The first time another human being touched my body,
It was forceful and aggressive.
Wanting every inch of me, but not caring if it were me - or a ghost.
As I politely slid the callous hands off me,
they snaked back around to prod at me again.
why women arenāt more aggressive
the first time they say no.
But then something hit me:
Women are taught to behave like āpolite young ladiesā;
Kind, caring, and considerate; But what about men?
Why are women expected to be aggressive?
No should mean No, whether itās a hug or sex
and society doesnāt seem to understand that.
We are taught from a young age to blame the woman
when she is sexually harassed.
Itās not the victimās fault - itās the offenderās, hence the title, offender.
The second time a Man touched my body,
he was lustful - not loving.
He wanted so much more of me than I was willing to give.
For a time, he continued to persuade me unsuccessfully,
until he decided to take matters into his own hands.
That night his arms forced my body to his before I shut my eyes to sleep,
encapsulating me in a jail cell I could not escape from.
He tenderly wrapped his eel-like fingers around my gentle hips,
as he tried not to wake me from my peaceful slumber.
At 15 years old, I did not know that sleeping next to a man you trust
is as dangerous as a lamb sleeping under a lionās strong, resilient arm.
To this day, even though a few years have passed
and weāve been apart for what seems like eternity,
he still pleads for me to return to him.
In attempts to get my body to be his once again,
he leaves gifts on my doorstep when no one is home.
I was the first girl to show him what love was?
But if he really knew what it was -
why didnāt he give it back?
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