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I want to believe

I want to believe in

Love,

Crazy

Overwhelming

Love.

But more then anything else I've just been

Crazy and

Overwhelmed.

Maybe one day I'll break this

Crazy

Overwhelming

Period.

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Remind me

Remind me again,

How it feels when you listen to rain.

Or the moment you have a realization,

That all of this was worth the pain.

Remind me how to slow down,

To feel the wind on my finger tips.

To feel each breath enter my lungs,

Even when my overwhelmed mind slips.

Remind me how to laugh,

With my gums, teeth and chest.

Tell me dirty sexual jokes,

Even when your timing isn't the best.

Remind me how we were,

This doesn't has to be black and white.

We might not kiss or make love,

But you're still a person that shines bright.

Remind Me,

Even when I can't hold myself and I'm low

Remind me,

You are the one thing I know.

Speech:

I don't think I'll ever meet someone like you. I felt loved, but more than that I loved you with everything. I have met so many people that have loved me... and I wanted to love them. I wanted to look at them like how I would look at you and I can't.

I'm not even sure why I can't because you weren't the best or the hotest or the sweetest but I would look at you and think how fucking lucky I am.

I would wake up and smell your skin, I would hear your voice and feel it bring me to life. I truly believed that nothing would change. I didn't think you would leave me or stop loving me. I didn't think you could because I couldn't... I still can't

I'm worries that my heart is so scared of falling in love because it might break me again. I might have to go through this again and I can't... I couldn't do that again. I felt empty for so long.

brightlightsloudnoises

uncertain

you twist yourself into strange shapes in order to wring something new out,

something you won’t find inside a fucking television or a classroom,

something your boss has no need for, something they strangled to death years ago,

something you hang onto with blood under your nails and tears under your eyes

something you lift towards the ceiling in a glass on a stranger’s birthday and is hidden on the red numbers of your alarm clock at 4:58 AM;

something in your voice when you answer a wrong number

and ask me from the shower, “what are you doing?”

judymay24

What if?

What if I was never meant to love one person?

Because I’m so shity at loving one person…

I fail every time..

…. Maybe I should try harder or stop trying.

Sometimes I would give anything to not have my mind… I would do anything.

I feel like I'm able to keep my life in order long enough to become comfortable. Long enough to feel balance with myself, however it doesn't last.

I'm back to holding the toilet sit as my head spins.

"I don't miss you." Simple, and straight forward. He doesn't miss me but he thinks I'm great. He doesn't like me, but he wishes he did... why do guys think that women want to hear this shit.

You don't like me and you don't want to like me. It's simple and straightforward.

I heard our song today, and for a moment I didn't recognize it. I knew it and I remembered that I loved it, but for a moment it was just a beautiful song. It was just a lovely melody and for a moment you didn't pop into my mind.

This moment felt freeing because maybe next time it won't be just a moment but an hour, a week, a month, a year. Maybe one day you won't pop into my head and leave me missing you.

This week was hard because I'm trying to believe I'm unloveable