THE TIMES OF NIA

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[thetimesofnia]

It will be okay my love... it will.

[thetimesofnia]

Years later, a spell broke and suddenly it was like she was venturing out in to the world all over again. Time to rediscover yourself all over again.

[thetimesofnia]

Even if it’s hard, you have to try.

[thetimesofnia]

I believe in myself. I work hard. I can do this. 

[thetimesofnia]

kuch logon ki kismat mai, pyaar hona nahi likha hota

aur kuch logon ki kismat mai, pyaar paana nahi hota

[thetimesofnia]

In another lifetime I could probably laugh at this letter and the thought of us ever being together. But in this moment I can’t think of anything but you. I shouldn’t feel this way about you. It doesn’t even make sense. Yet I can’t not think about you. Why do I feel this level of calm with you. Calm to chaos.

We are definitely not meant to be and thats okay. But atleast for tonight, I can think about it. I can breathe in what it would be like. And when morning comes, I will breathe it out. Another forgotten memory. Another lifetime. Another love.

[themoonbase]

Yelena Moskovich, A Door Behind a Door (2021)

[thetimesofnia]

god makes no mistakes 

[thetimesofnia]

watch me create my dream life 

[thetimesofnia]

Some one said to me today that they can’t compare themselves to others or they would be too bitter. I think it’s true. I never thought of it that way. I always forget how hard we worked just to get here. That we didn’t have the beginnings of those around us. That we worked. And even today, we still engage in the push and pull.

How could I be upset at myself? How could I be upset a the child who endured so much pain and heart ache? Who lived with instability and insecurity?

How could i be so mad at her by comparing her to others. When she worked through every miserable heart ache to shine light. And here she is today.

She’s not perfect. But she’s so human.

And young me - she would be proud of me. 

[thetimesofnia]

Everything I’ve ever wanted and more. Someone who reminds me of home. of all the dreams I ever interweaved. Someone who I want to cook a meal for. Dress up for. Lay in bed with days for. Someone who I can trust with my heart. 

Please

Please be mine

[rainreads-deactivated20250201]

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere, they're in each other all along.

-Rumi.

I hopelessly & hopefully believe in this quote with all of my heart.

[thetimesofnia]

The love is still there.

The light is still there.

Just because the road was longer than expected, with some unexpected twists, doesn’t mean that I am not me anymore.

[espresomartini]

listening to the same music i used to listen when i was 14-15 is something else i'm still her i'm nothing like her anymore she knew everything she knew nothing she was so right she was so wrong

[thetimesofnia]

When you realise a relationship has been one sided, your heart breaks and it aches. But it’s better to realise and see things for what they are than what you wanted them to be. 

I thought after all these years, I had learnt my lesson. Each time, I thought I had matured and grown into the woman that could identify things for what they were. Yet, I denied my own needs. Over and over.

Looked at someone and painted them to be the person I always wanted. Without realising that person was me. 

[thetimesofnia]

As I near the age fo 24, I reflect on how difficult it is to love yourself. Like truly believe in yourself. Have tremendous confidence in yourself. 

I sit here and I whisper positive affirmations to myself. I remind myself consciously that I believe in myself. I have faith in myself.

But how do you control the subconscious mind? The side of you that you often feel like you have no control over. Is there any way that I can get that side of me to listen to me to?

I have felt like I have been standing in my own way for a while. Well this is the year it changes. This year I want to be truly and actively in love with me.

In love with my soul and my spirit.

It is the year to be confident. 

I faked it thus far but this year I’m going to make it.

[bestyouuniveristy]

Don’t let the fact that you don’t know what you’re doing stop you from doing anything. We start everything from a place of not knowing- walking, reading, dating, working. And through the doing, we learn. We may not get it right the 1st time, but eventually we know what we’re doing.