auroras and sad prose

20 | Sad, sad stuff | TW: Depression and Suicidal Thoughts

[thingsicsnt]

I don’t know who I’d be if I was loved.

[thingsicsnt]

I just know I’m not nearly pretty enough for how flirty I am. It’s the curse of being an ugly Libra.

[thingsicsnt]

I’m in a point in my life where, in order to not feel lonely, I have to constantly read fanfiction, otherwise I’m trapped in a loveless house, with no friends, and more responsibilities than I can take care of.

I truly haven never felt as loved, appreciated and desired throughout my whole life as I feel when I read fics in AO3 .

[thingsicsnt]

The only good thing about New Year is that I got the chance to pace around my bedroom imagining I was at a party with Pedro Pascal, everything else sucked so much.

[thingsicsnt]

Every so often I get a hard, intense pressing feeling on my chest that I’ve come to know as the feeling my heart makes while yearning for someone to love it.

[thingsicsnt]

I don’t only feel mentally tired when my mother screams at me, I now feel physically tired too.

Like my lungs can get enough oxygen, my mind floats, and my heart beats very fast

[coliflowerchronicles]

happy birthday evermore, i too am neglected by my mother <3

[henrypoststhings]

nunca parecer ser buen momento para hablar contigo, y cuando lo hago nunca escuchas.

- wm

[thingsicsnt]

How depressing is that every heartbreak song I dedicate to my mom cause she’s the one who breaks my heart the most

[thingsicsnt]

According to my parents, I can’t go out with my friends today cause I already went out… three months ago.

[thingsicsnt]

If I fight with my whole family, maybe I’m the issue

[thingsicsnt]

My new therapist told me I definitely don’t have ADD, but my last one said I definitely do, and I’m just so confused and sad cause I can’t get a third opinion because it’s too expensive. And I feel like I’m in a bigger crisis than I was before.

[michell-elliot]

I don’t want my Encanto hyper-fixation to go away, I was really enjoying it, even when it prevented me from doing other important things.

It’s the happiest I’ve been in a while. I just want to feel that happy for a little more, before the sadness hits and I lose all interest for I thing I love so much.

[a-conglomoration-of-things]

[completeandrandomshit]

LIfe with ADD/ADHD: You can hyper-obsess over something for weeks, months or even years at a time and then one day it’s no longer important.

hashtag: then years later revisiting that former obsession and instantly remembering how happy it or they made you feel. 

[jetzflare25]

"If you cared you wouldn't be so forgetful/distracted."

Okay, so the solution is to... care more? Like, what do you want me to do? And please don't gaslight me into thinking I don't care or that I'm not trying.

[junflower123]