So I’ve been off tumblr for a long ass time and by chance I was catching up on as much as I could stomach within throwing up. Mostly reading my pal @justholdinghandsok blog. And what a shit show it is around here. Christ fuck almighty. I originally joined tumblr in 2015 on my first blog gillovnyphile. While there have ALWAYS been lunatics here (like the shit bags that STALKED ME IN REAL LIFE AND CALLED MY CLINIC AND MY DADS CLINIC) and fandom factions (the Gillian fans - some who were very nice- and then the subset of complete whack jobs who believe she is a divine goddess not of this earth who has no faults, makes no mistakes, never dates anti feminist men who failed to pay the LEAD ACTRESS on his show the same as her male costar. Oh, wait, wasn’t Gillian incensed when it happened to her in 2015? Well, her memory is spotty, after all. The only thing she can seem to remember is the size of her platonic male friend costars dick.) And she handled press for season 11 just so…professionally. I don’t see anything wrong about talking about your pubescent son’s erection on national TV. I thought it made perfect sense to announce she was done with the show before the season even STARTED because that was sure to drive up ratings. But that’s not all! Then there’s this group of incredibly fucking spooky Duchovny cult that seems to be compromised of old men, lonely women and 12 year olds who are orgasming over their beloved “private concert” with the greatest musician of our time, David “mid life crisis” Duchovny. Who in the actual fuck would pay more than 15 cents to listen to that fool caterwauling through his “brilliant” lyrics. I mean, fuck Prince or Bowie or Beyoncé or Adele. Those guys are/were hacks compared to the musical stylings of a 58 year old guy with a thirsty as fuck barely legal girlfriend. And, look, I always always liked D more than G because G is just so goddamned extra. I met them both at Gillovnycon 2016 with my boo @xfiles9316 and another person…well we won’t go there. Just remember don’t give money to anyone on tumblr even your “friends”. G was pretty cold and unfriendly and sort of scared me. Meanwhile D was totally nice and we had a good chat. We shook hands. After the high of that con (and I met some TRULY Special fans there) we were headed for a fall and it hit in October 2016. I’ll never forget that day because I had my first panic attack. I knew it was true from day one (though I understood people not wanting to believe it.) the only good thing was that I had processed all that grief and had become apathetic by the time the porn pictures showed up the following summer. It was painful to look at. But then this whole sub fandom of (what are they called? Gorgos or something? They should call themselves Reptilian (get it…one’s a reptile and one’s Gillian. I dunno, I think it’s catchy.) who made it their life’s work to shit on and fight with Gillovny fans and post…unflattering, and I’m being kind, pictures of their new obsession. Is PM problematic? Of course he fucking is. But so is she so maybe it is true love (until PM writes the part for her she’s been angling for since before she met him. Career ALWAYS comes first for her. She’s said it. At least she’s practical I guess. At this point you need a goddamned scorecard to figure out who is fighting with who. It’s such an incredible waste of time. Don’t you guys work? I’m at clinic 13 hours a day and work about 65 hours a week. I just remember all the fun we used to have when there were great blogs and awesome pictures and GIF sets and analyzing body language and waiting for the next inappropriate tweet. Was it all a lie? Was it just a game Gillian was playing as she stated once? I’m still not sure. But what I will say is that I believed then and I believe now that those two were involved from 2012-2016 in some way. As someone who could have gotten a PhD in the time, energy, intellectual analysis and research I did from 2015-2016 I will always believe it was real in some way we may never understand. Do I think they’ll get back together? I’m not sure. I’m more hopeful at at least seeing them at SOME con in the future and at the end of the day what I always truly wanted for them is to have a beautiful special friendship- soulmates of some kind - that lasts their whole lives. To the old guard (god knows how you guys do it) I just want to say hi and that I miss you guys and NEVER TAKE SHIT FROM ANYONE @campaignofmisinformation, @bird3000, @whoisbillymilesand, of course, @justholdinghandsok. And any of you cunts calling her a liar can eat Peter Morgan’s disgusting hairy ass. Over the years I’ve had numerous numerous conversations with her and she’s a solid, kind, calm, smart truthful woman who doesn’t deserve your vile disgusting bullshit. And because this place is such a cesspool of unstable… people I fully expect to get attacked and get death threats and all the usual sociopathic unhinged behavior you’re famous for. And I give not one shit because I’m smart enough now to know that nothing good ever comes from this place and I check in roughly once a year anyway. Have at it fuckers.
