Being the eldest with an eating disorder and going out to eat with your family is having your younger sibling complain about the food they wanted and your parents getting mad that they don't want to eat it while you're sitting there trying to stomach another bite knowing that that will turn on you the moment you stop eating so you just have to try and eat more even though you feel like throwing up if you eat another bite but if you don't you will face their wrath and the guilt-tripping and you will do anything to avoid that again
















