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[theshaiblog]

7/29/2026: america ya

hi everyone! it's that time again for another update ^.^

music stuff

haven't done much progress at all, but luckily only 2 more tracks need to be done, it's very close to completion on the song side of things

just need to sit down and dedicate time to vocal work and that's about it! i have a song i want to complete and release as a single :>

but yeah, things have slowed to a crawl here

life stuff

it's been okay, health is still in the same poor spot though. ive started to get random aches and pains sometimes, coming on for no reason in my arms and stuff. so that's something to deal with

ive finally caught up with one piece as well! it took me a year but i finally managed to read it all up until the latest chapter, it feels weird to be in the weekly reader club but also rewarding

i managed to get a switch 2, so ive been playing a LOT of that, it's probably one of my favorite consoles ever, its so comfortable! it's worth the price if you ask me

but, admittedly. ive been wasting lots and lots of time. i don't think playing games, reading and making music is a time sinker at all, in fact it's very rewarding for me. it's the most important hobbies, and music means everything to me

but sometimes i find myself scrolling twitter, instagram reels and youtube shorts, and just scrolling, and scrolling, and scrolling... i think they call it doomscrolling or something, but i usually get positive stuff

anyways, i think i'll start limiting my screen time and not deleting socials, but spending less time on them. i think this'll get me back on the right track and HOPEFULLY, i'll have an album done

anyways i hope you all are doing good and enjoying ur summer so far, thanks for reading my rambling like always! <3

[theshaiblog]

6/19/2026: proudest of months 🏳️‍⚧️

wow, its been a while since the last update huh? im sorry to keep you all in the dark!

music things

admittedly my motivations to create music right now have plummeted real bad, but im still trying. after duetz didn't do as well as i hoped, i went into a bit of a slump and i guess i haven't gotten out of it yet, outside of my own health issues and personal stuff

but even then, i still manage to get some stuff done, the album is about to be finished! but there's still room to add a bit more if i feel like it. when the last track is eventually finished, the vocals and general cleaning up are the next step

i think this is probably my most heavy stuff to come out though, and it's different from my previous work. im not sure how everyone will take it, but i hope some of you find comfort in what i have my gals sing about with you

and in a way it's ironic to listen to a emotionally heavy album in the summer, ain't it? 

personal stuff

ive mostly been gaming a bit more lately, i haven't given myself the time to read manga lately but im close to catching up with one piece, still have plenty of other stuff to keep reading too but haven't gotten around to it yet

my health is the usual, not good but not bad. my days are a 50/50. if you've ever seen that youtube clip of david lynch in the car then that's probably the best way to describe where my head has been

just hanging in there, with my wonderful bf by my side <3

well, i don't really know what else to talk about! im feeling tired just writing this update, so i'll just leave everything at that

i hope u all are doing good, stay safe and let's have a nice summer! and happy pride month!!

[theshaiblog]

4/20/2026: roachdoggjr

hi, it's been a while since the last update, hasn't it? im sorry i haven't been as active as i could be everyone!

work on the album

it's been going good so far. a lot of instrumentals and lyrics are finished, but some vocals are far from being started right now. i would say im about halfway through finishing the album, the lyrics and vocals take the most time out of anything. ^.^

i managed to get a copy of miku v6 and gumi, and vocaloid 6, and so far i love these two, and vocaloid 6 is really easy to work on. so work on the album will go way faster cause of this!

i plan at least 3 singles before eventually dropping it. i hope to have it released this summer or in the fall, but there's no definitive date yet.

stylistically, and sonically, this album is going to be more... subdued? if i had to say what genres it is, it's electronica, synthpop and bedroom pop. a little upbeat, but also laidback a lot of the time.

it's a total departure from my previous stuff, which was basically hyperpop and digicore influenced. and i think this will be a natural evolution from that.

i also think it'll be a emotionally heavy album in its topics. nothing shocking or anything, but if anyone has ever experienced loss or grief, either for the passing of a loved one, or the breakup of a loved one, i want it to be relatable in all aspects. i also want to say that there'll always be love in your life, whether it's already there or you eventually find it from the right people in your life.

i want this album to be comforting for listeners, just like it's been comforting for me to make it.

but on a lighter note, a single from the album will be dropping soon! but it's more like a extra if anything, mostly because i don't want to leave you all starving anymore.

so yeah... i know the music is taking a while to get out, but i promise im cooking something good for you all and for myself!

personal thingies

i've been hanging in there. reading, watching, gaming, just coasting through life with the love of my life by my side, as near as i can have him.

thyroids are still a pain. and recently ive gotten sick lately. body aches, mild fevers, fatigue, all that good stuff. i dunno if it's a minor viral thing, or things are just catching up to me.

but im just taking it easy at the moment. fingers crossed i get a bit better!  i would go more into detail about what i've been consuming with media lately, but it's the same 'ol.

so instead, i leave you with a little something i wrote down that keeps my head up.

"Life... sometimes it's like sailing out to sea. Some waves are soft, some are hard. And you'll go through a lot of them.

But eventually, the sea will calm down, and you'll have your moments of serenity. And you'll be ready for when the next storms come. 

All the more better when you have a crew behind your back too."

please take care everyone!!

[theshaiblog]

02/25/2026: funny triangle song

well, i guess it's about that time i wrote a update post huh? it's a little too soon, but i figured i would get it done now and let you all know how i'm doin!

bizarre love triangle

this is the first song of the new year, a cover of a song by new order, one i really love too! i wanted to start working on some new wave-ish kinda stuff this year, and what better way to kick off this era?

it was really fun to work on this cover, in the past my covers which are long gone now always tended to sound pretty off or more harshly, crappy to me. but this one turned out pretty alright, i think. im proud of what i managed to do!

and of course, there's some extensive lore behind this cover involving gumi and gakupo's past, that inspired me to recontextualize the song from probably a basic lost love song to something more. i left some hints, but if im asked then i'll explain ^.^

u can listen to it here!

life stuff

its been going fine. me and my bf finished watching azumanga daioh a little while ago and ive been reading it. just like anything else, it's changed my life a lot, im happy to have experienced something so comfy and nostalgic. and we finished all 6 parts of the original jojo saga, just in time for the adaptation of steel ball run!! i do have my nitpicks about jojo, especially after part 3, but overall i enjoyed it a lot, cant wait for part 7 :>

gonna plan on catching up to one piece soon in time for the volume 111 english drop, then eventually catch up to the end of the god valley flashback before taking a break for a while

but manga and anime stuff aside... still having thyroid issues, but ive been learning to take things a bit slower now since recently i guess things were starting to catch up on me, and i started to feel sick. i think i was working myself too much, getting up and doing stuff as soon as possible

so, im just trying to take care of myself a bit more now. ive also been thinking about a lot of stuff, about how i treat myself and everything. ive been a bit more forgetful lately, i dunno if it's cause of the thyroids or something, but ive been pretty hard with myself about it

then i saw an azumanga panel that hit me really hard

its actually helping me a lot to have the "even if i forget, it's okay" mantra going, my bf is helping me too with being much easier on myself

that's always been a big setback for me, im too hard on myself. im hoping to try and not fix it, but make a effort to help keep myself from carrying so much weight and guilt for the way i am. im gonna be unapologetically me and however i feel, i'll express

anyways, i guess that's about it for me! expect something new next month if me and my bf can manage with schedules, it'll be a original ^.^

[theshaiblog]

the very late new years retrospective!

music to listen to while reading: Gorillaz - Orange County (feat. Bizarrap, Kara Jackson and Anoushka Shankar) hey everyone! i felt obligated to make a new years post, not really a recap but just my general thoughts about 2025 and my feelings moving forward

music things i did

i had finally got the hang of doing digicore/hyperpop beats, so i could do the music ive always wanted to do. say u luv me was the first release and i still like that one a lot, it's so catchy lol and scenegirl is sickeningly catchy too... you know these are good when even i cant forget my own lyrics, usually i do!

and then eventually i released my mini-album, palette. im still very proud of what i did there, it's very cohesive! i still like it a lot

and now... ive been cooking some stuff slowly, but surely. ive been listening to a lot of new order and other 80's synthpop/new wave lately, so that should probably hint on what i wanna try this year... i already got one song finished, a original, and it's a banger!

im cautiously optimistic about how you all will think about it, but as always, i hope for the best.

media consuming i did

i finished dragon ball and dragon ball z, i started watching jojo with my bf, read and watched bocchi the rock for the first time, went full swing into reading one piece, and finished fullmetal alchemist brotherhood for the first time.

all things that i love a lot! it was so nice finally watching and finishing fma for the first time with my bf, that was childhood thing accomplished with someone i love <3 and jojo has been great, i love the characters and creative fights, and the humor as well. i enjoy part 2, part 3 and part 4 the most so far, but even my least favorites have good qualities 

but i think bocchi and one piece have made the biggest impacts on me, they're my comfort anime and manga for different reasons. it'd take a whole thing about what i love and what minor problems i have with one piece alone

i thank my bf a lot for introducing me to one piece, it's amazing :3

i have a lot more stuff i wanna read and watch, but i'll get there when im ready!

games i played

i replayed the castlevania games after so long, and even played ones i hadn't. i fell in love with rondo of blood and symphony of the night. i thought circle of the moon was okay, i wanna continue playing the other metroidvania games soon

i played project mirai, and a lot of future tone. its probably one of my favorite rhythm games ever! i just love vocaloid so much if it wasn't obvious enough

and now... im getting back into a childhood favorite, doom. its aged like a fine wine, some maps are iffy here and there but otherwise? chef's kiss! i'll have to see what i think about the other games now, and even play and beat some i haven't... but im looking forward to it ^.^

life in 2025 and right now

the same ol same ol. my boyfriend makes everything worth it, it's nice having pals too. there was some lows and some highs, bumpy waves here and there. but having someone by your side helping you along the way makes everything feel easier and okay :>

though, i had experienced some loss in december. a family member that, even though i was never particularly close to, had passed away, one of my aunts. i was saddened by it, especially for my dad and my other aunties, and my grandma.

it made me think about mortality, about how we should always live life in the fullest, because one day it can be taken away from us in a snap. it reminded me of all the other loved ones i had lost, close or not.

i think this is influencing my writing a little bit at the moment, so i apologize if my music ends up being a bit more dreary!! i just like writing what's on my mind

but, overall, it was a okay year. that's better than i can say about any other ones ive had

let's hope that 2026 is a better year, not just for me, but for you too! ^o^

[chuwcroissantier]

ANSWER ME GODAMMIT!!!

[theshaiblog]

11/26/2025: palette

hi everyone, it's been a while since the last update on tumblr. lots of crazy stuff happened... well not really, but still!

palette

my debut mini album released! it feels more like a singles collection with maybe 2 new songs, but the flow and order makes up for it i think. when you think about it, albums from rock bands in the 50's and 60's were kinda like singles collections, so that was my headspace when i started gathering this thing up.

around the beginning of this year i finally figured out how to make proper hyperpop music, the most proper i can do since no matter what im gonna have my own sound. that was when "say u luv me" was made, then "scenegirl"... and the rest is history!

a lot of the lyrics come from my own personal experience, and the best experience i can write from is love and gender dysphoria. that's where "chuchu" spawned from, since i have this headcanon that gumi is a trans girl i thought i could project my troubles onto her, hehe. maybe others could relate too and from what i saw, they did, or at least empathized. ^.^

it was at this point that i saw these songs piling up that maybe it'd be cool to do an album or at least a mini album. and thus, palette was born.

im very proud of what i managed to do here. vocaloid and utau has helped me make music where i can actually express my feelings and what words i want to sing, without me having to use my voice which i don't particularly like.

i don't know what the next project will be, but im hoping its more of a full length album, and i definitely wanna try doing some more chill and softer stuff.

the only thing i hope for is for you all to enjoy that when its eventually released ^.^ for now... you can listen to palette right here!

personal life

i already discussed it before but my thyroids is a factor into why music and other things get delayed. it makes me extremely fatigued followed by feeling like my whole insides have been lit on fire so im burning up.

on top of fatigue there's some brain fog and all that too, ive also been a bit more forgetful and stupid cause of that as a result.

im gonna try and look for a primary care doctor soon, so this can be taken care of in some way. it not only gets in the way of what i do for you all, but what i do in my real life too, and it just really sucks a lot! i really hate using this as an excuse but it can get this bad.

there's other things i could discuss here but i don't wanna drop an autobiography on you all.

media stuff 

but besides that, everything has been alright. im almost caught up with one piece, alongside bocchi the rock and i plan on starting dragon ball super and daima soon, and reading some other manga too. i finished fullmetal alchemist: brotherhood with my bf for the first time, and it was about as good as i thought it'd be ^.^

undead unluck, girls' last tour, shimeji simulation and fullmetal alchemist are also things i want to read next, alongside jojo.

on the video games side, ive been dabbling in old school mortal kombat again after so many years. of course the new katamari is super good and probably my favorite one, loved it so much :3 charlie is my favorite of the new cousins love them a lot.

that's a wrap!

and that's about it for a update. i thought i would be using this blog much more but apparently not. i'll try and be more active so i can just yap about whatever i want, hopefully i'll stay on top from now on!

see u all later! take care ^v^

[theshaiblog]

8/27/2025: new track, being a slack

hiii everyone! welcome to the new tumblr blog, i should be able to talk about whatever i wanted here, but the first new post of the day will be a regular old update about what i'm doing and how i'm doing and im doing good! i released a new song called chuchu with gumi a while back. im very proud of how that one turned out, it's one of my biggest original songs at the moment, and everyone seemed to love it a lot! it was meant to be released around pride month, but me and my bf were caught up in a lot of stuff so the release had to be a little delayed. but we still managed to cook. my bf's beautiful art managed to catch almost 3 thousand people's eyes, so as always, it's as good as ever... and my song was able to capture people's hearts as well. it meant a lot to me to see comments that appreciated the words that i had to say and the nostalgic 2010's vibes i tried to capture in the music i wrote chuchu thinking about the times and all the feelings any transfem or transmasc person had, or have. dysmorphia can be something else sometimes, and im no stranger to it as a trans girl but it always helps to have a loved one or even a friend be by your side and always there to validate your feelings and your gender, whether you're doing lovey dovey stuff with your partner like the song says or just hanging out together with a friend im glad to see that chuchu is connecting to people that way, there's nothing more i want than to make people listening to my work feel less alone in how they feel but chuchu is also the start of using gumi in my work, possibly a lot more or even almost exclusively because i think gumi deserves so much more love and appreciation right now. she's amazing! here's the song here, you can check it out if you haven't yet for some reason!:

anyways, the vocacore stuff aside... general update on me! ive been having to deal with a lot of irl problems, particularly with animals and hospitals. i won't go too much into detail, because i don't like talking about personal stuff like this to anyone except people closest to me... so my bf. but it's been a bit of a rough month for me. and then my creative juices have been feeling pretty depleted. i know im supposed to be working on finishing an mini-album right now, but at this rate it definitely isn't gonna be coming out this summer, but i did say "coming soon" huh? but i figure all the stress ive been dealing with, that may be a reason why? but i promise that something will come out eventually! in the mean time i've been reading one piece again, just finished the marineford arc and soon i'll be getting to the post timeskip. me and my bf already finished watching fish-man island for the anime, and i had this thing where i would watch to a certain point with arcs and then go read it... but considering ive been told that dressrosa tends to meander a bit due to oda being sick and it taking a while, i'll be reading through it all. and if anything, probably all the way up to egghead so im all caught up. watching the anime is still a me and my bf only thing for me!! i've also been thinking of starting dragon ball again with super and stuff, so there's that... and of course, im waiting for bocchi to return in october with volume 7, that's a bit of a painful wait. i'll probably start reading jojo and watching part 6 with my bf soon too. and ive been binging castlevania again, still very good! i love silly spooky stuff like that. i need to start up some more games too eventually... but anyways, i think ive rambled a bit too much... this tumblr blogging is perfect for me in that case! hope everyone is having a good day see ya in the next big update post!