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where the dream starts

hey tumblr. you must be the one and only person who went through all the ups and downs with me. im so grateful that youre always here love xoxo

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RE-161026 這天，我學習到一堂最寶貴的課。

我在「161026 這天，我學習到一堂最寶貴的課」的最後，我寫下了我體會到的政治的真實這句話，當天下午我也跟我在讀公共行政的高中好同學分享了這件事情，她也回覆我「親身體會到政治感覺就是不一樣對吧～將來會遇到更多的唷」，我也打電給給媽媽講了這個故事，得到的回覆是：「知道政治了齁～」（當然媽媽也有對我發言這件事覺的表現很棒拉～）然而經過一段時間的沈澱後，我對這件事情並沒有抱持當初那麼濃烈的情緒後，回過頭來想：究竟「政治」是什麼樣子？為什麼這件事情可以用「政治」來涵括？為什麼我個人認為這件事情並不是「政治」應該有的樣子，卻要因為「這就是政治啊」這種話語而默默接受這個現象，或許在這個社會的大框架下，政治已經被形塑成一個固定的模樣了（台灣的政治環境尤其複雜），但作為一個以政治科學為主科的學生，我謹期盼自己能保有分析社會現況的客觀性，不要因為主流扭曲的思想，而讓自己獨立思考的能力停擺，也不要因為一些過於現實的因素而囚禁自己對於不同價值的追尋。（對於這整篇的撰寫，我的確了解到自己其實有自身的思想框架去分析事情，然而我並不會讓我的態度很單一，而是在我所相信的價值下，仍開放的去接受不同的聲音，讓自己成為勇於面對世界的人，也同時要有被挑佔的勇氣）

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來了兩個月其實感觸很深，從一開始還不相信自己要來金門、剛開學很不想接受新環境到現在所有東西慢慢上步調，才短短兩個月真的有了很多前所未有的體驗，遇到很多衝擊我原有的價值觀的事情，卻更懂勇敢去面對、去接受，或許這裡是個很奇妙的地方吧～不會一昧的給妳安全的舒適圈去成長，而是讓妳在挑戰中變得更勇敢，也更願意去接納新的人、事、物，來之前即使一直告訴自己everything happens for a reason，但內心其實很懷疑自己是不是只是安慰自己的藉口，但現在好像慢慢知道為什麼上天會讓我來這裡了，雖然兩個月很短，好像也沒做什麼，但很多inner conflicts走過真的覺得好像又慢慢長大了，不管是在女中還是金門，覺得自己不管身在哪裡都能保有最真實的自己很好，在這神奇的地方遇到神奇的人、吃了很多神奇的食物、看了很多神奇的景，之後就繼續神奇下去吧💕 啊我好想女中小到爆炸的學校、高級到炸的宿舍、生出很多人心血結晶reso的社辦、高一到高三都一樣愛去的鯉魚池、開學會瘋狂尖叫的傳統、小白卡、法院的餐、阿鎮、胡椒餅、格子Q、嗎啡、黃金牟、肉餅豆漿、後面的乾麵、第五市場的飯糰肉粥滷肉飯（列食物要列到天邊了😂）最重要的當然還是一群瘋女人和所有老師、熱情工友阿伯、志工阿姨和所有人啦❤️❤️❤️ #一中女中制服日11月17

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161026 這天，我學習到一堂最寶貴的課。

161026 這天，我學習到一堂最寶貴的課。

   因為今天很值得記錄，所以我決定將我今天發生的每個細節都用文字記錄下來，這是個踏入大學即將邁入第二個月的日子，也是我真正開始以政治為學科主修展開學術歷程的日子，今天我們系也就是金門大學國際暨大陸事務學系舉辦2016 暢談兩岸 高瞻未來 兩岸關係論壇的日子，分為上下半場各一位講者，上半場是陳明通教授，曾任陸委會副主委，也是政府重要的官僚，也是台大國發所前所長，下半場是劉德勳教授，也曾任陸委會副主委，現則為監察委員，他們分別以「當前兩岸關係與政府政策」及「兩岸協商與兩岸關係」為題來做演講，論壇進行的形式會以他們進行一個半小時的演講後再進行一個小時的雙向交流，雙向交流則為選出的交流代表與講者進行發問，在上半場的部分，我在最後問了一個問題，其實我猶豫很久要不要問，所以我在第二個問題問完之後，給自己五秒，數到五就舉手問，然後勇敢問了，我問了：「陳所長之前在海基會25週年的論壇中提及，應以『九二諒解』取代『九二共識』，然而無論是『九二共識』或是『九二體諒』皆是一個中國為基礎，而目前的『尊重九二會談歷史事實』及『九二共識』兩者皆沒有在其實際意涵進行討論，而不是字面上選用的討論，您認為海協兩岸對於『九二共識』理解上的分歧，是否有進一步討論的可能性？台灣該以何種態度去回應？」然後我得到的回應則是說：關於九二的部分，應該透過政治協商進行討論，且不一該在一個原則下進行討論，問問題的當下我超級緊張無敵狂抖，感覺問題講到後面有亂掉一點，但其實我問題都打下來了，照著念就可以，只是我問問題的時候不讓別人我是照紙念，所以還是直接問的，問問題要繼續練習了，我在一開始問問題的時候，我前排就有一位先生，看起來應該也是我們系上的，但年紀不小，應該是研究生吧我想，他在我剛開始問問題就猛點頭，問完之後還對我比讚說我問的很好，我就小小點頭回去，因為我知道我還有很多要改善的。

   下午場我很幸運擔任交流代表能上台問問題，我的位置坐在台上左邊數過來第三個（以聽眾角度看的話），左邊第一個是國際一同樣擔任交流代表的同學，第二個是劉德勳教授，接著是總招學長，我，和應英三的學姊，以左邊開始發問，我是第二個提問的人，我第一輪的問題是：「請問劉委員之前在南強講座曾提及，目前執政的民進黨針對兩岸事務方面，在上任前後有介於兩岸關係的敏感及特殊性，而有一些『今是昨非』的做法，請問您認為身為一個執政黨該如何在國際情勢壓力及人民期許下作出平衡？」因為今天早上問問題的時候覺得自己太緊張語氣可以條強聽起來更專業更有條理一些，所以這個問題的語氣是堅定的，輪到教授回答的時候，他一開及說：「南強講座？（語氣聽起來有些疑問，好像他沒參加過這個講座）」然後我就補充：「對，南強講座，廈門大學的南強講座」然後他就說：「我在南強講做是討論兩案的監察制度，我沒有提到『今是昨非』，所以這個我可能沒辦法回覆，關於這方面的話，執政黨應該要更加努力blahblahblah」在他說他沒有提到今是昨非的時候，我很認真的覺得我是不是資料找的不正確，我是不是栽贓了，但其實我看這篇報導發行的媒體的時候，我在網站上有看到不同的立場的文章，所以我並不認為這個媒體有偏頗，而且我在設計問題的時候，在字句的使用已經有做修飾，那篇報導中寫的其實更直白有攻擊性，裡面還有寫到他認為這種行為是在騙選民選票說一套做一套，我問的問題本質也不是要他對「今是昨非」再做立場性的說明，而是執政黨該如何在上任前後的作為有一致性，但我在台上的時候就老老實實地相信他沒說，還覺得很愧疚，然後在第一輪問完問題，他還一直強調自己今天來是以教授的身份，而不是監察委員，並且強調自己身份的問題，不能對有關執政方面的問題作出回答或批評，還提說他有跟主辦單位強調這點，他的回應讓我覺得他對於我們問題設計讓他很為難感到困擾，第二輪，我就挑了我準備的五個問題中強度最低的問，「對於陸委會與國台辦的聯繫溝通機制，以及海基會、海協會的協商機制，兩者皆確定中斷，台灣近期也多為單面向對岸釋出善意，但卻無法達到真正的「溝通」成效，針對這點，您有什麼看法？認為台灣能採取什麼行為來改善此現象？」我的語氣也降很多，可能是因為前面發問學姊問的問題真的太要問有立場的誇張，教授在台上更尷尬，直接說：「妳怎麼會問我這個？」所以我問的時機整個超尷尬，但我覺得第二個問題很可以，因為他是來講兩岸協商的，得到的回應當然又是：「政府要努力尋找與兩岸溝通的機制blahblah」然後結束之後，我們代表和教授就要下台了，在下台的時候，有一個看起來像教授的人（其實我認不出來他是誰，但我在台上的時候有看到他坐在我們系主任旁邊），就走到我面前說：「傻孩子啊～你怎麼能問南強講座的事情啊，這種東西要私下問拉，這種事情不能說，他當然要說他們是在將監察制度啊。」然後我整的人充滿疑問，因為我真的老老實實相信他沒有講「今是昨非」，然後我就問說：「所以他有講『今是昨非』？」教授：「當然有啊（加上狂點頭跟肯定的表情）」所以其實是他根本就有講，但或許是為了逃避問題或基於身份所以直接說沒有（真的的原因我也不能多做猜測），說白了點他直接回我說他沒有說今是昨非是個謊言（這樣用字可能有點強硬但真的是事實），但他去南強講座演講的時候已經是監察委員了，而且報導也直接稱呼他劉委員，他在回答我問題的時候狠狠打我的臉，下面的聽眾如果沒有看過這則新聞一定覺得我被打臉，就算有（就連我自己）我都覺得相信他說沒講，但其實他是狠狠的打了自己的臉，如果這個報出去感覺會很恐怖，我第一次和政治人物能有直接的交流提問（其實有點像質詢的感覺拉），就得到這麼衝擊的課題，我真的要好好體會珍惜了，回來認真再思考後發現，這完全是我政治學報告血淋淋的例子，我的報告題目是：為什麼要講場面話？———場面話背後的目的與其爭扎。今天一天感受到政治的真實了。

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First cross-strait panel makes it serious

The night (omg seriously it's morning cuz it's 2am) Finally finish the brainstorming of thinking the questions which I gonna be the student representative to ask the speaker. Hope everything will be alright and I will do pretty awesome. First night I went to bed so late after college kicked off. Hope it worth it and it will, right? All the best to myself heehee

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Rita rita rita

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Life has so many dark sides. you should better save yourself from them😈

during the past days. i got to know much about my classmates a lot(thanks to 🐛btw) i felt so warm and happy that many ppl are incredibly nice. however, i also found out that there is a group of ppl has dark sides behind their bright smile(which be proved that actually, it’s evil) so many classmates were be hated without logical reasons. i tried to listen to them and express my caring to them cuz i know that being disliked is so tough. however, everything changed. more and more ppl know the issue which makes the situation even worse. each side started a war. sometimes know nothing is better than everything. 

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unexpectedly matching wet hair😂😂😂😂😂 best is always the best #161020 crossing #161021 #facetime got us like this. two Taiwanese chatted in English haha. (J is said has british accent in English hk accent in Chinese and look like Chinese but actually she is mixed of 彰化雲林 haaaaa

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i know these pics are incredibly scary but it sums up the past month’s hard work and endless practices. so they worths it. 🐛🐛 🐛  dance competition, the biggest event for freshman and probably the most unforgettable event during college life. what makes 🐛 unforgettable may be the 不爽 i had had durning the process (i dont deny lol) but most important element must the spirit and those bonds i created w/ my classmates❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️  a competition is probably the best event for new friends to be close cuz we have to 共患難 😂  shout out to seniors and all those beautiful peoples. btw 踩街 is incredibly fun and we get 1st place on this subject teehee. all the people we met are so nice and friendly (kids, elder ppl, tourists)  #161015

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random blog (love issues?!)

hey tumblr, youre the one and only place where i can write down my deepest feelings. (thanks god that so few taiwanese ppl use tumblr) youre such a quite place (unlike annoying facebook jk love you fb) im now at the library doing some reserch for tmr’s politics class.(it’s like some research brainstorming) okay okay let’s cut to the points i wanna write them down today. recently, i found out that im so childish towards the “love” issue. i always expect someone having crush on me, think about who may be the potential “right guy”. however, it’s time back to think about “what’s the real meaning of being love and love others”, “why i wanna date someone”, and “what im pursuing?” actually, love should be ponder under those economy ways which focus on benefit blah blah blah. love should be pure. you meet the person who makes your heartbeat getting faster and faster. then, he is the one. okay rita you still gonna wait for a long time😂😂😂😂😂😂😂  but he will show up someday even in the future which takes a long time lol

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First post for college

Okay. I’m finally here writing some reflections for the past days. Cuz this is my 100th post and my 1st post for college. I’m gonna take it pretty seriously. At the beginning of this new chapter of life, I went through all sorts of ups and downs. Negative thoughts were all around my mind. I couldn’t help but kept hating everything, everyone, and even myself. I missed those good old times back in high school a lot. Even though I met a lot of new faces right here, none of them I sincerely recongized she/he as a friend. I also had tried to get close to cool kids on class. Gradually, I lost myself. I’m not the real me. However, I’m so glad that I always have a group of friends who went through all of these tough times with me, kept giving me wonderful suggestions, helped me to find the real Rita back, and gave me tons of love. 💕💕💕💕💕Well……everything is getting better right now. I slightly start to love the place and the people. To be honest, Kinmen is incredibly beautiful and the people right here are super friendly. It seems like the only thing I should do is open my mind. (hopefully)This 4 years is gonna be a blast. 💐💛

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Maybe Taiwan doesn't want me leave. The flight is delaying. #160907

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i’m getting 19!!!!

hey tumblr! here is the just 19 year-old me writing some reflections. the past year went too fast. i met too many people i should defintely cherish for good, too many ups and downs which made me a better person. however, i clearly found out there is still a long way to go to achieve my goal. i missed too many great oppurtunites last year but also got a new chance to experience different places. all in all, this year is a new start. wish you can be braver and more open-minded to accept new things. all the best❤️

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night with this is perfect

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HSPD 2016 RECAP This must be the most tiring and inspiring event throughout the summer. It took me about 1.5 month to deal with the entire competition. Throughout the preparation era, I found out that I still have long way to go to become a good critical thinker. I'm still weak about group discussion with people I though there are smarter than me. I have to be brave and just speak up. During the exact three-day camp, I found out that my debating skills did improve from the last three-year training at MUM and deeply experience that politic is the way I want to keep as a career. JIA YO. It's a long way to go but a path with countless beautiful scenes ,wonder challenges, and beautiful people. LEAK IN🏃

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IPHONE SE!!!!

First post w/ new SE bae💕

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she is 宜伶 aka 柯廢💙  she looks pretty 高冷 when she doesn’t wear a smile on her face. our story started when we got to sit besides each other.(actually both of us were asked to exchange our seat with someone else but both of us insisted on keeping our own seats. kind of saving each other from sitting with someone who had crushes on us lol) at the beginning, we seldom talked to each other. cuz both of us are 慢熟 and kinda shy. the moment we started talking to each other is the day when she was out for honor guard’s performance. i put my backpack on her seat. and she followed up comeback and said “ hehe 做壞事被我發現齁😒“ then we stared to chat with each other. then here out story comes out. she is always there when i tell her that i am so stressful. she will comfort me in her way, and make me feel so warm and energetic. she is the type of person who don’t want to share her deep thoughts with others. she needs someone to 逼她說. and i’m so grateful to walk through her deepest moments and to have her accompany during mine.❤️