Irene 22 Yrs Old

Recovery is worth it lovelies💗

[thiin-faiiry]

Recovery is worth it<3

Guys I can eat without being so bloated I look pregnant. My hair stopped falling out and is growing back thicker than before. I can FEEL things other than depression again. I’m getting back into my old hobbies, I actually have a personality again. I met the most amazing people in treatment, and made so many friends. My release date is August 30th. It’s not without struggles and I still have bad days but I really think I can do it. You guys deserve the same peace I’ve experienced from recovery, I believe in you all💗

[wvterways]

most of all i hope you all find a reason to wake up and love each day despite it all. i hope you hear the birds singing or you buy a new candle or use a new fabric softener and it inspires you to keep going. each day holds so many possibilities. live to see the different outcomes. i believe in you and I’m proud of you for existing despite it all. you were made to experience life, so let life’s experiences be the reason you continue on.

[thiin-faiiry]

Little update💗

So I just had a video call with the lady who kinda runs the eating disorder clinic and I guess it is going to be 6 days a week, like 9:30am-6:30pm I’ll go in, they’ll do group therapy, I have to eat there and stuff and they don’t want me to gain weight just maintain which I guess it’s not the worst but honestly kinda makes me upset that I haven’t even gotten sick enough for them to worry about my weight. I’m not underweight or anything I’m at a completely normal bmi, even on the high end of regular.

I’m scared I don’t want to stop losing weight and I don’t want to be forced to eat what they give me but I kinda have no choice, if I don’t go ill get kicked out so I guess we will see.

Ill try to update you guys(my very few loyal post interacters lol). So far the next step will be going to get a physical, like my EKG and stuff done and then I will probably start April 29 at the earliest, and the second week of May at the latest.

[sp4rkelvomit]

pretty girls dont bodyshame

pretty boys dont bodyshame

dont fucking bodyshame ppl , we're all suffering through the same disorder no matter or weight

[thiin-faiiry]

This!!

[thiin-faiiry]

May or may not be back for good this time, I don’t think this is just a short relapse. I ate less than 1000 cals today mostly by accident and it rlly triggered me so ima try to restrict again👀

[thiin-faiiry]

I’ve been kinda going between 210 lbs and 217 lbs. I want to starve and lose weight like I did when I was 16. Does anyone have tips to getting back into the habit of not eating much? I’ve been ordering doordash every day because we don’t have much in the house:/

[gothalbinorat]

this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

[thiin-faiiry]

Y’all I’ve been doing so good like recovery wise. My weight usually stays around 210 lbs which I usually don’t mind any more bc I’ve been confident being a bigger girl. Idk what changed in me today tho I ate lots of snacks and it just triggered these thoughts of needing to starve and get skinny again. So I guess I’m back for a while, does anyone have any tips on resetting after a binge?

[thiin-faiiry]

Ive lost 5 pounds just by cutting out my midnight binging and eating at a calorie deficit during the day! I’m eating around 1,500 calories a day. I’ll slowly lower it and see if it makes me drop weight faster, I do wanna take it slow so I don’t start binging again..

[thiin-faiiry]

Lowkey getting back on track. At least I’m not binging on 3000+ calories a night anymore. I know it’s a high number but I’m just proud I’ve gone this long without a binge. Be as mean as you want in the comments, I could use the motivation to get back on track now that I’ve gone all the way up to 220 lbs. my first goal is 180 lbs let’s hope I get there fast.

[thiin-faiiry]

I’m so fucking embarrassed. I know I’ve let myself go, I’ve gained a lot of weight. But recently I’ve gotten more out of shape, like it’s hard to walk up stairs n stuff. My best friend, sister, and my mom sat me down to tell me they are worried because I never leave the house and im getting out of shape. I didn’t know it was that noticeable. My sister even pointed out my binge eating which was fucking embarrassing. I just wanna crawl into a hole and never come out.

[thiin-faiiry]

Update besties, I threw up three times the day before yesterday and I’ve been nauseous ever since. Maybe I have a stomach bug? I have def lost weight tho. I guess you get what you wish for:/

[thiin-faiiry]

Finals have been kicking my ass so I’ve been binging a ton. Just finished with a passing grade in all my classes so now I can focus on starving myself again. My first goal weight is 190 wish me luck!:)

[thiin-faiiry]

Its really sad to see so many fatphobic people in the community. Saying fat people are unhealthy and putting down fat people is really wrong. The only difference between overweight people and anorexic people is that one is romanticized and the other isnt. Being anorexic is super unhealthy, stop acting like it isnt. And stop acting like you are better than fat people struggling with their weight.

Let me clarify. EVEN OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE in the community have some fucked up notion in their mind that they are better than fat people without an ed. A lot of people in this community for some reason have something against fat people being happy. EVEN FAT PEOPLE WITH ED’s WATCH AND LOOK AT “FATSPO”.

[cockroachmotherfucker10]

[thiin-faiiry]

I lost two more pounds! I thought I would have gained weight bc I had two cheese tortillas (140 Cals each not counting the cheese) and like four medium potatoes chopped up into squares ( 800 fucking calories!!) but I’m just so glad I lost some weight. I’ll do better today and lose even more weight!!

[thiin-faiiry]

Body check for today

cw: 206 lbs

ugw: 110 lbs