I WANT YOU…TO HIT ME…AS HARD AS…YOU CAN.

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⬩➤ This is a psychological fictionkin based blog! Mod formerly ran a blog in the scene for many many years prior to the Covid-19 lockdown bringing in an influx of new people, I stepped away from a while am coming back now, so I might be a little rusty…

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Mod is an adult! Mod is not a system I do talk to myself like I am multiple people but that is related to something else going on in my head I assure you

Call me relevant (to you not just primary shift) source names and pronouns! Especially in my inbox it makes it a lot easier to answer under the right context

This is an anonymous secondary blog for source interactions and the like, so I will request we don’t acknowledge my very obvious main blog out loud. If my cast of characters under the cut tells you anything it’s that my ego is easily wounded and I am full of shame.

No dni I will simply just block freely. I’m also very neutral on being treated like an rp blog sometimes that’s really cathartic. Very open to source interactions of any kind I am looking for connections, doubles more than welcomed

Blog asset requests are open! Give me a character and any other aesthetic details and I’ll do my best.

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⬩➤ KIN SHIFTS: Primary shifts are indicated by blog themes, circumstantial short term shifts are shown in what post header I’m using and will also come up when prompted, so do not be discouraged from talking about sources not attached to my blog theme! I will tag posts as [ Character Name ] Fictionkin for ease of access and avoidance.

⬩➤ TAG AND LABELS: I’m not 100% up to date on any changing community labels I’m just gonna guess, I’ll avoid main tags unless I’m saying something of substance and I’ll tag posts as [ Fandom Name ] Fictionkin for community interactions, if there is a tag more relevant please let me know

⬩➤ SUGGESTIVE POSTS: I might talk about fandom sexualization from time to time, not only will these posts be marked under a mature content label for sexual themes but they will also be tagged #suggestive, fair warning

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[therecklesspartofapair]

There's nothing cringe about posting about someone who was important to you, if it's something that you want to do, you should go for it

Even in life today I have the depressing knowledge that noob is the only real friend I think I ever had

We were I wanna say around mid or late twenties in the end of everything?

Everyone thinks I’m intimidating. Not just then I still hear it all the time now. No one sees me as anything other than that, I can only remember being understood by Noob.

Noob called me patient. No one would ever even think to ascribe that word to me now. Noob said I was quiet and gentle. And even after everything they convinced themselves I still had those traits in my absence, I hit them and they still had the guts to continue humanizing me when I stripped myself of any humanity I had left.

We did so much together, I think about it anytime I’m doing anything. Grocery shopping, folding laundry, we spent so much time together I’m sure I could relate something as simple as breathing to us.

I remember thinking there was no way they were cut out for the party scene they said they were in and being proven wrong the second I saw them less sober. I on the other hand definitely wasn’t as cut out for it as I pretended I was. And they saw through me fast.

They didn’t seem to mind.

The most fucked up part of it is that I wasn’t all that mad when we were brought together in the realm, it was vindicating. You left me behind and now we’re going down together.

I’ve never had a not mixed emotion in my life

[aroallogwynn]

something itches my brain about the leitmotif that monstrous mirage and dead ringer share.

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I think noob posting would be cringy of me to do and ruin my reputation as who I am

Said as I am GRIPPING the bars of my enclosure

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All I got was a weird relationship with eating with an audience and a hard time with portion control

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oh hey my blood craving came back.

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Maybe I wanna be treated gently ever consider that?

What? My history of violence means that’s all I crave? That’s all I’ll ever be? Have you looked at the roots of my aggression?

Nooo no never all you know is being self centered performative freak

Fuck you

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I can be trusted with a baseball bat

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FUCK I SHOULDVE SAID PACK BEHAVIOR HERD IS A SHEEP THING

No. No I’m better than a dog. I’m bigger than a dog. Dogs WISH THEY WERE ME

IM SO MUCH BETTER THAN A LITTLE YAPPING DOG

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I HAVE HOOVES. THATS SHEEP RELATED.

Closer to goats with demonic thematics- HERD ENOUGH

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I LITERALLY LOOK LIKE NOOBS CAT.

A WARRIOR CATS REFERENCE WOULDVE BEEN MORE ACCURATE.

I might be spiraling on this

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It’s a topic I’m seeing spoke of from two people unconnected that’s a sign obviously

I ate people in source

It was a product of having my needs intentionally neglected so I could be more dangerous and less likely to second guess myself like I used to. I was gluttonous and angry all of the time. My body was only allowed out of restrains in rounds.

I’ve got some scrambled thoughts in context of the Sixer noob skin and all of them surround the nausea of being spit back into a body that is not made to eat people the way a beast does

Granted I am more prone to taking my scrambled memories with a grain of salt seeing I as a beast cannot go to a casual carnival event. And I am certainly misremembering something we did preforsaken. Caramel apple stuck in my jaw likely not included.

Could be a scripting side effect…

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i'm the most perfect person ever.

[therecklesspartofapair]

MY FUCKING KNEES

[aroallogwynn]

i'm literally perfect and nice.

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SHE HIT ME IN THE FUCKING KNEES

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i'm the most perfect person ever.

[therecklesspartofapair]

MY FUCKING KNEES

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Ultimate genderfluid moment get your vaguely one sided homoerotic beast ex friend to cave in your pelvis

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do you ever miss being big

There is a lot to miss with being massive, the ego boost especially. I can never be too awkward in any situation because no matter who would judge me I will always have one factor over them. The fact I over double them in size.

Size does matter you can convince yourself to take on literally anything if you are big enough or even just think you’re big enough

There was of course some struggle, loss of humanity, needing to be restrained, lack of being socialized, doors, small spaces in general?

Body pain is constant, but the painful feverish side effects of using injectors does go away. This is a trade off for NOT HAVING A NOSE.

Sometimes my memories get all scrambled and I’ll misremember very human moments of my life but as a beast which is just not possible, I think I can blame post forsaken AU’s for this…just a little.

So like…sometimes.

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Fixed the forgotten part of my intro for whenever this comes up