theiranonymous

[therianonymous]

hello, welcome to therianonymous.

this is a confession blog for all nonhumans to talk about the parts of themselves they aren't usually comfortable sharing; whether it be gross, taboo, or just something as simple as identity issues.

we do not have a dni. feel free to send me anything- if i feel it is too graphic to share, i'll just delete it. i will not add any personal comments on your confession unless you state you're okay with hearing my own opinions.

thank you for being here! remember, this is a judgment-free zone for everyone. therians, otherkin, clinical 'thropes, and everyone else.

[therianonymous]

idk if this is too graphic but i'm pretty sure i'm not alone in this. i've seen a lot of "petplayers dni" on nonhumans' posts, which is fine, whatever, we all have our squicks, but there's gotta be nonhumans whose identity affects them in bed (what they're attracted to, what they like, etc). it makes sense for a trans person to have, like, gender affirming kink, why wouldn't it make sense for a nonhuman to have something like that to affirm their species?

sorry, this is a ramble, but i just think there's no way i'm the only 'kin like this

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[therianonymous]

Is this still active? I don't know, but I wanted to say something anyway.

I always feel like that animals see(?) and understand that I am a therian. They just act different. And no, it's not about me being an introvert/calm/neurodivergent, I have friends like that and I still notice differences in my pets' behavior. They treat me like one of them and it's very reassuring. They know who I really am.

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[therianonymous]

i’m not necessarily alterhuman, just a guy with autism that led me to be socialized just as much by the cats i grew up with as i was by the humans. i have a lot of catlike behaviors that mostly show when i’m happy or comfortable, and luckily my partner has a compatible brand of autism and understands me. still… i don’t think they would appreciate it very much if i gave in to the instinct to groom by repeatedly licking them whenever we cuddle and get comfy. i keep having to do it to myself instead to sate the urge 💔

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[therianonymous]

Ah can't find any active blog to share so i think your good? (I dunno if this can be allowed for fictionkin stuff or if this even fits the blog :'})

Anyways! I found out I may be a wigned pikmin kin, just... huh. Those little dudes, feel familiar to me! Even before I knew those dudes, I always wanted wings of all types, mostly moth-like or any bug-like wings though.

So yeah! Happy for questioning that, since I also come across memories pretty easily for most fictionkin types and I already have a small idea of how that life went. Might meditate to have more accurate stuff, but just sharing in case anyone else was wondering if pikmin kin are around since I was hehe :}!

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[therianonymous]

OKAY SO- I learned about the term therian since I was 9 and it stuck with me pretty well, knowing that since I was around 7 Ive felt like some type of creature (more specifically a wolf) stuck in a human body. However in recent years there's been a decline and since I was 11 its been this thing where for once a year or two, Id reidentify as a therian for a week and then drop it, saying that I was delusional or something like that. I'm 13 now and Im sorta going through this therianthrope thing again, honestly I think the reason why I do is because I miss it, I miss happily identifying as a therian and part wolf, I miss mental shifting, I miss, even if its just a little bit, being myself again. Thats what causes me to make it my personality for a week then dropping it. I guess I want to know if Im a 'real' therian or not. If me identifying as part wolf then dropping it is just me wanting to hold on to an identity I cant identify with or if its actually me just simply not making it my entire personality but not knowing that it was okay for me not to. maybe theres a term for it? But at the same time I dont really think about how I identify much unless Im actively thinking about it. I know that this is a personal journey, but Id like some genuine advice and maybe some sources that would help. Sorry this is so long.

listen. listen to me. you're young. hell, i'm young too; sixteen, only figuring out i was nonhuman like four years ago.

you dropping labels and being unsure about yourself is a part of life. period. you're not faking it. you're unsure about yourself and who you want to be. this is a part of being alive.

luckily for you, there is no deadline on figuring out if you're a therian or not. nobody is going to be mad at you if you're unsure about your animality. it's a complicated and confusing journey- especially for us teens!

you don't have to make being an animal your entire identity if you don't want it to be. it's just another part of you. if you think a part of you is an animal, no matter how frequently (or infrequently) it raises it's head, you're an animal.

i'd love to talk to you one-on-one, if you don't mind. always nice meeting young therians, especially since i'm used to being the odd pup out. feel free to reach out, if you're comfortable.

[therianonymous]

I'm a werewolf in the sense that im a big dumb fluff of a puppy but im also a raging beast AND ALSO very wary of humans

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[therianonymous]

I’m a dragon but I’ve never been attracted to other dragons. I think they’re good looking and all but I’ve never imagined myself with a dragon partner or anything of the sort. Maybe I’ve imprinted on humans because that’s what I grew up among?

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[therianonymous]

currently questioning if i’m actually just a shapeshifter kin rather than all of these other things. it makes more sense but i can’t help but feel a little bad about myself or feel like i’m trying to “justify” having “too many” kin types or theriotypes. it’s insanely frustrating when i catch myself feeling that way, but at least i can identify it.

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[therianonymous]

Hi, thank you for making this blog its nice to be able to read everyone elses experience and to talk a bit my self.

I have a hard time trusting things even my self alot of the time, I always feel like I'm faking things or I'm wrong in some way. I even have a hard time trusting my memories. It took a long time for me to except that I'm aroace and I still haven't came out anywhere. So being nonhuman has been a really hard feeling, especially since it's not as excepted.

now to actually start. I've always felt off as long as a can remember, Ive wanted to be an different. Wildkrats, balto, spirit, bolt were my favorite shows and movies anf warrior cats was my favorite book and it I always remembered wanting to be like them. This feeling kinda whent to the back of my mind for a few years as alot of stuff happened but I recently (maybe two years ago?) Found out about therians and non humans. I adamantly told myself I was being stupid and distanced myself but now I'm coming back and everything is stronger. But I dont have memories or dreams, I dont know what I look like and I don't know what I am. I just know I feel ears on the top of my head almost constantly and my teeth feel like they take up my whole mouth I know when I look around I dont feel my human eyes, I feel long digigrade legs and I want to walk on all fours, I know I feel the need to climb and grab ahold of things and want to be up high. I know I want to feel wind on my face and I want to chew on things with sharp teeth, i know i want to forage and eat plants from the woods. I know I feel wrong.

And then it gets more complicated, where sometimes I'm fine. I look in the mirror and I see a human face and that's fine. It goes away and I dont think about it. And I tell my self I'm being stupid, it's all fake, and something is wrong with me.

I dont know what to believe. It's hard for me to even except all of this to begin with.

I dont know what to think, I dont know what to do.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. It feels really nice to just get it off my chest.

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[therianonymous]

i feel both human and nonhuman. its really hard to articulate that, because sometimes im fine being human (not as much looking in the mirror- but that's a whole different type of dysphoria), im fine with hands and feet and teeth, and sometimes its. wrong. it feels like i have so many habits and instincts that i just cant do in this body- i cant curl my tail around someone for their attention, i cant gurgle and coo like birds do, and it just sucks. and then it goes away again and i feel fine. it makes it hard to really face my alterhumanity, because if it goes away and i dont feel it all the time then its not real, right? because im human. thats what i am. and even for the therian kins- some type of bird + some type of feline? maybe? - it doesn't feel like 100% that, most of the time. i feel like a shapeshifter, but in a therian way? if that makes sense?

the whole point of this is that it doesn't make sense, so 8/

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[therianonymous]

I love being a fucking Pomeranian therian. bark bark and I wish I had my big fluffy tail to wag irl but thankfully me wolf therian friend/partner will indulge me a lot and play wrestle me and it's so fun

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[therianonymous]

Shoutout to nonhumans whos identities affect their attractions, I know for a fact that as an aromantic zoo I could only be attracted to my partner who is also nonhuman.

(im not an animal abuser. fuck off.)

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[therianonymous]

sometimes i feel really bad about my therian & otherkin identity. there’s no real reason why, i don’t think, but i believe it’s related to the fact that i have a very hard time connecting to certain things in a specific way that “matters.”

i watch as other therians + kin has shifts of the etc. category, & feel gross about the way i don’t at all. i just am this thing, & that’s it. i feel like sometimes i should be compensate, force myself to image memories & shifts like i had once before. it’s a huge thing for me; i desperately need to fit in or i feel like a ghost among similar people.

another thing that i often feel bad about is how fluctuating my identity is. every time without fail, every time i change some form of myself be it aesthetic, wardrobe, whatever - theriotypes & kintypes change. it makes me feel like the worlds oddest thing. i’ve had the worst (actually, best) double media fixation & continuous special interest heading on a year or two now (a record now that i’m actively acknowledging it) & it has quite literally impacted my identity so hard that my theriotypes changed.

sorry if this jumps around. i have a hard time keeping on a one aimed track when things stem off within it. feel free to comment, you or anyone else. <3

if it helps, i feel the same way about aesthetics. the way i present myself changes around a lot, and with it, my sense of self. for a long time i identified with felines, and then, one day it just... shifted.

i feel like this community has a focus on having a stable identity rather than a comfortable one. we change- and with it, our sense of animality.

[therianonymous]

thank you for this blog, this has been itching at me for ages and i'm glad i can actually type it out somewhere.

i feel very disconnected from from the therian and otherkin communities because of the way i'm my animal, suffice to say. my nonhumanity is deeply linked to mental illness, trauma, personal experience, what have you, and because of that i have a hard time fully connecting or even saying i AM otherkin or therian because i ultimately feel more just nonhuman than either of those.

the thing is though, despite not having delusions or even experiencing psychosis as far as i'm aware of, honestly i'm not sure, i find myself much more easily relating to clincal 'thropes and i feel awful about it. i'm not apart of that community, and i never EVER want to infringe on it because i don't belong there. i hate that i feel this way because i know a lot of younger therians or otherkin will go to them going "i'm just like you!" which very rightfully upsets them. they're not the same in the slightest. i'd HATE to even remotely sound like that because that's just incredibly disrespectful.

i know in experience i'm much closer to therian and otherkin than anything else in the nonhuman community, but i feel so disconnected from them. there's just a relation to clinical 'thropes and i feel ashamed that there is. i don't know if it's because of how my nonhumanity is so intrinsic to my mental state or what, even though that makes no sense. accidentally infringing on communities like that that i am not apart of is just not something i want to do, i respect them deeply and don't want to cross boundaries.

i feel like an alien and an outsider in the nonhuman community and it i hate it, i don't wanna step on anyone's toes but i feel like i don't belong anywhere. it's odd. sorry about this being a bit long, if you or anyone would like to comment go right on ahead.

i'm glad you (and so many others!) enjoy this blog. personally, i don't really relate to clinical 'thropes all that much, so i don't really want to speak for them. but i know a lot of other nonhumans that feel the same way that you do. it can feel like no one takes your animality seriously unless you're diagnosed with something that proves it.

here's where i would give you a word of advice; but i don't really have one for this in particular. my only say is to "find a community that you can relate to!" but... that's obvious, isn't it?

i suggest maybe speaking to some clinical 'thropes directly. they will probably give you much better advice than i ever can. in any case, thank you for sharing, and i'm glad you could be here. :)

[therianonymous]

i feel like i'm faking it.

everytime i question a new kintype or i debate if i am an old one, there's this voice in the back of my head telling me, "you're faking it." "you just want to be special." and i hate it.

i've never felt human, ever. in some way or another, i am always nonhuman. i feel uncomfortable with being called one.

i'm still trying to adjust and make myself feel more comfortable with actively labeling myself as nonhuman, and somedays i'm really proud of it.

other days, i really just wish i could be what people expect of me.

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[therianonymous]

thank you for this blog, there's something ive been really needing to just get off my chest but worry about posting with the nature of it

one of my fictiotypes is from a problematic source. my canon follows the actual canon, where my boyfriend is abusive and held me hostage in his home.

but i seriously miss him whenever I am shifted to this character. in our canon, we both ended up dead, and I often find myself wishing that I'll meet him again in this life.

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