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summary: you're wed to ser gwayne hightower in one last desperate attempt to unite the realm; but when the war tears the two of you apart, you're taken prisoner by his cousin, lord ormund hightower, where the line between duty and desire begins to blur. (12k)
contents: targ!reader (no physical descriptions), love triangle, enemies to lovers, angst, hurt/comfort, forbidden love, infidelity, canon divergence, cw for brief mentions of attempted assault and smut 18+ (MDNI): fem receiving oral, unprotected sex, ormund has a scent kink
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i. DUTY & HONOR
Your last name was, perhaps, your greatest burden. It was the very walls of your prison; the unseen chain cinched perpetually around your throat. You had inherited the dragonās blood, it seems, but not the dragonās freedom ā and when Rhaenyraās fleet sailed across the Narrow Sea to wage war over a throne of swords, it forgot to take you with it. The only home youād ever known was soon filled with ghosts donned in Hightower green and whispers of your leaving.
You were going to die here. That is a truth you learned long ago. Your only wish was that theyād hurry up and get it over with.Ā
They gave you a husband instead.
Your marriage to Ser Gwayne Hightower was heralded as an act of wisdom, the proof that wounds carved by old grievances could yet be stitched together, with silk ribbons tied around the wrists and a few spoken vows declared before the Sept. It was to be the very bridge that united the green and black. But the bridge burned anyway, and left the two of you behind.
āThey wed us to prevent a war that had already begun,ā youād scoffed, already deep into your cups at the feasting table, when Maester Orwyle called the fight to come inevitable.
āNoā¦ā Gwayne hummed from beside you, still perfectly temperate, though his blue eyes were heavy with a burden too old for a man of his years. āThey wed us so that, when the histories of this moment are written, someone might say that they tried.ā
Youād laughed then, loud enough to gain the attention of the rest of the courtiers at the long table ā because Ser Gwayne was not entirely wrong, to be sure, but he was far too generous for his own good; generous enough to believe that the effort of your marriage actually meant something in the grand scheme of things.
Gwayne Hightower was a sensible man. He was not outwardly affectionate, maybe, but he was no less kind. There was no great love in your union ā not like all the songs and fairytales insist, at least ā but there was safety. Security. Stability. His presence often found you like the thick walls of an ancient keep, steadfast against the howling winds of a summer storm. You would find no certainty of your future in war, but being Gwayneās wife meant, at the very least, that you were still alive today.
That unsaid assurance is perhaps a greater gift than any truly loving marriage couldāve been for you. And, perhaps, it was with that unsaid assurance that you came to admire him, without ever realizing you were doing so ā always searching for his face in crowds, waiting every night for the familiar sound of his footsteps to walk outside your chamber doors, constantly watching him from a distance (which has become a most embarrassing habit of yours).
You find him now on the western balcony overlooking Blackwater Bay, where the moon climbs high over shimmering midnight waters. The salty breeze mixes with the scent of damp stone and dying fires from the lantern light glittering in the city below. Gwayne stands alone with his forearms propped on the pale stone balustrade, having exchanged his armor for a forest-green doublet embroidered with winding gold vines. The fading torchlights gild his silken auburn hair, stirred loose by the sea breeze.
You linger just beneath the archway, hidden in the place where the torchlight turns to shadow, studying the slope of his strong shoulders and how they rise and fall with each breath. He looks lonely; lonely enough for your chest to tighten with the want to close the distance between you and slip in beside him. But your feet refuse to move. And whatever affection was warming in your chest before pierces through you like a sword.
āYouāre staring.ā The suddenness of his voice startles you.
āā¦Youāre supposed to be watching the sea,ā you respond, half-shy. He doesnāt look back at you when you emerge finally from the shadows; slippers scuffing the cobblestones, black skirts fluttering at your feet.
āI was,ā Gwayne nods.
āThen how could you possibly notice I was standing there?ā
He turns to face you then, as you settle on the balcony just beside him, keeping a few feet of careful distance between you like you always did ā as if, in your union, an invisible line had been wedged between you and could not be crossed.Ā
The corner of his mouth lifts slowly into a crooked smile. āBecause I notice everything about you,ā he answers like itās simple, like he hadnāt just stolen the breath from your lungs.
Heat crawls up the low neckline of your dress, speckling across your cheeks and the very tip of your ears. You turn away, face screwed in a feigned disgust, and busy your hands with an imaginary wrinkle on your sleeve.Ā
āThat,ā you murmur. āIs a terrifying thought.ā
āWell, it ought to terrify you,ā Gwayne quips knowingly, bending softly at the waist to fold his arms along the stone railing. āIāve seen the way you steal the candied slices off of all your lemon cakes just to leave the sponge untouched, you know? Like an utter madwoman.āĀ
āWellā¦ā you huff, face flaring hot at the acknowledgment of being so openly seen by another. āIt seems I made the dreadful mistake of marrying the observant man in the Seven Kingdoms.ā
āAnd here I thought that distinction belonged to my cousin,ā Gwayne jokes lowly, brows raised to his hairline. āI shall write to Lord Ormund at once and relieve him of the title.ā
You laugh quietly through your nose and turn away again. Silence settles comfortably over you once more, filled only by the distant clanging of metal as guards change their shift and the far-off crowing of a caged raven. The night feels impossibly dark, emptier than usual. It feels like an omen of sorts.
āIt grows worse, does it not?ā you wonder aloud through the breath that catches in your chest, as if you were half scared to even ask.
Gwayneās thin smile slowly fades. His adamās apple bobs in his throat. āAye,ā he nods. āI fear it does.ā
āI keep⦠hoping thatā¦ā You swallow around the invisible hand tightening around your throat. āThat theyāll remember I am your wife before they remember whose blood I carry. I feel itās the only reason theyāve yet to take my head.ā
āOf course, they remember,ā he assures you.
āIt feels less and less so these days.ā
āTheyāre only frightenedāā
āIām frightened,ā you remind him.
The admission lingers between you like the salt water scent hanging in the air. Gwayne studies you for a long moment ā he sees the flicker of sincerity flashing across your face right before you turn away from him again, and the way your jaw clenches a second later in regret of saying the words aloud.Ā
He leans an elbow along the parapet to face you fully. And, as if to soothe you, he asks, āIf there were no war⦠No thrones, no dragonsāā
āNo Hightowers?ā you add.
āāIf the Stranger himself appeared before you now and offered you another life,ā the auburn-haired man continues with a hint of a smile gracing his lips. āWhat would you do?ā
You ponder the question for a moment, eyes zeroed on the navy black horizon ahead as your fingers fidget on the stony barricade. āI should like a farm,ā you answer, mouth twitching into an absentminded grin. āSomewhere far away from here. So I could raise chickensāā
āChickens?ā he scoffs a dry laugh, then softens a second later at the sincere look you give him. He swallows hard and nods supportively. āMost ladies wouldāve said children, is allā¦ā
āWell, I am not most ladiesā¦ā you tell him. āI would have a field of apple trees, and a hundred dogs to protect all my chickens and horses and fluffy cowsā you know, the ones that live down in the Reach?ā
āWellā¦ā Gwayne croons. āYouāve certainly thought about this, havenāt you?ā
āEvery day,ā you confess. The honesty in your answer strikes him down like a blade; the sorrowful look that heavies your face even more so. The reality of your situation returns to you then, settling over you like gravityās inevitable weight. You swallow hard before you confess, āI fear theyāll kill me if matters grow worse at Dragonstone.ā
āThey wonāt.ā
āYou cannot know that.ā
āI do,ā Gwayne assures you and takes a slow step closer, until the inherent warmth of his skin dulls the bite of the bitter sea wind. He ducks his chin to his chest to chase your gaze, peering down at you with glittering blue eyes. āI swore a vow before gods and men, did I not?ā
āSo do most menāā
āWell, I am not most men,ā he lilts with an air of amusement hanging on the edge of his words. āI actually meant my vows.ā
Your eyes soften as they search his face, looking for any hint of hesitation or doubt in his handsome features. You find no uncertainty there; just the maddening, immovable confidence that seems to be stitched into the very fiber of his making.
āIf this castle should fall tomorrowā¦ā you whisper to him, eyes narrowing in skepticism. āOr if your family decides that I have become too great a burden to keep here⦠What happens then?ā
āThen I shall stand in the doorway,ā he shrugs.
A shocked laugh sputters from your mouth at his boyish conviction. āAnd if they mean to come through it?ā
āThenā¦ā His lips jut softly. āThey shall first have to make a corpse of me.ā
āYou are a valiant knight, Ser Gwayne, but you cannot fight an entire army.ā
āPerhaps not,ā he replies with a sad sort of smile. āBut armies are made of men. And every man who wishes to reach you will first have to face me... As I said⦠I meant my vows.ā
Something in his words strikes a deep sadness within you. No one had ever spoken of your being like it possessed any value worth defending, and now the words come from the very family you were meant to despise.
But even still, for the first time since the ravens brought the tidings of war and the dragons took wing against dragon, you believed him. You believed that, should the whole realm come crashing down around you, Ser Gwayne would likely be the only one left standing at your side when the last stone fell.
And, gods, how stupid you were to do so.
ii. OATHS & ASHES
The news of your husbandās leaving came not from your husband himself.Ā
It came, rather, in whispers at court, slithering through the Red Keep like snakes beneath rushes ā passing from Gold Cloak to stable boy to serving girl to scullion. āThey say Ser Criston and his knights are marching for Harrenhal on the morrow,ā says a thick-accented handmaiden. āLord Hand means to smoke Daemon from the castle. Itāll be Prince Aemondās before the next moon, no doubt.ā
Your stomach dropped so harshly at the whispers that you nearly retched upon the marble. It was not Gwayneās leaving that frightened you so, but rather what his absence would represent ā he might as well throw you to the hounds himself before he goes, because you were as good as dead with him gone.
Your slippers strike the ancient stone in a frantic rhythm as you turn on your heel to storm back the way you came. The harsh echo of the soles catches the attention of surrounding servants, who flatten themselves against the walls as you hurry suddenly past. Your heartbeat pounds like thunder in your ears, far louder than the bells of the Great Sept that toll the evening hour ā the combination of both feels like an ominous funeral knell.
You rush up the winding stone staircase with your crimson skirts gathering in your fists. Gwayneās chambers sit directly opposite yours, and you find the heavy wooden door is cracked ajar. The hinges screechbeneath your palm when you shove it the rest of the way open without warning. The sight you find on the other side hollows you from the inside out ā a travel satchel, laid open along the emerald sheets. Inside, a whetstone, riding gloves, a leather-bound prayer book, a sword belt, a flask.Ā
The careful order of it all feels almost cruel. Chaos, at the very least, would suggest some air of hesitation from the man; a faint pause at leaving you behind. This, however, feels far too final.
Gwayne stands at the head of the bed with his back facing you. His pale hands work with a quiet precision to roll a Hightower-green cloak into his bag. He did not need to turn at the sudden intrusion. He learned the sound of your footsteps long ago.
āI wondered how long it might take,ā the man croons distantly. The calmness of his voice, the indifference, sets you entirely aflame.
āWhy would you not tell me?ā you bite in response.
Gwayne glances over his shoulder at you then. The flickering candlelight turns his hair a more golden shade of Hightower-red, and carves the soft edges of his face out in shadow. He was still every inch the striking knight that the whispers purported him to be ā broad as an oak tree, handsome as a saint carved into an altar ā but thereās a foreign weariness etched into his features now. It darkens the skin beneath his eyes, turns his gaze a duller shade of icy blue.
āWell, I was going to, of course.ā
āWhen?ā The sharpness in your voice could draw blood.Ā
āā¦Tomorrow.ā
āTomorrow?ā Your laugh splinters the otherwise silent room, sharper than broken glass. You shut the door behind you with an aggressive hand and close the distance between you, dress skirts billowing wildly at your ankles. āWhen you ride at dawn? And you meant to tell me when your horses were already saddled?ā
āYes,ā Gwayne sighs, lowering the folded doublet into its place. āI thought I might spare you one nightās griefāā
āYouāre abandoning me,ā you tell him then, as if to translate the manās words back to himself. You linger at his side, eyes darting wildly over his profile when he fails to meet your gaze. āJust like all the rest of them. You do realize that, right?ā
āThe king has given ordersāā
āWell, it wasnāt the king who stood beside me at Blackwater Bay not even a week ago, was it?ā Your voice lowers into a faux-masculine tone, trying and failing to mock him. āIf anyone comes for you, I shall stand in the doorwayāā
Gwayne scoffs. āSurely, I do not sound like that.ā
āāThey shall first have to make a corpse of me.ā
āYes⦠I remember,ā he answers through a slow huff of annoyance, stepping back from his travel bag to drag a pair of weary hands down his face. āI wasā well into my cups by then, as you well knowāā
āOh, do not cheapen those words now,ā you spit, shoving hard at his shoulder. Gwayneās features twist in offense as his wide eyes glance down at the hand youād pushed him with, though he doesnāt move an inch. āDonāt dishonor yourself with a cowardās excuse just to make up for the fact that you lied.ā
Gwayneās composure fractures at that. He had spent too much of his life trying to be a good knight, a good man ā one that maybe his callous father could be proud of ā so he refuses to stomach accusations of otherwise from you.Ā
His icy blue eyes harden into a glacial sort of look, more hurt than truly angry. He lays his cloak into place to face you fully.
āDo you not see that I am leaving to keep the fight from coming here?ā
āDo not you see that by leaving me here that Iām as good as dead?ā you retort through a jaw clenched tight. āIf you do not take me with you, thenāā
āOf course Iām not taking you with me!ā he scoffs with a crooked smile, like itās funny to him. āYouād be dead before we made it to the Godās Eyeāā
āAnd I will be dead before this war is won if you leave!ā you shout, voice wet and fragile with the unshed tears burning the backs of your eyes. āThe fight is already here! The people who wish me dead are in these walls! They pour my wine, they wash my hair, they cook my food, they bow when I walk by and whisper when my back is turned! And if you arenāt here, thenā¦āĀ
You trail off with a ragged breath. Your corset feels suddenly tight against your ribs. You choke back the sob that strangles your throat and blink rapidly to clear the haze of tears blurring at your waterline. You peer up at the man with the sternest gaze you can muster.
āI am⦠frightened,ā you tell him, though your voice cracks into a fragile whisper halfway through.
The anger disappears from Gwayneās face as quickly as it arrived. His shoulders deflate with a slow huff through his nose as he takes a slow step towards you. His hands release their clenched fists to reach hesitantly for your face. His palms are warm and softly calloused when they cup your cheeks, caressing you with a tenderness he hasnāt shown since your bedding ceremony six or more moons ago.
The quiet half-smile he gives you, then, is weighed down by a palpable sadness.
āTo tell you the truth⦠I have never been more afraid than I am right now,ā he confesses in a low murmur, swiping his thumb over the warm apple of your cheek. The softness in his voice threatens to undo you entirely.Ā
āSo then donāt go,ā you plead in a small voice, grasping at the front of his emerald doublet until the golden vines wrinkle under your grip. āPlease.ā
āIf Harrenhal remains in Rhaenyraās hold, and if Daemon rallies the Riverland armies, then the war will come here,ā Gwayne continues in a painfully steady voice. āI fear I donāt have a choice in the matter.ā
āEveryone has a choice,ā you tell him, filled with a girlish sort of rage once more. āBut, I suppose youāve already made yours.ā
The man meets your scowl with a tired, slightly heartbroken smile. āPlease do not make me spend my last night with my wife quarreling with her,ā Gwayne jokes quietly, swiping an eyelash from your cheek with the pad of his thumb. āAt least leave me with something to hold onto until my return.ā
Your tight chest deflates with a slow sigh from your nose. The rage ebbs evenly into grief. āAnd what shall I have, hm? Considering tonight is very likely my last one alive and allā¦ā
Gwayne laughs. āYou are being⦠catastrophically dramatic.ā
Your chest burns with a mixture of rage and desire. He could never possibly understand you, but somehow, he is the only one with the walls of the Keep who ever has. The contrast is dizzying.
āI hate you,ā you hear yourself say.
āPerhaps...ā Gwayne hums, warm breath fanning across your cheek. āBut not nearly as much as you love me.ā
Your first instinct is to strike him for the sarcasm in his words; your second is to weep at the truth of them. He kisses you before you can do either.
He ducks down to press his lips to yours in a tender kiss, a mere brushing of your lips. The last time he had done so was beneath the glowing candles of the Sept, following the declaration of your wedding vows. But that was an obligation, a political victory of sorts.
This kiss is far sweeter in comparison. You feel the man heavying against you as he falls deeper into your touch. He opens your mouth with his and flicks the pad of his tongue against yours, like velvet brushing velvet. Your hands tremble as they leave the chest of his doublet to rake through his auburn locks, like silk between your fingers. You sigh against his open mouth at the taste of him ā like wine and mint and oranges ā sweet enough to get drunk on.
It takes you a long moment to realize his hands have snaked around your waist accordingly. You donāt realize his deft fingers are loosening the tie in your corset until the discomfort in your ribs disappears entirely. Your body acts before your mind, and your arms slither from their sleeves to curl once more around Gwayneās broad shoulders.
The man folds the top of your dress down until your bare chest is revealed to him. A grumbled moan sounds in the back of his throat as he pulls you back into him with two wide palms along your bare back, pressing your breasts flush against his chest. He thinks, if he concentrated hard enough, he could feel the steady thundering of your heart like this.
āGwayneāā you whisper against his mouth when you feel something hardening against your hip. Your hands drop from his hair to slide between your bodies, headed for the tie in his trousers to release the stiffness growing there.Ā
He twists you round in the meanwhile, shoes scuffing the cobbles, until the bend of your knees meets the edge of the mattress behind you. He lays you down without once taking his mouth off of yours, with one wide palm splayed along your ribcage and his other cradling the back of your neck.
He pulls off of you with a quiet smack to catch his breath. A small whimper sounds in the back of your throat when his warm body leaves yours, rising to reach down for your skirts. Your bare chest heaves as you sit up on your elbows to watch him fumble with your dress. āGods above, how many skirts are you wearing?ā you hear him complain under his breath. āIāve faced hedge knights with fewer defenses than this.ā
You giggle when he finally pushes the layers of your dress up to your hips. Your thighs spread on instinct, exposing yourself to him. Gwayneās mouth waters at the sight of your silken folds, already glittering in anticipation. Your chest tightens when he falls to his knees before you.Ā
āWhat are you doing?ā you ask on bated breath.
Gwayne flashes you a love-drunk grin and a pair of glassy blue eyes. His warm palms smooth along the velvety skin of your inner thighs to spread them further. āCall it a knightās act of service, shall we?ā he quips.
His auburn head disappears beneath your bunched-up skirts a second later. Your face twists momentarily in confusion before you feel his tongue slotting in the silk folds of your cunt. He licks a fat stripe up the length of it, until his tongue finds something that makes your hips twitch despite yourself. His mouth closes around the sensitive button, suckling at it with a grumbled moan in the back of his throat.
Your head tips back at the feeling. Your lips part as if to moan, but the electric shock in the pit of your stomach knocks all the available air from your lungs. You feel him laughing against you when your thighs clench suddenly around his head, tighter than you realize.
Gwayne pulls off of you with a quick smacking sound. He wears your slick down to his chin as he flashes you a teasing, glassy-eyed look. āIād quite like to keep my head, dear wifeāā
You say nothing in response to his quip. You just dart a head to the crown of his skull and shove his face back between your thighs.
Ā Gwayne complies without complaint, lapping at the honey you leak for him, until the wet sounds of his mouth fill the quiet chambers. You rock your hips against his face, bracing yourself with the auburn locks you clench in your fist.
His nose nudges the swollen bud that makes you keen, right before he takes it in his mouth again. Your skin buzzes at the foreign feeling.
āGwayneāā you gasp. A tight feeling settles deep in your stomach, like a fraying knot about to snap. Your back arches off the mattress. Your hand tightens in his hair. Your features screw in a pain look, half-scared at the pleasure welling within you. āI canātāā
āMmā¦ā he just keeps moaning against you, letting the vibrations deepen your pleasure. His wide hands smooth up and down your outer thighs when they tremble on either side of his head, clenching around him as your orgasm hits you with a pleasured whine. He laps up every ounce of honey you leak for him, and sighs hard through his nose at the salty-sweet taste of you.
Only when your legs grow finally lax around his jaw does he pull back from your thighs. A smile curls lazily at his rosier, more swollen mouth. The bottom half of his face glitters in the candlelight with a mixture of saliva and cum ā you lift your head in time to watch him wipe his mouth with the back of his hand.
āIf this truly is my final night aliveā¦ā you say through panted breaths, eyes still wide from the shock of your simmering pleasure. āI feel I could finally die a happy woman.ā
āIām glad I could be of service, princessā¦ā Gwayne smiles lazily, grimacing slightly at the ache in his knees as he rises from the unforgiving cobbles. He leans down to lay his warmth back over you. You stop him with a firm hand on his chest.
āI want to be on top this time,ā you confess in a breathless whisper, eyes darting back and forth between his.
Gwayneās brows raise slowly in shock at your sudden display of dominance. The corner of his lip twitches into a smile the same way his cock twitches in his boxers. He nods until the words catch up to him. āAs you wishā¦ā
iii. CROWNS & CAGES
You did not weep when they came for you, scarcely a fortnight after your lord husbandās leaving.
Gwayne was gone by first light, perhaps already a league or more away before you stirred awake that morning to the chill of an empty bed. He parted with nothing but a folded scrap of parchment resting where his head had been the night before. In his scrawled handwriting, half-smudged from where his wrist had dragged the ink in haste, he wrote: āWrite to me. Donāt die. Iāll build the form for you myself.ā
You keep the note tucked safely inside the chest of your corset now, folded so many times that the edges have already begun to soften. You keep it close to your heart like a holy relic, or perhaps, a threat to whatever unlucky son of a bitch kills you first ā something to discover on your corpse after they slit your throat, so theyāll know who to answer to upon your husbandās return.
Eventually, the servants ceased asking whether you needed anything, and all your meals came cold. Conversations ceased the moment you entered a room, and doors slammed shut before you could reach them. And then, when word spread that a wild dragon had taken wing not far from here, all eyes of suspicion turned to you ā to whom a dragon had never belonged, though the blood in your veins wearied the courtiers all the same. Rhaenyra had already added three new riders to her fleet; she certainly did not need another.
You were no longer a bride, but a prisoner in pretty gowns ā it was the Queen Dowager, and your sister by law, who confirmed as much to you.
āI had hopedā¦ā Alicent started slowly, bathed half in sunshine and half in shadow from where she stood before the window in your quarters, watching the distant storm clouds blow in over Blackwater. āThat I might never have to ask this of you.ā
Her auburn curls swept over her pale shoulder when she turned to face you. Something heavy sat in her round green eyes, as if she wanted you to finish the rest of it for her. But you remained as stoic and silent as ever from where you sat at the small dining table just across from her. Your hands wrung into knots over your skirts, hidden beneath the surface, as you waited for the words of your fate to fall from her lips.
āThe council believes thatā Should the opportunity present itself, you would attempt to reach the wild beast. The Cannibal, I believe itās called,ā Alicent said. āAnd through him, Rhaenyra.ā
āSoā¦ā You sighed, making no attempt to argue the subject. It did not matter whether or not it was true; the possibility was enough to make you a criminal. āThe Black Cells, then?ā
āNo,ā Alicent shook her head, half-offended by the suggestion. āOf course not. My cousin, Lord Ormund, he commands the Hightower host. He has agreed to keep you under his⦠protection for the time being.ā
āProtection?ā you echoed through a scoff. The word tasted foreign and bitter in your mouth. āWhat a pleasant name for captivity.ā
Alicentās face flickered with a motherās sort of sympathy. Her hands wrang together beneath the draping sleeves of her emerald dress.āYou will be treated with every courtesy your station deserves, I assure you.ā
āIf your council means to bargain with me, Your Graceā¦ā you started with a sad smile. āThey mistake me for something worth bartering for. Rhaenyra already abandoned eā keeping me hostage will not make her respond to your offered terms.ā
āEven still⦠You would be far safer there than you would be here, whether or not you believe thatās true,ā Alicent said. āI know what my brother would wish of me. And Gwayne would never forgive me if I didnāt do everything I could to keep you safe.ā
The long journey south smells of wet earth and horse dung. By the time you reach the Hightower encampment ā which sprawls across the rolling fields like a second city ā your fine silk gown has long surrendered to the dust of the road, and your hands now bear the tenderness of a week spent in the saddle.Ā
Your broad-shouldered escort guides you through the avenue of canvas tents billowing wildly beneath snapping green banners. The air smells of woodsmoke, cooked venison, and salty sweat ā the soft breeze carries with it the sound of laughter, barking hounds, clanking chainmail, and shouted commands.
A pair of guards draw back the heavy canvas of the biggest pavilion in the camp. āMy lord,ā one says to announce your arrival inside, right before the entrance flap closes heavily behind you.
Inside, candles burn despite the lingering daylight, filling the enclosed tent with the smell of beeswax and parchment from the large map covering the long oak table. Pieces carved from ivory and oak mark castles and armies across the whole of Westeros, waiting to be won or maybe burned.Ā
A strange man stands over them with his broad hands planted along the edge, visibly built beneath his ornately decorated armor, and standing several inches taller than the rest of the knights in the room.
Lord Ormund was not pretty like Gwayne, but he was his own kind of handsome, made of sharp edges and strong features. His Hightower-auburn curls are less vivid in color and sheared short. He has his familyās pair of striking blue eyes, too, which feel a little like theyāre piercing you when he glances up from his map.Ā
āLeave us,ā he commands his guards in a low, melodic voice, keeping his eyes on you as his knights filter out of the tent. Their armor clatters faintly as they go. The man doesnāt say another word until theyāre gone.Ā
āSoā¦ā he hums, one corner of his mouth lifting upwards. āThe infamous dragon bride.ā
Your brows bounce at the title. It feels like another chain around your neck. āI suppose Iāve been called worseā¦ā you sigh, studying him with the same curiosity. āYou must be Lord Ormund.ā
āI must,ā the man nods as he rounds the war table at an unhurried pace.Ā
His boots sink into the woven rungs laid across the hard earth with each step. He towers several inches over your head when he plants himself in front of you. He smells of steel and sweat and strongly of incense.
āI expected someone⦠older.ā
His brows raise in amusement. āAnd here I expected someone taller.ā
āWell,ā you deadpan, eyes narrowing up at him as your hands clasp behind your back. āIām sorry for disappointing you, Ser.ā
āOh, Iāve endured far worse disappointments, my lady, I assure you.ā A ghost of a smile graces his pink lips as his eyes soften slightly around the edges. āI give you my word. While you remain beneath my banners, no harm will come to you.ā
You sigh hard through your nose. āYes⦠People keep promising me that.ā
āIām sure they have⦠But I intend to honor it.ā The certainty of the manās words unsettles you. Itās strange, you find, to be looked at like you were something worth protecting. āAnd if you require anythingā anything at all. You need only ask.ā
You nod slowly with a deep exhale, considering the offer. āA quill,ā you conclude firmly.
Ormund blinks. āA⦠A quill?ā
āYes,ā you say. āAnd parchment.ā
āFor⦠What purpose?ā he laughs.
You glance over your shoulder towards the tentās fluttering entrance, where the last light of the early evening burns gold against a sea of green banners. You wonder, briefly, how many soldiers outside this pavilion would celebrate if they found you dead on the morrow ā how many would mourn, how many would care enough to do anything at all.Ā
You think, perhaps, that in the whole of the Seven Kingdoms, there is only one person who would weep for you. And he was a hundred leagues away.
āSo that I may write to my lord husband,ā you answer finally. āAnd tell him that I was right⦠And that he still owes me a farm.ā
Lord Ormund allows you to write to Gwayne that night, and every seventh day after. It was the only thing you could look forward to, since there was little else to do at camp. He had been gracious enough to give you your own pavilion at the edge of the command encampment, close enough for the sentries to watch but far enough away to force you into solitude.Ā
It was clean and moderately comfortable ā with a narrow cot draped in a single wool blanket, a traveling chest for the few dresses you were allowed to bring, a wash basin, and a small writing table tucked beneath the only slit in the canvas that permitted daylight. Inside smelled of candle wax, pressed linen, and lavender soap.
Outside smelled of war ā of pressed metal from the blacksmiths, of men cursing over burnt porridge, of stableboys tending to horses who fouled the earth faster than they could shovel it. It was cruel, how the world went on while you could go scarcely a step without an escort. Eventually, you became accustomed to feeling a hundred eyes upon your back ā most curious, others suspicious, some outright hateful.
The letters you wrote to Gwayne, at least, gave you the illusion of escape. You tended to each with careful precision ā melting the wax, stamping it shut, then tying it off with a ribbon ā and watched from afar as one of Ormundās knights carried them toward the rookery. It was not until the twentieth day at camp, when you wandered further than you were typically allowed, that you noticed that none of your messages had been sent. You watched the knight toss the letter into the fire, flinching slightly when the flames sparked beneath the fresh kindling.
It had been four days since then.Ā
And you havenāt eaten once in protest.
It took roughly half that time for Lord Ormundās patience to run thin. Heās suffered the endless whispers of your attempts to starve to death with an increasing displeasure. He commands thousands of knights beneath his banners, serves as the leader of his house with grace, and yet ā he still cannot seem to manage to command one lady to supper. It was absurd. Humiliating. And worse, it invited doubt. What army will follow a man whom they believe incapable of governing his own household?
On the fifth evening, after your breakfast tray went untouched that morning, Ormund opts to bring you your supper himself. He marches through the crowded camp with his jaw clenched tight like a soldier headed into battle. His chainmail clanks with every step. Avoiding the stares he gets from surrounding knights feels borderline impossible.
He throws open the entrance of your tent without ceremony. The canvas snaps sharply beneath his aggressive hand as he ducks suddenly underneath it.Ā The light of the golden evening pours suddenly inside around his towering silhouette before the flap falls shut behind him once more, trapping the two of you inside.
There, he finds you lying on your cot, staring upward at the slit in the pavilion where one lonely shaft of sunlight spills through. Your fingers drift lazily through the rays, as if you were trying to catch it somehow.Ā
Your head snaps suddenly to the side at the sudden intrusion ā your hair is loose and unkempt, because no one ever taught you how to do it yourself, and all of your dresses are now wrinkled and stained with dirt. The thin white nightgown you wear makes you look more sunken, more lifeless.Ā
Ormund grasps your tray with one hand and reaches for your small writing desk with the other. He lectures you through the distant pang of sympathy in his chest.
āI have commanded men twice your sizeāā His boots are heavy on the thin rug as he carries the desk over to you. āI have started sieges, I have broken sieges. And yetāā He slams the table in front of you with a dull thump. You try not to cower under the icy blue glare he gives you. āI cannot seem to persuade one prisonerā a lady, no lessā to eat her supper. And I confess, it does very little for confidence in my command. So eat.ā
Ormund slams the tray onto the desk. The broth steaming in a small wooden bowl sloshes over. Next to it, strips of leftover venison and a broken loaf of stale bread. Your empty stomach twists painfully with a mixture of nausea and hunger.
āSoā¦ā you start lowly, clearing your throat when your voice comes gravelly. You rise from your supine position on weak limbs. The fabric of your nightgown rides up your thighs as you turn to place your bare feet on the ground ā eyes dull when you peer up at the man from beneath your lashes. āYou admit it, then? That I am your prisoner here?ā
His jaw clenches tight. His nostrils flare through a sharp breath. He no longer finds amusement in your banter. āYour status here depends entirely on your pliancy,ā he spits, ripping off a piece of the stale loaf. āNow eat.ā
You flinch when his fist rears suddenly towards your face, holding the broken bread just in front of your mouth. You blink wildly up at him, features screwed in offense. āā¦Excuse me?ā
āEat.ā
You swat his hand away; it moves scarcely an inch. āIām not a childāā
āWell, at present, you are behaving remarkably like one,ā Ormund argues through a tight jaw. āNow open your mouth.ā
You respond with only a glare.
Fury rages through the manās chest. He wishes wordlessly for the strength of the Mother and the Warrior engraved upon his armor as he offers bitterly, āOr shall I make you?ā
You spend a long moment staring up at him with eyes cold enough to freeze wine. You hold his gaze as your mouth parts slowly to accept the chunk of bread he pinches between his thumb and forefinger. He places it upon your tongue with a surprising gentleness, considering the wrath heād had moments ago.
āChew,ā he commands, glaring down the bridge of his nose at you. Your jaw moves slowly. Ormund nods in approval. āSwallow.āĀ
Your heart lurches into your throat at his order. But you do as youāre told, throat bobbing as the piece of bread goes down. Another piece follows soon after; this time, your lips part before he asks you to do so. Relief crosses over his strong features as he places the food onto your tongue. His shoulders sag with the exhaled breath that it feels like heās been holding for days.
He looks almost worried for you; relieved, almost, to have fed you. A warm, foreign feeling settles in your chest accordingly.
āI am trying⦠Very hard to be kind to you,ā Ormund confesses, scarred hands twitching at his sides.Ā āSo I cannot, for the life of me, understand why you insist on making this so difficult.ā
āMy letters,ā you tell him. āWhy arenāt they being sent?ā
āThe rookery master feared they could be intercepted,ā he answers plainly. āI could not risk one falling into enemy hands. I⦠meant to tell you.ā
āWhen?ā you spit.
āWhen I found a safer way to deliver them.ā
A bitter laugh sputters from your mouth. āWhat curious men you Hightowers are,ā you quip with narrowed eyes. āSo fond of deciding what sorrows I ought to be spared.ā
His brows lower in confusion. āIs that not a kindness?āĀ
His answer lingers between you for several long moments. There was no cleverness in his words, only an honesty that strikes you like a fist to the stomach.
āAye. I suppose it is,ā you answer, clearing your throat when your voice catches.Ā
A strange emotion strangles you, and burns at the back of your eyes as you look down at your dress. Your dull nails pick at a smudge of mud on the fabric that will likely never come off. An embarrassed sort of laugh tumbles from your mouth.Ā
āPerhaps I⦠I spent so long waiting for someone to hurt me that I no longer remember what kindness is supposed to feel like.ā
Ormund nods through a slow exhale from his nose. He glances to the side and walks the short distance to the stool that the table had knocked over in his rage. Your wet eyes follow his form as he walks away and then back to you, setting the chair on the other side of the table. You can feel the warmth radiating from his body, even in the scarce distance between you.
āIāll admitā A man spends enough time at war, they start to forget that mornings are not meant to begin with fear,ā he says, reaching again for the loaf of bread, but this time breaking it in half. āI forget myself, at times, but⦠if youāll allow me⦠Iād very much like to prove to you that I can be kind.ā
Your weary features soften around the edges. āWell, I donāt have much of a choice in the matter, do I?ā you tell him, with a more sincere smile hinting at the corners of your lips. āI am your prisoner, after all.ā
āSo you keep insisting,ā Ormund quips with his own quiet grin. āBut I should rather you thought of yourself as my⦠responsibility.ā
Your heart stumbles a beat. Responsibility felt much safer than hostage, or bargaining piece, or burden. It felt, youāll admit, like a kindness.
iv. SILK & SWORDS
You fall into a steady routine at the Hightower encampment by the fifth moon of your captivity.
Each morning arrives with the same mournful groan of a warhorn that rolls across the grass green hills before the sun has even broken the horizon. You wake to the distant ringing of hammers against anvils, hounds barking for gristles off the cookfires, and knights shouting for their squires. The first hours were reserved for armorers; the afternoons for drilling knights whose swords cracked together until you could feel them ringing in your skull; and the evenings for songs, laughter, and ale.
Your days, however, remained painfully empty.
Lord Ormund had been kind enough to provide you with greater comforts as the weeks went by ā cushioned pillows and heavier woolen blankets for when the nights got colder; sprigs of lavender for your bedside to keep out the stench of man; more parchment and colored ink to busy your hands when the days were especially long. And all of them were especially long. Heād given you his leather-bound prayer book, too, and even though you were not an entirely pious woman, youād read through it enough times to recite each passage from memory.
The camp has since grown accustomed to your being there, ever since Ormund slackened his metaphorical leash on you ā āYouāve had more than ample opportunity to run,ā heād said beneath the scratching of his quill. āBesides, where exactly would you go? No one else would take you.ā No one bats an eye when you leave your tent, after three days of relentless rain had finally broken, to pick fresh berries from the brushes along the treeline.
Your crimson silk dress scrubs the dewy evening grass as you collect wild raspberries into a small wooden bowl. The juices stain your fingertips the color of red wine. The sweet scent mixes with the smell of wet earth and mint leaves crushed beneath your slippers. You bend at the waist to parse through tangled brambles, searching for the ripest berries. For the first time in months ā years, maybe ā you feel almost peaceful.
āIs that a love letterā?ā
The voice cuts through the quiet like a blade. Your heart lurches into your throat as you jerk to full height again. The small bowl of berries slips from your grasp and rolls through the wet clover like so many drops of scattered blood. Behind you, you find a vaguely familiar hedgeknight, scarcely ten paces away ā made of broad shoulders, broken teeth, and greasy hair that falls to his shoulders.
It takes you an embarrassingly long moment to catch your breath.
āIām sorry,ā you say through a tightening chest. āYou⦠You startled me.ā
āDid I?ā he hums gruffly, in a voice that borders on amusement.
You cower into the hedgerow behind you as he approaches you, reaching you quickly on much longer limbs. He looms close enough for you to smell the sweat and ale and horse piss on his chainmail, close enough for you to lift your chin to meet his gaze.
His eyes never quite reach yours. They linger, instead, on your chest. āLetter from your lord husband, is it?ā he asks, motioning with his head.
Your chin ducks to follow his eyes, where the rough edges of parchment nestled against your chest peek out from your corset. Your hands lift to cover it instinctively. āYes. Itās a⦠a letter. From home.ā
āMind if I take a look at it?ā he asks, taking another daring step closer. You wince at the sour smell of him. āWhat does Ser Gwayne write his pretty wife, hm?ā
āPlease, donātāā
His hand shoots out. Thick, filthy fingers hook beneath the neckline of your gown, hard enough to stretch the fine silk with an audible crack. You react on pure instinct accordingly, lifting your own hand to strike him before your mind could forbid it.
The sound of your palm colliding with his bearded jaw cracks through the hedgerow like a whip.
His head turns slightly under the blow.
Your breath catches in surprise at yourself.
The back of his hand catches you across the cheek before you can blink. A red-hot pain explodes from your ear to your jaw as your world lurches suddenly sideways. You hit the unforgiving earth below with a huff when the air rushes from your lungs. Coppery blood pools thick on your tongue from where your teeth had cut the inside of your cheek.
āYou little cuntāā you hear the man say, right before he catches a fistful of your skirts to pull you back towards him. The fabric screams beneath his hand. The cool evening air strikes your legs all at once when the silk rips up to your thighs.
You kick wildly at the man. Your slipper strikes uselessly against his shoulder. Your fingernails claw muddy furrows through the soaked earth.
āI amā Gwayne Hightowerās wifeāā You tell him through panted, fearful breaths. He flips you onto your back by your ankle. Your foot burns beneath his grip. Your head strikes the soaked earth. Through the lack of air in your lungs, you heave, āHe will have your head for thisāā
āOh, will he?ā the hedge knight laughs with a brown-tooth grin. āāCause he aināt hereāā
The hand not holding your squirming ankle reaches for the tie in his trousers.
Then, in a blink, steel sings with a clean rasping sound. Warm blood splashes from your right jaw up to your left temple. For a flicker of a moment, you canāt quite comprehend why ā not until the hedge knight kneels suddenly before you, with open eyes that have gone strangely distant. He topples suddenly sideways with his neck bent at an awkward angle, head half cut off and spouting bright red blood.
You blink wildly through the haze of death until you find Ormund standing just behind the corpse, chest rising and falling beneath his heavy armor. His longsword drips crimson onto the grass where your raspberries lie.
Sweat from the long day clings to his dark curls, wetting them against his temples and forehead. Flecks of blood dot his jaw like crimson stars. His blue eyes burn with something fierce, but his voice remains remarkably soft.
āMy ladyā¦ā
You open your mouth to answer him, but nothing comes out.
Only then do you notice how violently your body is shaking, buzzing with a white-hot fear, as you scan the scene surrounding you ā your torn skirts, the blood staining your chest, the dead body at your feet. You stare at the hedge knightās gushing throat without fully understanding the sight of it.
Ormund reaches you in three long strides. He sheaths his sword without a word before dropping carefully to one knee. He slides one arm under your leg and his other behind your back, hoisting you upward with a pair of strong arms. The scent of blood and earth gives way to the smell of leather, incense, and bathing oils as he cradles you to the broad wall of his chest.
Your trembling hands clench a fistful of the green velvet cape draped along his shoulder.
āYouāre safe, my lady,ā Ormund murmurs as he carries you back to camp. āYouāre safe.ā
Your face finds the hollow space between his jaw and collarbone. Youāre not entirely sure if you believe the words he speaks, but you know now that you do believe in the man who speaks them.
v. SANCTUARY & SIN
The weeks that followed could be divided into two ā the days before the attack and all the days after.
For a time, you startled far too easily. A dropped shield sent you into a panic. A knight laughing too loudly made your pulse skyrocket. And if a pair of bootsteps walked too closely behind you, you lost all your breath before your mind had time to remind your body that no one meant you any harm.Ā
Nights proved harder still. You dreamt of nothing but rough hands and torn silk and crushed berries that smelled so sweet the thought alone made you sick. One moment you were suffocating beneath the sweaty body of a hedge knight, and the next, your canvas door was thrown open while you were choking on a scream.
Ormund stood silhouetted before you, barefoot, with a sword in his naked hand. Heād reached you with haste, after having your pavilion packed up and pitched again not quite twenty paces from his following the attack ā āItāll be easier that way,ā he assured you. āIf another fool decides to trouble you, Iād rather not have to cross half of Westeros to remove his head.āĀ
His curls were flattened from slumber, his linen shirt unlaced to reveal his broad chest heaving with panic. His sleep-swollen eyes swept every corner of the empty pavilion before they settled finally on you. His steel lowered as he crossed the tent to settle beside you, smoothing a hand up and down your back despite the way your nightgown clung uncomfortably to your sweaty skin.
āWeāll move your bed into my tent,ā heād said. āYouāll sleep there for the time being.āĀ
It was concern disguised as a command. One you could not refuse if you wanted to.
Ormundās tent was large enough to pass for a modest hall ā maps and banners occupied one half, while the other had become something half-resembling living quarters. Your smaller cot was placed opposite his beneath the same sloping canvas roof, separated by little more than a table crowded with candles and books. You would wake occasionally to find Ormund already seated beside the brazier in nothing but a linen shirt, reading dispatches by firelight while occasionally glancing over to see whether you were sleeping soundly.
You pretended that you were, if only to keep on watching him.
But then the late summer storms arrived; and the unforgiving deluge washed over the camp with enough violence to shake the pavilion you slept beneath. Thunder cracked like an explosion closely overhead, and you woke with another frightened gasp before remembering where you were.
Ormund was already awake, as if stirred in knowing that you were scared.
āIf youāre frightenedā¦ā he murmured from across the darkness. A flash of lightning revealed his blanketed body, and his face half-smushed into his pillow. āI imagine my bed could accommodate two people without either touching the other."
You crossed the space between your cots and climbed beneath his blankets without another word. Ā
You havenāt left his bed since.
The days soon settle into something almost resembling normalcy. Ormund, you find, possesses an absurd fondness for taking care of you ā always making sure that youāve eaten breakfast before heās started his mornings; delivering his wool blankets to you before you can complain that youāre cold, warming your hands between his calloused palms when he does so; and escorting you through camp with a protective hand splayed along the small of your back.
No one ever cared for you with such deliberate attention before ā even Gwayne, as gentle as he was, could only love you from a respectful distance before the war had sent him off. Your husband washed away into memory, into the note left abandoned somewhere on the forest floor.Ā
You did not know whether he still rode beneath banners or if his corpse had been picked clean by crows. You did know, at the very least, that Ormund was here ā he was there in the mornings when you woke and each night when old fears crept back into your skin. It was a dangerous thing, you soon realized, to mistake safety for love. Or more dangerous still, to suspect that the two were any different at all.
You watch from Ormundās bed ā freshly bathed beneath your thin ivory slip, with your legs kicking lazily from where you lie on your stomach ā as his squire removes pieces of his armor. A sketchbook lies open before you, alongside a collection of colored inks.
āThis is what you get for tightening the straps so much,ā Ormund hums as Daeron struggles with the final buckle across the manās broad shoulders.Ā
āWell, youād like them to remain attached, wouldnāt you?ā the boy quips back.
The man smiles despite himself. āYou complain more than any squire I've ever met, do you know that?ā
āI learned everything from you, did I not?ā
When the final piece of armor comes finally free, Ormund dismisses the boy back to his tent. The entrance cover opens and shuts behind the boy, letting in a rush of cool evening air before it closes again. Silence returns to the expansive pavilion, filled only by the crackling of burning candles.
Ormund, left only in his loose dark breeches and a linen undertunic, walks to the round table to pour himself a goblet of wine. āWhat is occupying you so completely over there?ā
āIām hard at work,ā you answer vaguely.
āSo I see.ā He eyes you carefully over the glugging of the flagon. A faint, unreadable flicker crosses his face. āWriting to Gwayne, are you?ā
āNo,ā you sigh. āIām drawing you.ā
You set the quill into the inkpot and lift the sketchbook to face the man with a girlish grin, which seems to be becoming more and more frequent as the days go by. Ormundās light eyes squint to study the page. It was unmistakably him drawn in the ink, though perhaps only if one was exceedingly charitable. The proportions are all wrong: his nose is too large, his mouth is too small, one eye sits higher than the other, and heās missing his left brow.
His eyes flick to meet yours again. āā¦Is that intended to be me?ā he asks, motioning with the goblet in his fist.
āOf course,ā you shrug like itās obvious.
āWell,ā he sighs, raising the cup to his mouth. āI had no idea that I resembled that of a rotting turnip.ā
You gasp in faux-offense thatās soon overcome by a fit of laughter. āIt is not that bad!ā
āMy ladyā¦ā Ormund huffs sympathetically, abandoning his ale to saunter slowly towards the bed. āThis could be considered treasonā I should confiscate this immediately."
āYou shall do no such thing,ā you tease.
āOh really?ā he croons, brows raised in amusement.
He lunges for you in an instant. You jerk back onto your haunches with a squeal, cradling the sketchbook to your chest. You dodge each of his attempts to take it with a girlish gracelessness, laughing harder with each of his failed attempts. Ormund smiles at the sound without realizing it, dropping the table of ink to the rug below before clambering onto the bed to follow you.Ā
One final tug sends the book flying across the bed, and the two of you go to reach for it at the same time. The momentum carries you forward until you land clumsily against his chest, knocking the breath out of him as his back hits the mattress, with you squarely on top of him.
It takes you a long moment to realize your precarious position ā your chest brushing his beneath your thin slip, noses nearly touching, breaths nearly entwining. Your laughter fades first, but you still do not move. Ormundās smile flickers, but his hands lift to rest lightly along the arms you use to prop up your weight on top of him.
You can feel each of his warm breaths fan against your chin. You could get drunk on the ale stained on his mouth from the proximity between you alone. Closer by an inch or two and you would taste it on his lips.
āWe ought not,ā Ormund murmurs lowly, as if he can read your mind.
āOught what?ā
āThis,ā he answers. His blue eyes flick briefly in the space separating your mouths. āYou are another manās wife. My cousinās wife.ā
You swallow hard at the mention of Gwayne. It had been far easier to forget him, in truth. āI have not seen my husband in nearly a year,ā you reply in a small voice. āI do not even know whether he yet livesā¦ā
Pain etches in Ormund's strong features before disappearing behind his usual practiced restraint. His hands tremble with the urge to smooth away the frown between your brows, but he does not allow himself the satisfaction.Ā
āI swore on oath to protect you,ā he says. āTo serve you in my cousinās absence.ā
You, without possessing a similar self-control, lift a hand to brush a wild curl from his temple. āAnd do you intend to keep that promise, Lord Ormund?ā
He nods against the mattress. āOf course I do.ā
āOkay thenā¦ā you hum as a smile tugs slowly at one corner of your mouth. āThen serve me.ā
You duck down to close the distance between you without a second thought. The tip of your nose grazes the strong bridge of his as you press your lips to his chapped ones, nothing more than an experimental brushing of your mouths. You go to pull away just as quickly as you came, and whatever restraint Ormund had had before vanishes in an instant.
He lifts his head from the tousled blankets to chase your mouth, cradling your neck with a wide hide to draw you back into him again. The second kiss lands with none of the careful uncertainty of the first. This one is slower, deeper, and far more languid. His tongue licks into your mouth, tasting of wine and the mint leaves he always chews after supper. You sigh through your nose to savor it, melting further into his chest.
Your mouths move together with an awkward sort of tenderness, learning one another by the second. Ormund kisses you far rougher than Gwayne ever did ā itās all tongue and teeth and spit, as if he were committing the taste of you to memory: the meat from your supper, the berry from your tea; the guilt from your broken vows, the relief of being found after believing yourself long abandoned.
Your breath catches in your throat when Ormund suddenly takes charge, urging you onto your back with his mouth still on yours. He pulls off you with a quiet smack, wearing your spit on his rosy mouth like gloss.Ā
āDo you want me to stop?ā he asks with heavy eyes that dart back and forth between your glassy ones.
You shake your head against the cushions beneath you, features twisting with a pained look at the thought of stopping now.
āDo you understand what will follow? What⦠vows both of us will be breaking?ā
Your eyes glisten as they dance between his blue ones. āThe war broke those vows,ā you tell him, half-breathless. āNot us.ā
Ormund nods wordlessly for a moment, pleased with your answer. āThen open,ā he says.
Your mouth parts for him on instinct. He lifts his middle and pointer finger to your lips, wetting them on your tongue, before sliding them in between your bodies. His hand disappears beneath the skirt of your slip. Your head tips back when you feel his fingertips sliding between your velvety folds, brushing your clit before sinking into your waiting cunt.
Your sigh fills the quiet tent, accompanied by the low groan in the back of Ormundās throat.
āYouāre softer than I imaginedā¦ā he confesses, almost to himself.
āImagining me a lot, are you?ā you tease on bated breath.
āYes,ā he answers without missing a beat. āI dreamt of how your cunt would wrap around me⦠of how youād soak the sheets⦠of what noise youād make when I moved my fingers like thisāā
A whine catches in your throat when he crooks his fingers just so, nestling the fatty part of his palm flat against your clit. Your hips buck into his hand despite yourself. Your exhaled whine is half-drowned beneath his breathy chuckle.
āThere it isā¦ā he praises.
āFuck me,ā you plead, face crumpling under the weight of your need. One hand twists in his hair, while your other fists in his thin white tunic to keep him close. You only vaguely realize how little you sound like yourself as you plead: āI need it so bad, Ormund, please, fuck meāā
The man goes dizzy at the sound of your begging, as if he brought you into his camp, his tent, his bed, to do anything other than serve you.Ā
His fingers glitter with your slick when he drags them out of your cunt. He brings them to his nose, nostrils flaring slightly as he inhales the scent of your musk upon them. You whine at the sight of it ā half-disgusted, half-intrigued. You watch with heavy eyes when he brings the same hand into his trousers to fist his half-hard cock fully stiff for you.
Itās a mess of tangled limbs for a moment, as you drag his shirt gracefully from his torso while he attempts to free himself from his breeches. Heās made of tanned skin, toned muscles, and a dusting of auburn hair from his sternum to his stomach. It grows more dense at the root of his cock ā which is not quite as long as Gwayneās, but thicker still and adorned with more prominent veins.Ā
Ormund works himself hard with his fist; the reddened head of his cock leaks pearly drops every time his hand moves upwards. Your mouth waters for a taste. You let him smear it along the folds of your cunt instead.
You curl your arms under his broad arms to splay your hands along his shoulder blades. They flex slightly under your touch as he leans down over you. You tense on instinct when he pierces you with the tip of his cock. āShh, shh, shh,ā he soothes lowly, fighting back his own grunt as you spread so perfectly around him.
He sinks slowly into you, slow enough for you to feel every vein and ridge of his cock as he mounts you until his hips are flush with yours. Your mouth parts. He ducks down to kiss you before a moan tumbles out, swallowing the pretty sound with his mouth.Ā
He stays still against you for several long, agonizing moments. Your hips buck against his in anticipation. āPlease move,ā you whine, digging crescent shapes into his shoulders with your nails. āI need you so much, pleaseāā
Ormundās jaw clenches tight. āDo you have any idea how long itās been since Iāve been inside another woman?ā
Your face screws. āIād rather not hear about your previous exploits at the momentāā
āDonāt,ā Ormund spits, shuddering on top of you when you roll your hips into his once more. He grasps your thigh hard enough to dig bruises into the plush skin with the hand not holding himself up beside your head. His light eyes turn glacial in an instant, darting wildly between both of yours. āI wonāt⦠I wonāt lastā¦ā he confesses.
Your eyes soften around the edges with a faux innocence. āThis isnāt going to be the last time you fuck me, is it?ā
The crude word falls so effortlessly from your pristine mouth that it makes his cock jerk within your drooling confines. āI donāt want it to be. No,ā he answers, half-shy.
āThen I donāt care how long you last,ā you assure him with a lazy grin. āYou have kept me hostage for nearly a yearā Surely, Iām entitled to make some use of my captor while the realm delays the war, am I not?ā
Ormundās resolve crumbles under your permission. He rolls his hips forward and back again, never quite pulling all the way out of you. He groans quietly when you clench around the sensitive head of his cock; and you swallow down a whimper when the coarse hair below his stomach rubs mercilessly along your sensitive clit.Ā
Your head tips back. He falls to the hollow space between your neck and shoulder.
Ormundās open-mouthed breaths fan warm along your burning skin as he stumbles into a graceless rhythm, thrusting hard enough to make the wooden frame of his bed squeak quietly beneath you.Ā
The pressure on your clit is relentless. You squirm underneath his sweat-slick body, chasing and running from the pleasure all at once. āI know. I know. Itās okay,ā you hear him slur against your skin. āJust take it. Just fuckinā take itā Fuckāā His voice breaks like splintered glass.Ā
He tenses suddenly above you, taut muscles trembling. You hear his breath catch for a moment, right before a foreign warmth pools in the very pit of your stomach. He groans in time with his release, heavying his weight further against you.Ā
You arenāt far behind.
He grinds his hips lazily to ride out his high, smothering your sensitive clit as the warm, wet, sticky feeling continues to bloom inside of you. āOrmundāā you gasp, tensing beneath him.
āThere it isā¦āthe man praises as you tremble underneath him, smearing his lips against your jaw until they reach your parted mouth. āThere it isā Fuck, thatās it,look at me.ā
Your eyes snap open at his command, bleary and heavy-lidded. You ride out the rest of your orgasm with your gaze locked with his glassy one.Ā
The honeyed moment doesnāt last nearly as long as either of you wouldāve liked.
āMy lord?ā
The two of you sober in a flash as the spell between you shatters. Ormund stills suddenly above you, as if pierced by steel. The warmth flees from his features at once, replaced by the hard composure of the commander of House Hightower. You, too, freeze where you lay beneath him ā pulse thrumming hard in your throat as the muffled voice drifts once more through the pavilion.
āMy lordāā
āYes, Daeron,ā Ormund spits through gritted teeth, nostrils flaring as he breathes through the rage searing in his chest. āWhat is it?ā
The squire hesitates at his uncleās harsh tone. āForgive me for the intrusion, my lordā¦ā the boy says carefully, hidden behind the covered entrance. āBut a messenger arrived from the river road. He bears urgent word from Ser Cristonās camp.ā
You feel your stomach sink ā or, perhaps, itās only the mixture of cum seeping out of your still fluttering confines, soaking the sheets beneath you. You feel unspeakably dirty now, and the lack of regret only deepens the feeling.
Ormund remains motionless above you for a moment before sitting back on his haunches. You shiver at the absence of his warmth, and wince slightly when his softening cock slips out of you. āA letter?ā he calls to the entrance, brows lowered. āWhat news?ā
āIt is sealed, my lord,ā Daeron says. āThe messenger said it was to be opened by our hand alone.ā
Ormundās confusion deepens. āAnd who sends it?ā
After another brief hesitation, the voice answers solemnly: āSer Gwayne, my lord.ā
I know itās no longer Summer but Iāve had this thought in the back of my mind for a while now. What would the Dishonored characters do around the pool?
A/N: I went swimming a couple of days ago so that helped me come up with some ideas. I was trying to multitask lol.
Corvo can swim for hours. If the pool had a waterfall or cave feature you would most certainly find Corvo relaxing in there.
Emily would swim around for a while, maybe even doing some tricks off the diving board, before sunbathing on one of the pool chairs.
Billie would sit at the edge of the pool and stick her feet or legs in the water. She enjoys the tranquility and would simply sit and think.
Daud is the type to sit back in the shade reading a book. He isnāt one for swimming, so the most youād get out of him would be him sticking his feet in the water.
Delilah would relax on a pool floaty, with a nice cool drink in hand, and sunbathe. Once it starts getting dark outside she would move over to the hot-tub.
The Outsider would linger around the deepest part of the pool, or he would relax in a cave/waterfall feature, most likely people watching.
What would a day at the beach look like with the companions?
Codsworth and Sole came up with the idea to host a nice relaxing beach day for the gang. Sole picked and cleared out the beach before setting up the place with tables and lounge chairs. Shortly after, Codsworth brought food and refreshments.
Hancock went for a swim before sitting back with Nick and Deacon. The pair were sitting in the shade, reading books, and swapping stories from time to time. Dogmeat slept peacefully underneath Nickās lounge chair.
MacCready and Curie started building sandcastles and little villages with Duncan, Nat, and Shaun. Deacon joined them a while later.
Piper and Preston joined up together to look for seashells and sea glass for keepsakes as well as for the sandcastles.
Sole set up a makeshift net far away from the little sand villages and began to teach Danse how to play beach volleyball. The pair were later joined by Cait and, surprisingly, X6.
Strong made the mistake of falling asleep on the beach, so everyone teamed up to quietly bury the sleeping mutant in the sand, save for the head.
Hey! Im sitting in my calculus class and I was thinking, what classes would the companions teach if they were teachers?
Cait would be a laid-back P.E. Teacher. She's supposed to have a lesson planned out for every class, but she lets her students choose which sport or activity they would like to do for the day. Cait usually sits in the bleachers, either cheering or booing at her students, all in good fun, of course.
MacCready teaches Art class. He leans more on the abstract and messier side of art, but all of his students have a blast in his class. MacCready is also president of the Comic Book Club after school! He is very proud of his club.
Curie teaches both Science and French. Sheās a very organized and compassionate teacher. She takes her time with her students and is often found helping tutor those who struggle after school.
Hancock teaches History class. He is the most chaotic and unpredictable teacher. Some days heās coming off a high, so he lets the students read books or watch a movie while he naps. Other days he passionately ranting about a historical event.
Deacon is the fun Drama teacher. He creates screenplays for his students and elaborate backstories for them as well. He also has costumes and set pieces for everything. There never is a dull moment in his class.
Piper teaches Creative Writing and is over the school's Yearbook. She likes to give her students a lot of room to write what inspires them. Piper is a pretty chill teacher, but donāt mess with Yearbook; thatās her baby.
Nick is the teacher for Forensic Science and Criminal Justice electives. He can come across as a more strict teacher, but in reality, all he wants is for his students to succeed.
Preston teaches Government. He is the type of teacher that many students go to when they have an issue, and heāll try to fix as many problems as possible, even if it overwhelms him. He canāt help it; heās got a big heart.
Danse teaches Automotive. He takes his craft very seriously and expects all of his students to do the same. Heās a good teacher, knows what heās doing, but heās very stringent.
X6-88 teaches Advanced Math classes, like calculus and algebra. He doesnāt take shit from everyone. If he sees you messing around and not taking things seriously, he will fail you. But if he sees that youāre working hard and putting in a lot of effort, even if you donāt understand math all that well, he will be a little bit more lenient.
Codsworth teaches Childhood Development and Home Economics. His class is by far the easiest to take. Heās never failed anyone before because he genuinely believes that everyone is trying their best and their best is perfect.
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Baldurs Gate 3
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Hey everyone! How are you guys doing? Itās been a while since Iāve posted anything. I plan to change that very soon! I have a few things almost finished that I just need to get out in the wild. I keep holding myself back in fear of being imperfect or receiving criticism but I just need to learn to be free of that mentality. I have a couple of things for Fallout, Dishonored, and Dragon Age in my arsenal. I may do some things for Baldurs Gate 3 as well! Keep an eye out! Anyway, please let me know how you guys are doing, Iād love to hear from you!
It's fanfiction it doesn't have to be perfect it doesn't have to be accurate this is a hobby you're doing this for fun it's okay if it isn't perfect and polished you're doing it for fun [talking to myself in the mirror]
1. I will start writing again very soon! (I found a little coffee shop to write in. Hopefully, itāll help with my creativity/productivity.) I want to finish all my Fallout prompts before moving on to other games.
2. Iām going to start writing for Baldurs Gate 3 very soon! (Iām even going back to making aesthetics, so maybe Iāll post those too?)
Hello friends! I just wanted to pop in and let you guys know that Iām deleting Tumblr (TEMPORARILY) in order to avoid spoilers for Baldurs Gate 3! Iāll reinstall the app and post some things once Iāve finished the game! I love you all, thank you!
A/N: Since everyone loved the Fallout 4 version I did, I decided to make one for all of the Apex Legends since I love them so much! + I also have one for Dragon Age: Inquisition if you play that game as well!
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