Teddie the Soup man

[thesoupmanteddie]

The pink elephant is actively getting worse

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i actually seem to have managed to subconcously change my mood depending on the time of day, thats not good

[thesoupmanteddie]

The pink elephant is actively getting worse

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aside from the fact that im having actual genuine suicidal thoughts now, i guess im doing relativly fine inside the tech void i put myself in cause i got nothing better to do

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i really dont deserve to be loved by others as i am very much a useless husk of a person that cant even properly shed a tear at his own mothers funeral

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my discord alt's bio for info on some things if you are missing context

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i added some more notes

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adding as time goes so yeah

[thesoupmanteddie]

my discord alt's bio for info on some things if you are missing context

[thesoupmanteddie]

i added some more notes

[thesoupmanteddie]

my discord alt's bio for info on some things if you are missing context

[thesoupmanteddie]

Next time your doing manual labor don’t say that you are sweating say that your lubricated

[someoctober]

posting from my hotel's air conditioning control

[someoctober]

I am being so serious

[thesoupmanteddie]

So stressed and anxious to where I started to hallucinate my phone getting notifications last night but there were no notifications

[thesoupmanteddie]

Feeling bored, lonely, and tired and it sucks not being able to tell which one is the more dominant emotion when you are the only one in the house and haven’t had any in person interactions outside of work and hospital visits in like 3 weeks and you can’t take a sleep aid cause every store is closed and the over the counter gummies you bought don’t work on you so you just go in and out of bouts of tiredness till you fall asleep 7 hours after you initially started to feel tired and go to bed

[thesoupmanteddie]

Slutty blockees shockwave cause I said so

[sxbxb8]

Yayyy Lesbian Visibility Week!!

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We broke up, I know that with who I am as a person I’ll never get into a relationship again, not because I’m upset about the break up, but because I never search for anyone to be in a relationship with anyway

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Dude I haven’t properly eaten a meal In like 3 days, my mother was just admitted to the hospital tonight while I was at work and should be discharged in the morning, I haven’t gotten a full nights sleep in like 4 days, I am so not doing ok

[thesoupmanteddie]

Now that I got the negative emotions out I’m now back to craving their touch again(non sexual because I already know that ain’t happening anymore)

[thesoupmanteddie]

Reached the point where writing down why I’m feeling down makes me stop feeling exclusively down but it’s still there stewing in the pot till it boils over again.

Still can’t fucking fall asleep tho