A TomBoy's Tale ❤

journeying & journaling through love,

[therealmekhai]

Going into the second week if my new diet/lifestyle change. Figure Id start posting along the way. Today's breakfast: 1 med Wheat Bagel with 2 tsps of low fat Peanut Butter 6 egg 🍳 whites

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7:24PM

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8:54AM

When you know, you know. It just clicks.

[therealmekhai]

11:30pm-she's soft, sensitive, she's delicate but still manages to carry the weight of world on her shoulders-and smile. Her eyes tell stories with words her mouth would dare not utter. #strength #power

[therealmekhai]

10:33PM

I'm just a real chick, with a job & a dream.

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4:26PM

This world is divided into two types of ppl. The ppl that matter… and the ppl that don’t.

I cannot afford to let the thoughts and opinions of those that don’t fuck up the thoughts and opinions of those that do.

When that happens, I am so not winning.

[therealmekhai]

My Example… Love. Some. More 10.4.14 25 years…

[therealmekhai]

9:28AM

Sometimes I feel like I'm so far gone in the opposite direction of my goal. So lost. Lost in the twists and turns of this journey. So defeated. Suffocating in my thoughts, my dreams, my reality. Then there are those moments, When I feel so full of excitement. So grounded in my plan of action. So motivated and eager. Light, and Free. Frustrated and Excited. Optimistic and Worrisome. All at the same. damn. time.

[therealmekhai]

2:01PM

Today, I realize that some will just “get” me and some will not. I am working on the areas of my life that Id like to fix… a work in progress indeed. Some will stick it through with me as I go through phases, while others will remove themselves… this time I will not chase them down to hold on… loving me some more… #LoveSomeMore

[therealmekhai]

12:33PM

I cry alone, a lot. But, the world would never know it 😶

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11:51am

People don’t realize my personal struggle with balancing being a whole artist and full time parent.  I use to be out in EVERY scene. I use to support heavily, genuinely.  I don’t do as much, not because I don’t want to, but because I can’t.  I don’t have the luxury of just rolling out whenever, wherever and staying out as late as I want.  I have a 3 year old which stays with me primarily and relies on me primarily.  Even his father, when he has to be somewhere or has to do something, because his job requires it- he goes and does it.   People don’t get that I can’t do that.  Saying they understand and actually living it is two different things. I still want to support as much if not more than I use to, It’s in my heart, its what I do. It's who I am.  I'm the type to buy tickets for fellow artist shows, knowing that I won't be able to go,but I want to support. I still want to be in mix, I still want to be a part of the “culture”, because it's a BIG part of me and it frustrates me.  But, if people can’t see my heart, and understand who

[therealmekhai]

2:26PM

I prefer straight shooters, shoot at me straight or miss me…

[therealmekhai]

2:25PM

Keep a person in the dark for too long, eventually they will fade to black…

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12:15AM

Chemistry could get you in trouble...

[therealmekhai]

5:38PM

This world is full of beautiful and inspiring people.

Don't waste time crying over one, unless you're 100% he/she is the one....and if he/she is the one, you'll know because you won't be crying tears of pain or sorrow....but tears of joy and excitement, and wonder!!!

[therealmekhai]

7:27pm

Even in the midst of dark and stormy weather, God graces me with drops of peaceful moments… content. stillness

[therealmekhai]

6;22PM

Been quite an introspective day… is that even a word 😔