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[theresalwayssomethingleft]

Ten years ago (I knew)

Reading my old writings

And I’m going to be sick

How did I not I not see this coming

It should have been obvious

The words were flowing out of me

My hands were writing words that

My brain could not yet understand

Words my mouth wouldn’t speak

Sentences that ended up in graves

Feelings that would rise again

I should have seen this coming

I knew before I actually knew

My soul was trying to tell me:

“This isn’t right and you know it”

My heart wanted to be free

But I didn’t know what it meant

To be truly me

Even though

That’s all I ever wanted

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

“I am strangely tired, not from having talked so much but at the mere thought of what I still have to say.” - Albert Camus, The Fall

[theresalwayssomethingleft]

So far, so long

I did not come this far

For you to pull me down

I have risen up and

Destroyed the worst of myself

I could have stayed trapped

You could have really

Made me stay untrue

I could have continued

An existence that wasn’t living

But suffering and suffocating

I woke myself up

Or more like jumped out of bed

With the realization of a new dawn

A new life awaiting me

I hit my head with that jump

The adrenaline flooding my veins

So I fell back down for a moment

But I got up and dusted off—

I powered on

Brushing off the words you said

I slowly cut ties and released

The weights that had been

Always pulling me down

I managed to climb a mountain

While you kept chiseling the bottom

I’m about to fly

And leave you behind

[thisissosuffocating-deactivated]

Goodness of you

You are a sun

Whose brilliance and warmth

Permeate the toughest surfaces

Your beauty and grace

Brightens the darkest days

Everyone is better after a moment of you

Your sweetness hasn’t a trace of bitter

Every word you say is honey

There isn’t a soul that would turn away

You aren’t perfect of course

Anything you’ve been through

Guided you to give and not take

You are good. An embodiment of the word

Everyone knows it, hope you do, too

I want you to feel the light, too

You are important and amazing

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

“I am strangely tired, not from having talked so much but at the mere thought of what I still have to say.” - Albert Camus, The Fall

[vomitingwords]

I killed

the part of me

that needs you,

in order to save

the rest of myself.

Before I lose it completely // ma.c.a

[abdulllahma]

once you stop looking, things find you

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

“I am torn in two but I will conquer myself.” - Anne Sexton

[olearypoetry]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“I have loved you since way before you were born,”

— Alice Walker, from her Turning Madness Into Flowers; “This Is A Story of how Love Works,”

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“My soul was in torment, but now—the moment I’m with you—I’m fully relaxed.”

— Anton Chekhov, tr. by Peter Constantine, from “O Women, Women,” c. 1880

[qvotable]

“How can you say you love one person when there are ten thousand people in the world that you would love more if you ever met them? But you’ll never meet them. All right, so we do the best we can. Granted. But we must still realize that love is just the result of a chance encounter.”

— Charles Bukowski

[ellisnightingale]

[ninasdrafts]

“I am desperately trying to write the next chapter when I haven’t finished the current one. I’m skipping words, lines, entire pages. I’m not ready and it’s beginning to show.”

— foreshadowing / n.j.

[theresalwayssomethingleft]

People suck

I am too tired

[theresalwayssomethingleft]

My heart shatters in my chest

As I if I’ve had my heart broken

[shmwrites]

Loneliness is a cruel tormentor. It will make you go running to people who broke you before and will make you believe that the same won’t happen again. It will push you into the arms of someone who doesn’t deserve to hold you. It will make you think that you deserve someone who loves their self more than you. It will make you feel like you deserve the inevitable pain that will come from chasing people who will never appreciate you. It will make you blame yourself when others treat you badly and convince you to forgive the unforgivable. It will make you chase people who aren’t enough to deserve your love or know how valuable it truly is. Loneliness will make you break your own heart.

Loneliness, it’s a cruel tormentor.