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[irinagudronchik]

[half-bakedboy]

Gentle reminder that you can hold an abuser accountable for being an abuser and still be devastated by the loss of a life.

[pierregaslays]

believing that liam’s family should be allowed to grieve his loss and not supporting an abuser are two things that can coexist btw

[fuchsea]

i think ultimately for me what it boils down to is that he was a part of 1d, a band that is such an integral part of life that i found my best friend through it and even now i'm making friends through the band and it's such a pivotal moment for me and liam in whatever means was part of it. sure he drifted on a different path and made some choices and changed as a person, in part because of the choices he made and in part because of the atmosphere of the band as a whole and how he desperately needed the help. i'm in no way excusing his recent behaviour, he should be held accountable for that. however, i am grieving because he was a part of me growing up and i never thought i would be reading the news about his death at such an early stage and how i'm shocked to the core thinking about the impermanence of life. i'm grieving for the boys and how they must be feeling and for his family who are going to find out about his passing through social media. i desperately wish he had received the help he needed and actively made choices to better his life, but the truth is what it is. i'm grieving for my teenage self because in more ways than one 1d was and is her entire life

[dhaaruni]

I used to watch and rewatch the One Direction video diaries from the X-Factor since they distracted me from my teen angst, and it's just so surreal that Liam is gone

[meyhew]

i have no idea how to process this. it’s not unfathomable and it’s something i’ve thought about many times but i don’t actually know how to process it. what do you mean he was such an integral part of me growing up and he did some fucked up things in part bc of the fucked up environment he grew up in and now he’s DEAD and can’t do anything to try and make amends. what do u mean the boys now means harry louis liam niall zayn. what do you mean he left behind a child less than 10 years old. what the fuck do you mean

[h0ezi3r]

The worst part about Liam Payne dying is that people are posting about “the switch up is crazy”

Like no. He was an abuser and made horrible decisions, but nobody wanted him to die. He was getting hate for an INCREDIBLY valid reason, but we all recognized that he needed mental and physical help. He needed to go to rehab. He needed to get away from drugs and alcohol and improve upon himself away from the public. No one wanted him to die.

We’re not mourning the life of an abuser, we are mourning the part of him that we adored and looked up to for a massive part of our childhood/ teenage years. He was a huge part of how I was introduced to my love of music. And yes, he did horrible things and made horrible decisions and over the last few years has been anything but admirable, but none of us wanted this.

Maya didn’t want this. And everyone saying that it’s her fault can actually go burn in hell. She likely already blames herself enough. She likely already wishes she hadn’t spoken up about it out of the guilt that she likely feels. You guys commenting all over the socials about how this is her fault and “are you happy now?” Are actually horrible people.

A 7 year old boy just lost his father. A woman just lost her long term boyfriend. Two parents just lost their son. Several young children just lost their uncle. Show some fucking respect. Joking about it and hating on people who had nothing to do with what happened is not doing anything but twist the knife for the people who this has ACTUALLY effected.

[cruelage]

god please take away the hate that maya henry is about to get triple it and give it to johnny depp

[pop-punklouis]

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[pop-punklouis]

fuck it

[thespermdonorstorylineisstupid]

not sure if listening to the entire one direction discography rn is going to be cathartic or send me into a tailspin but

[plaingreekyogurt]

RIP legend

[pop-punklouis]

vile actions have been done. words have been said that can never be taken back. victims have been abused. lives have been altered due to toxic behaviors and addiction. so much hurt has been spread.

but no one should die young. no one should grow up fatherless. no parent should have to bury their own child. no one should be searching for peace for so long after growing up in a system designed for them to fail only to have their life end so tragically in pursuit of that peace. no one.

[discooccasionally]

I feel so fucking lucky to have been shaped into the person I am today by One Direction. 2024 me does not exist as I am today, without them. How lucky am I to have be changed by them. I’m here today on this tumblr, with all of you- friends, mutuals, strangers- because of them. One Direction will always be woven into the fabric of my memories, experiences and dreams. That is a truth that cannot change. I am so so lucky to have loved them and be loved by so many of you because of them. Wow.

[aliensingucci]

it's crazy to think that memories you've had for years will just never look or feel the same again. all those memories from 2012 when i first got into 1D, all the concerts, all the songs and the first time hearing those songs, the first time watching music videos, the posts and memes here on tumblr... like none of it will ever feel the same. it'll always be tinged by loss and a degree of emptiness from here on out.

[lesbianlostboy]

no matter how dramatic it sounds, i cannot explain how vastly different my entire life would be if it wasn’t for the people i met through those five boys. they quite literally changed and saved my life. personal feelings on him aside, he will always be a part of that and a crucial part of my history and story and i can’t even put into words how i am feeling right now.

friends i still talk to, friends who have drifted, just know that i think of you so so often and always with love, and i thank those boys for getting to know even a small part of you all.

[mutualslovelouis]

i did not once ever have a full night’s sleep from 2013-2015. nothing new to say that hasn’t already been said but it was so fucking fun being a one direction fan while they were still releasing albums/touring. can’t even put it into words or describe it. u were constantly terrorized while also having the best time of ur life.