Diary Of A Whiny Adult

Tendra aro/ace/agender they/them

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Trying to save up enough money to move is so annoying. Everywhere wants so much money up front and I’m just a poor little cloud wanting a place to rest my head

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So I’ve realized that my impulsive craving of new tattoos directly corralates to my loneliness and feelings of being left behind and forgotten.

It’s as if by getting a tattoo and making MySelf love me more I can bury the feeling that others don’t.

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New tattoo

Got my 9th tattoo!! I really love it!!!!!!!!!! It's big and super detailed and ahh

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Lol

Two more tattoos:D

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New tattoos!

I got three new tattoos yesterday!! They’re super simple and small but I’m really happy and love them! They mean I’m closer to my goal of being covered in tattoos and loving my body. I now have 6 tattoos and that fills me with so much joy!!

Super glad I got them, no regrets from me!

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My cats love each other

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Being a cashier at Walmart isn’t so bad. My feet hurt though and sometimes people are mean.

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Identity/body dysphoria?

Because I exist within my body and I can’t see my face, I constantly forget what my face looks like. I have my own version of what I think it looks like from my personality and how I feel. It’s like a vague feeling of floating eyes and my personality and it feels like my face isn’t real. So every time I look in a mirror or see a picture of myself i’m shocked. “Is this what people see when they talk to me?” “How can anyone bare talking to me/being around me when I look like this?” “This is not what I want anyone seeing” “How is anyone my friend when you pair my personality with a face/body like this?” “This isn’t me. This isn’t what I feel like.” “I can’t believe how ugly I am.” I’m feel ugly and shocked that this is what people ALWAYS see when they’re near me.

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No one is hiring and it's making me fear for the future Can my friend and I survive after moving away if job hunting is this hard?

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The moment you think you legit might die cause your father is enraged and he drives like a drunk race car driver.

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Almost done with the first week of my new job:) I’m so happy I got it! It pays way more and I get home earlier. What makes it even better is the fact that they found me for the job and asked if I would check it out! My future is hopefully going somewhere good

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Lol, I was so hopeful for the future. They fired me after the second week cause their 2 month old wasn't conforming to a schedule and they wanted someone with more experience. They gave no warning and now I'm job hunting again.

And I don't have money saved cause I was expecting to have this job till April and I just got some new tattoos. Rent will probably be late and I just hope I'll have enough money for car insurance and food needs. So yeah, life sucks right now

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New tattoos!

I got my second and third tattoos today! I'm so excited, I've been waiting for forever to have enough money for more. And they're simple but really cute and ME!!

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New Label?

On top of being asexual and aromantic, I've come to the realization that I'm probably agender too. So yay me, I'm empty of all the conceived expectations that society placed on me.

[thereadingsinger]

Almost done with the first week of my new job:) I'm so happy I got it! It pays way more and I get home earlier. What makes it even better is the fact that they found me for the job and asked if I would check it out! My future is hopefully going somewhere good

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Lol life is forever a roller coaster where you wear a blindfold. You think it's going up but no, straight down. It's scary and the whole time you think you're going to die

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My job right now doesn't pay me enough for working 11 hours a day. So I'm looking for a different job and weekend stuff for more money. And I got a weekend babysitting job! Stuff is looking up a little:)

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I'm stuck feeling like no one actually cares. I'm just an accessory that no one really wants. Just hanging till they get tired of pretending to like me. Why am I stuck feeling like this? Why can't I just be happy and believe them when they say they like me?