#shapeshifterkin

[kogumaneko-0x0freakshow]

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[thelovelynarcissiseraphim]

Okay, as I've thought about it, I've realized that the species that I've been "creating" as OCs might actually be like. My species. Which makes a lot of sense because there have been times when I made a guess about the biology of this species and how they might work, which is somehow backed up by real science despite the fact that I am not a biologist or anything close (yet). Which I think means that these things were common knowledge to my species, similar to how humans learn in school about their own biology. So yeah! That's fun.

I still don't know what the planet I'm from looks like, completely, or how it works, which sucks. But I have some knowledge about the biology of my species and some cultural stuff which is amazing.

Based on both my "memories" of stuff and assumptions I've made based on my own experiences and behaviors here is some stuff I am pretty sure about concerning my species:

We're shapeshifters! Our shapeshifting is facilitated by the structure of our bodies; we're composed of a multitude of smaller creatures that can function independently. They form membranes around themselves for protection, which can have many different properties. Because of the ability of the creatures to function on their own, and the membranes they can split and reform into different shapes.

Because of our ability to shapeshift, having multiple separate identities is pretty much the default. Members of our species would cycle through lots of different personalities and even names over their lives, and would sometimes use multiple names or identities at a time.

I'm pretty sure we get energy through something like photosynthesis

Being low or no empathy/sympathy and being anattractional (by human standards) is the default.

Oh and we don't have faces (not sure how we see but I think we do)

[biohazard-inevitable]

As I tuck in for the night sometimes, I imagine myself in my true body

I imagine its hulking shamble of twisted bones draped in long, messy fur, curled like knotted tree roots among the verdant ferns and croaking bullfrogs as this human form slips into darkness and the great blue wisps of fire flicker to life in the eye sockets.

My jaw creaks and rattles like a xylophone of joints as my neck stretches and twists away the ache of eons old slumber, each tender lean breaking apart the clumps of moss that have clung together during my sleep.

My claws flex and stretch as i feel around, readdjusting myself to my proper posture and size as I was my talons in the cold stream beside me before rising to tower alongside the looming redwoods far larger than I.

I take a deep, phantasmal breath of the humid forest around me, relishing in the cool suggestion of lush greenery and earthen floor, petrichor gently at the edge of my senses as I settle once more into a body that feels more like my own.

I am still a nerd beneath the shaggy form and undead creaks.

My stories are still hissed by my tongue and my games are still poked at by enlarged claws but the flesh that restrained and pained me has now melted for my preferred structure of magic and decay.

I am still me, and always shall I be, regardless of the form that lays in the bed whilst the mind imagines what should be.

[the-odd-ones-oddities]

The weirdest thing about being a shapeshifter with autism is the desire to shapeshift into physical forms/characters of exaggerated traits of your personality and/or masks. It’s kind of like those who have a professional side at work versus the non-professional relaxed side at home, if I had to give one example.

[two-facedgod]

The thing about being a shapeshifter is you don't know if you're having a "moment" (a flicker) or if a legitimate kintype is forming. For me, after seeing Guillermo Del Toro's "Pinocchio" I've been feeling like a sphinx. So there's that.

[aro-simp]

if i could physically shift i would be doing so much betterrrrrrr grrrrrrr

[monstar-mischief]

Looking back on little me not knowing I was alterhuman is kinda funny to think about. When I learned about what was going on in others’ dreams (that they were willing to share) I was disappointed that:

A. Most people are themselves in their own bodies most of the time

and B. Being non-human in a dream is pretty rare for others as far as I can tell

Seriously I was almost never and still am almost never in a human body on my dreams. The times I was, it was also most of the time not in the body I see when I look into a mirror.

Also I tried to figure out how to control my own dreams once for a while because I really really wanted to shapeshift. I wanted so much (and still do want to) get out of this human body.

[thelovelynarcissiseraphim]

starting to think the angelkin thing is religious for me, actually. which, considering my specific religious trauma, is TERRIFYING