These Words I Write

I express myself to discover myself  All works are original  

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you have shown me love in a new light

it is not always easy

and it is not always kind

but it is always worth it

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You asked me once

That if I could do it all again

If I would do it the same

And the truth is

I don’t know

I am so happy with you

And I an so glad we are where we are

But it has been hard work

A decision to stick with you through every breath

And while I do not regret it

My life would have been easier if I had chosen a different path

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let me write of how you set me on fire

of how the sound of your voice calms the storm inside

let me write of our love

so that even when we die

our love never will

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loving you was never convenient

it was never something i did just to have something to do

loving you was a choice i made again and again

day after day

because love is not just a feeling

love is a decision

a commitment

and i choose to love you

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i will build you up

till the point it starts to tear me down

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if you tell me to go

i will go

i will not stay in a place i am unwanted

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some people are worth the pain

some need you to be in pain

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my hope for our love

is not to forget all others i have thought to love

but for our love to make it all worth it

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i do not care if our love is easy

i care if our love is worth it

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i have faith in finding you

i have faith in our happiness

i just wish faith would hurry up

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sometimes toxicity

feels like love

when that’s all you’re used to

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with you my worst nights can turn into my best

the secrets i bury flow freely

i am not afraid you are going to walk away from the dark inside me

with you i can be true

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why am i only marriage material when i’m walking away

you didn’t want to marry me but you you would to get me back under your control (these-words-i-speak)

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you had time to fuck them

why didn’t you have time to text me back

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i don’t wear it for you

i wear it despite you

i do not dress for men, i dress for myself (these-words-i-speak)

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some things are normal

that doesn’t make them right

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i think of your eyes when i’m asked my favorite color

and us cooking together when i’m asked about my favorite food

if someone ask me where i’ve traveled i think about all the flights i’ve taken to you

- no wonder it’s so hard to forget about you (these-words-i-speak)