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i want to look to look at my future with hope instead of bracing for impact

i look at you and i don’t want to admit that what we were has died somewhere, in between missed messages and long pauses and brief kisses. i want to go back to where we were happy and honeymooning, our fingers always so in awe of each other’s bodies, our mouths hungry, endlessly searching for ways to make the other person happy. i hate knowing it all adds up to nothing. that we can be in love but in the end we’re two people who are walking towards different highways. i tell you i think we’re crumbling but we both avert our eyes. it’s not polite to stare at tragedy. i kiss you and keep a countdown and know you’re here but you’re already leaving.

inkskinned

oh mother i may not make it back from where beaches are blood and sea i’m unsteady on my feet and since i was young enough to bite i never bore venom against those who would cut me i’m better when i’m fighting for another’s palms, another’s peace, for another person's other day living oh mother i know you say i'm too soft, will curl like bark on trees but mother sometimes softness is the act of resistance that other people need tell the bees, mother, i think you’ll find they’ll be proud of me - they know the nature of one dying for many oh mother i know you want no harm coming but i asked the clouds too many times why our thoughts and prayers came unsolved and unanswered one night the moon looked me in the eyes and she said: this world gave you hands and legs and a heart as big as a mountain so go move something.

Resisting // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

inkskinned

you’re so good at making others feel good. always there when they need you. excellent for a joke or prepared with the right kind of distraction. good at listening. an arm to hold on to.

and you tell yourself it’s just that you’re trying to be a good person, but maybe it’s that you feel good for a second only when you make other people feel good. so you do things like go to their parties you won’t dance at and make them pies you won’t eat and kiss people you don’t love and drink things you don’t want and tell them advice you won’t follow and laugh, always.

and that makes you feel like a bad person, because sometimes when you’re sitting there, and they’re raw and spreading, you wonder why they don’t see your blood too and gosh, isn’t it selfish when you open your mouth and say the truth: nobody wants that from you. everybody just wants you to listen. and be good. and swallow the knuckles off your pointer fingers and wrap yourself in muslin and follow the river into the deepest parts of the ocean.

you’re so good at making others feel good. there’s always a better rug but you’ll lie down for them anyway. there’s always a better highway but you’re already driving. and who cares that you need help. who cares if you’re dying. it’s all you, and you’re all good, and it’s okay, because you can floor the gas and people will just think you’re unafraid of dying.

but you are unafraid of dying.

theragingmaskedcore-blog

Awesome

asking-jude

Care about what other people think, and you will always be their prisoner.

Lao Tzu (via asking-jude)

How he knows me. 🎂

#cake #&#butt stuff

bewared

My mood described in a picture tbh - instagram: @derendemetoglu

For the first time, I understood something I'd always denied: nothing about love or sex is rational. In these domains, our passions rule, leaving us with heartbreak or euphoria, but always undeniably alive.

Lou Kelley

#watching you watching me

Bad things most definitely do come in 3’s. 33 on 3/10/2017 another one bites the shit dick.

He totally cheats. Under any other circumstances I would have left him already. Those bitches won’t stop him from dying though.

Don't fuck with my family.

My sadness always turns to dispair then anger then rage. Then I forget. And it's like you die over and over. Win win.

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