We need to talk about Zdunich.
I wanted to start this post with “I’m sorry for springing this on you”, but... well, I don’t have any reason to apologise. I haven’t done anything wrong, and I can’t change the reason I’m doing this.
What reason? I’ll not mess you around. Short answer: I discovered that Zdunich has a history of predatory and abusive behaviour, including taking advantage of fans (and that’s not even all of it.)
I’m not going to go into more detail because 1. I don’t want to do any more research into this, what little I’ve read has already made me uncomfortable and I’m not compromising my own mental health for anything, and 2. I don’t want to risk triggering any followers for any reason. Don’t @ me about this, it’s my decision.
Longer answer: About a month ago, I was looking for other Repo blogs to follow and came across @fallforfables blog. This is a blog started by a former girlfriend of Zdunich, detailing his behaviour towards her and others during their relationship. BEFORE you click that link, please know that this behaviour includes predatory behaviour towards minors and fans, various kinds of abusive behaviour, transphobia, and possibly more. I didn’t want to read any more to check.
But I am asking you to click here and read, if you consider yourself a fan of Repo or TDC or anything else Zdunich has had a hand in. And I beg you to reblog this post. Because I had no idea about any of this, and I have to assume no one else does either, and we need to know. All of us need to know the truth, however unpleasant knowing it might be.
I’m not telling you to denounce anything. I’m not even telling you to stop liking Repo or TDC. As Fables says herself, many good people were involved in those projects and it must be possible to separate “art from shitty artist”. But it’s very important that we stop idolising this man. He’s not a good person.
Believe me. Don’t believe me. I can’t force you either way. Read the blog, come to your own conclusion.
There’s a lot I could say about how I felt on learning this. There’s a lot I want to say about it. But I don’t really want to spend my free time articulating my thoughts on it right now. What I can say is that a month ago, all my enthusiasm for Repo just... vanished. It’s gone. My favourite film, musical, in the whole world, the one I try to get everyone I meet to watch, the one I have spent huge amounts of money and time on doing cosplays from, the one I invested hundreds of hours of my life into making sheet music for, the one I loved so much, and suddenly I don’t care about it at all. I don’t bring it up in conversation anymore. I don’t sing Infected, Chromaggia or Legal Assassin in the shower anymore. When I first saw the film, I bought a cameo on Etsy that looked like Shilo’s and wore it all the time, but now I don’t even consider it when thinking about jewellery.
This blog will be going on hiatus as of this post. That includes all music transcription, and the plans I had for talking about the history of Repo as a show. I wish this hadn’t happened so soon after I’d just started gaining followers, but that’s how it is. I just don’t have any motivation to engage with Repo at the moment. I can’t say how long it may be until I do again. I don’t even know if I will.
Until then, Repo fans. You know where my ask box is if you have any questions.