been delt

[thepainwithin]

I can't explain why I feel like this but I get so nervous around him when I hear a ping of my phone my heart races and I'm hoping its him apologizing. I feel his pain and emotions when I touch him. I'm attached to him. I have a huge desire to protect him. I can't get him out of my head theres a bond I can't explain its not like a in love marry type but I do love him in a different way since I met him ive felt like he belonged in my life. I feel everything 10 times more around him like he amplifies what I can do. I can easily get in your head but him its just a look and I know what he needs to put a smile on his face and hes done the same I know he want to be part of my life but its like he's scared and I hate over thinking.

[thepainwithin]

Just a dream

Was it just a dream. Did I dream this all up. I was happy you by my side we grew closer. Now it's like you are just gone did I dream us up. My mind dreamt of a better day. A dream of us. A dream of happiness. A dream was all it must have been. Now you have vanished like I have awoken from a dream. I wish to be back in that dream just to be with you. To be in just a dream.

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[asking-the-death]

You need a private talk? Just send me an ask!:)

[thepainwithin]

ghosts

Ghosts from my past always find a way back to me no matter how hard I try to run away from them. i try leaving all this behind me and now hes back again i can never get rid of this ghost of a father. 

[thepainwithin]

Advice needed

Any of my friends who are writers I need tips on fillers in a story I'm writing theres a time gap between these two major things that happen. I'm not sure if I should just time jump or use fillers

[thepainwithin]

I'm trapped outside inside my mind

[a-useless-bisexual]

Honestly, reblog if you're the black sheep of YOUR OWN friend group

It's completely different than being the black sheep in a society/community.

Being the black sheep of your friend group means:

Getting cut off or ignored RANDOMLY in the middle of your sentence. +5 points if it's something that you are passionate about or if it's about something that is upsetting you

Being left out of plans that were made RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU

Being disrespected in general, be it your personal belongings or your opinions

Ppl leaving the room/dropping a conversation when you join in or make a joke

Others getting uncomfortable when you talk about something bugging you/stressing you out

Ppl making jokes about something that upsets you, but then saying nothing when you are visibly bothered

I could go on but I'm running out of ideas

PLEASE add on to this list

[thepainwithin]

Escape

A escape is needed,craved, desperately desired. To escape the mind, escape the body, escape the place, escape the time. Escape will always eventually be needed. Avoidance isnt possible. We are all doomed to hunt down that escape we need. Today is the day I restart the hunt.

[thepainwithin]

Temporary

I should have known good days never last emotionally. It's back to fighting over stupid things that he doesnt pay attention to promises that are never kept. I always give him 1 more chance and it always turns the same. When will I learn

[thepainwithin]

Giving up

I can't go on much longer my house is a constant mess I work and have worked so much and my husband work 3 days a week I work all week full time I have since I was pregnant. He never cleans the house never takes trash out. He is so lazy I have to do everything. I'm so sick of it I dont know what to do. I am constantly fighting my depression and on top of this I have to work,clean, cook. I'm loosing this battle.

[thepainwithin]

Days and nights

It used to be so simple. Night time was bad but once day break came it all got better. When day came it was still bad. That is when you are in trouble when there is no difference no change in feelings. No better just all bad.

[thepainwithin]

Ache

My head is in shambles my stomach in knots I feel like I'm going to hurl constantly. Sleep is now a stranger to me. I ache all over I'm falling into the darkness again. Not sure if I'll make it out or if I even want to

[thepainwithin]

3 little words

Those 3 little words that could mean everything or nothing at all. I speak those words to both of them. Do I truly love them both or am I being selfish. How do you decide if you love someone or if it is lust. Once those words have been spoken it is hard to go back to a time before they where uttered. As I sit awake on the bathroom floor doubting myself invalidating my feelings I wonder how much love can one person give. How many people can someone say those three words to the I LOVE YOU.

[omfgiamsofuckedup]

When you think you are finaly good and BOOM you have your wrist bloody again.

[bulimicbunnny]

[weighted-hearts]

One thing that scares me are needles. My mom doesn't understand because I self harmed a lot when I was younger. But the thing they dont understand about cutting is the control factor. I liked causing myself pain, but I dont like it when it comes from anyone else. NO ONE CAN HURT ME MORE THAN I CAN HURT MYSELF. I can control how deep I go, how slow I drag the blade, and when and where I do it.

-unknown