The Quiet Voice In The Back Of My Head

24, artist, mother of one. Diagnosed with BPD. I have a history of depression, this blog is how I'm going to vent, explore and document my emotions and recovery.

[womanism]

no one tells you what its like to be self aware of your mental illness. i know im irrationally angry and i know im just being paranoid and its the tiny piece of rational mind i have left and the unstable part of me fighting each other every second and i just want it to stop

[bpdshitposts]

my therapist says i should stop assuming people hate me as much as i hate myself but i don’t trust that bih bc im p sure she hates me

[psxsx]

[siickangel]

[sumersprkl]

Me: Alright, brain, we have two tasks to do. One of them is more time sensitive, but working on the other will be more fun. Which should I start on?

My brain: Do fucking nothing for 72 hours

Me: Understandable, have a nice day

[isuckk]

halloween is great don’t get me wrong but everyday is a nightmare when u have bpd

[bpdandback]

[bpdshitposts]

my text: maybe i shouldn’t have said anything, haha narrator: we all know this impulsive bitch would’ve said it either way

[bpd-trichster]

Borderline Personality Disorder has one of the highest suicide rates of all mental illnesses. Here are some things that I am certain contribute to that:

Some professionals refuse to treat BPD patients simply on the basis of that diagnosis. Without even meeting us, we are judged to be not worth treating.

Many professionals see BPD patients as the “worst”, most “dreaded” type of patient. There are countless stories of mental health professionals speaking about the very idea of BPD patients in disdainful ways.

Unlike most other mental illnesses, patients with BPD are not viewed as “sick”, but as bratty, manipulative, and/or ungrateful. There is a pervasive idea that we don’t try hard enough, or that we don’t want to be helped. This is a view mostly held by our families, but is encouraged by some mental health professionals.

Many professionals focus on helping our families cope with our symptoms rather than how we can cope with them. Our disorder is seen by many as an illness that effects those around us more than those with it.

[bob-belcher]

[cherryangel-bpd-blog]

do you ever just think about how you wasted all your youth being depressed

[thequietvoiceinthebackofmyhead]

I have royally fucked up. AGAIN.

[sublime-cinema]

*exists* “I really regret this.”

[thequietvoiceinthebackofmyhead]

Spoiler alert: I ruin everything.

[thequietvoiceinthebackofmyhead]

Fuck. Just. Fuck.

My panic attacks are back with a vengeance. Fuck. My. Life.

[sonypraystation]

all those memes about how old ppl are bad with technology are gonna haunt us when we cant figure out how to get the apple iBrain 7 to stop autoplaying embarassing memories

[thyrell]

jokes on you idiot my normal brain can do that

[anqelsheart]