Owe- to have an obligation to pay or repay for something received.
This has been a word that has haunted me pretty much my entire life. Growing up, my family wasn't the most financially set household in the neighborhood. As I grew up, there would be times in high school where I might borrow a couple of bucks to buy lunch or what not, eventually paying them back. I've always had a close group of friends and my family to support me even to this day whenever I was down on my luck. Very soon I will be able to pay the family and friends what I owe to them, but I know there is more to owe than money. I think it is a mutual understanding that whatever and whenever one of my friends is in need, I will always be there for them. At the same time, I am not forever indebted to them.
I have done a lot of work in my life to put myself in the best possible situation to succeed. Like I mentioned earlier, growing up my family was poor. Never really had tons of presents around the holidays like my peers, but I never thought of that as a disadvantage in my life. I found ways to still have my toys without asking my mom to buy them for me. And that was Radio Disney. See, Radio Disney was a way for me to win contests, get toys, and never having to bother my mom. I had a strategy of how to win and it worked! Toys, video games, electronics, clothes, I won it all on Radio Disney. As time past, I learned about utilizing social media to enter contests and wow, I'm still lucky enough to win!
Today, I won two tickets to a concert next month through a contest on Facebook. People may say, "You got lucky, there's no skill in winning contests." Yeah, they are right. But what I don't think people get is that I take the time to search for these contests, entering day after day to have a chance at winning, setting myself up to be in the best situation to win. I may annoy my friends with so many posts, but it works for me. So when I win, I feel like I should be able to ask anyone I want to go. So I did. When I tell my friends who I am taking, owe, comes echoing back at me.
"You owe it to this person to take them because they always have your back. What has that person done for you?"
"You should sell your tickets and pay back the family and friends you owe."
"You owe me for the things I've done for you."
Yes. I do owe those people a lot. But can I live for once? Is it okay for me to do something without having the consciousness to owe someone back? Of course, there were other times that I've won things and thought about the people I owe first. I always think of them, but this time I wanted to go with this certain person. It's tough because these are my best friends and I love hanging out and spending time with them, but they have me on this invisible leash, holding on to, owe. All of a sudden, because I didn't pick a person in my close circle, my character is judged. I think that is what saddens and angers me the most, that because close friends thought it was such a disappointing thing I did, my character comes into play. I hold a lot of pride in the person I am. I don't regret my choice, I'm happy I am going with this person. I just hope owe doesn't take advantage of me.
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