Sleepy Child

Im Faith and I like bands, YouTube and poetry.

[clickrs]

promising young woman (2020) dir. emerald fennell

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Bo Burnham as Ryan Cooper PROMISING YOUNG WOMAN (2020) dir. Emerald Fennell

[halimuyak]

Bo Burnham as Ryan Cooper in Promising Young Woman (2020) dir. Emerald Fennell

[jmelinaugarte]

[bpd-trichster]

just remembered that tomorrow is another day I have to wake up and do things

[a-tale-of-two-comics]

WandaVision, Previously On

[icalledhimpietro]

From what I know from the movies so far....

Pietro did not get a funeral

Vision did not get a funeral

Wanda never really was provided a place to grieve properly

She only had that one person who picked her up and told it was okay and helped her move forward

For her parents' death it was Pietro

For Pietro's death it was Vision

But then Vision didn't get a funeral, everyone went back to their families, and all Wanda had was a map and all her grief rising up to the surface again

She was alone in an empty lot, in a country she was not born in, around people she did not know. The only place she could ever think to call home turned out to be a cinder block outline of a foundation to an unfinished house in New Jersey

She had no one to pick her up and dust her off. No one to remind her that its okay and no one to help her move forward.

So instead, she made a perfect world where she still had that person and then some using the only coping mechanism she had left.

Sitcoms. Where no one ever really gets hurt and everything is fair and happy because everything turns out exactly like its expected to.

[the-future-now-deactivated20170]

That’s Louis Rossman, a repair technician and YouTuber, who went viral recently for railing against Apple. Apple purposely charges a lot for repairs and you either have to pay up or buy a new device. That’s because Apple withholds necessary tools and information from outside repair shops. And to think, we were just so close to change.

Follow @the-future-now

[dopeluminarydreamer-blog]

Reblog if you:

Have an iPhone and are in need of repairs

Have a friend with that problem

Hate Apple and are more than happy to spite them in some way

No one will know which is it

[weaselle]

This guy inspired me to repair my own macbook. First of all, you should know that I am not… like, I have to look up HOW to look up what my computer specifications are. Tech, that ware either soft or hard, is not a subject in which I experience comfort or competence. But my puppy peed on my keyboard, and I asked the apple store, or the fucking mac cafe, or the godsdamn Computer House Chill Zone or whatever cute ass name they have for their bullshit store, and they said it would be TWELVE HUNDRED DOLLARS TO REPLACE MY KEYBOARD. I’m not even exaggerating.

So I asked the internet, well how hard IS it to repair? And I saw this guy’s video, and while I am no techie, I AM fueled by spite, so I was all “oh, they do that shit on purpose specifically so they can charge me $1200 bucks or make me buy a new computer hunh? FUCK THEM” and I bought all the tools I needed for about $25 and I bought all the parts I needed for about another $25 and I watched a few tutorial videos, and I replaced my own keyboard.

So, once you are doing the actual deed, it becomes pretty obvious that they are finding creative ways to make this much harder than it has to be on purpose. On thing that stood out to me is, instead of all the tiny screws being the same size, there are about two dozen very slightly different sizes. They could easily be all the same size, or like, two sizes at most, but no.

These mother fuckers will take a panel that screws into place and they’ll use a different size screw for each corner. They are so close that you almost cannot tell them apart visually, but they each will only screw into the matching corner. Like, it’s a pretty clear “fuck you” to anyone trying to do repairs.

anyway, this guy is also fueled by spite, and doing holy work, and I have mad respect

[dragonfox-in-a-teacup]

This is awesome. Man is doing good ass deeds 24/7 because he’s giving people control.

[dantes-infernal-chili]

How dare you not leave a link to his channel, this guy is the savior of the modern world.

[simmisblog]

He is the messiah

[imyourdadokay]

The one thing that will always get to me about Severus Snape, was that he never had a chance to be happy after he’s played his part in the war. He was miserable his entire life, and if anything in the HP series, it’s that he had no chance at redemption

[deathdaydungeon]

The worst moment is when it dawns on him that he was planted with the Elder Wand, and he realises it’s all over.

I suspect Snape probably believed he’d perish before the end of the war; it’s hard to see how either side would let a spy or a traitor survive, and when he agrees to off Dumbledore, Snape effectively signs his own death warrant.

But I can sort of imagine that whilst Snape possibly had a rather cavalier attitude to his own life, by those final few hours, I think he may have hoped that he might see the end - that he might witness Voldemort’s fall.  I think he spent a very lonely year, and I think he may have desired redemption - he may have wished to see Minerva rocked by the revelation that he was a good guy after all.

The curious thing about Snape is that we see so little of him, so we know very little about what (if anything) interests him.  We know he’s a teacher out of necessity and not perhaps interest - but underneath his snark, does he like teaching, or does he despise it?  We know he’s a competent fighter, so would he have had aspirations to be an auror in a different world?  Or would he open his own Potions apothecary? 

But we know so little about Snape, and what we do see rather suggests someone entirely disassociated from the world (his lack of interest in his appearance, his lack of interest in his home at Spinner’s End), and we have barely any indication of friendships or relationships - which would all be tainted by his spying. 

The only thing we really know about Snape is that his remorse over Lily was enough for him to dedicate his entire adult life to the cause.

I’d have loved for him to have survived, but because we know so little about him, I struggle to imagine him post-war.  After 18 years of fighting, spying, betraying…  I can’t imagine what he’d want to do next. 

For so many of the characters, the war is an awful problem that they wish would go away so they could go back to their previous content lives (e.g. Weasleys) - but for Snape, you can’t help but feel that it gave him a reason to live.   If Dumbledore hadn’t required Snape’s assistance with Harry, then I don’t think Snape would’ve made it to 1982 - let alone 1998.  

[raptured-night]

This is such an interesting perspective on Snape, particularly because it manages to both align with and diverge from my own headcanons about him. I always had the impression that the state we saw Snape in shortly before his death (e.g. pale, stumbling over his words, etc.) was more than just the panic and desperation of wanting to find Harry before he died. I also tended to interpret it as evidence that, for better or worse, Snape may also have still not wanted to die. 

Yet, like @deathdaydungeon I also believe he was aware of the implications of him being planted with the Elder Wand, which always added to the tragedy of that scene for me given Snape knows what is coming for him and he’s terrified because deep down he no longer wishes he were dead and he does want to survive, not just to find Harry and fulfill his role but for his own sake. And he certainly doesn’t want his final moments of life to be spent in the Shrieking Shack of all place yet, in spite of all too human fear, he still continues to play his role until the bitter end because everything depended on it. 

That thought always delivered a bit more of a gut punch for me. The idea of a Snape who may have known the likelihood of his death but still didn’t want it and feared it all the same. A Snape who came full circle from the young man in his 20s whose grief and guilt had him lament his own life and devote himself to protecting Harry for Lily to die as the man who intrinsically valued life (of others and his own) and who died not out of guilt for Lily or as recompense to her but for the sake of the cause he had come to believe in as strongly as her. 

[sireseverussnape]

That breaks my heart to a million pieces.

[glowstar826]

I’m writing a fanfic where Sev duels Voldemort in the end if that makes all of you feel better.

[ottogatto]

I just forgot to add: Remember when Snape learned he had to tell Harry at the last moment that he had to walk to this death for a sacrifice? How he blamed Dumbledore for raising Harry like a pig for slaughter, and Dumbledore says “don’t be shocked, how many men and women have you watched die” or “we have protected him to let him try his strength”, Harry who had the Horcrux implanted in him?

Well now it’s Snape’s turn to learn at the last moment that he was planted with the Elder Wand and had to die; that he’s been raised like the pig for slaughter as he was “trying his strength” for redemption, just to be killed like another of Dumbledore’s sacrifices.

It’s like another wonderful post said: Snape is horrified on Harry’s behalf, but it‘s been him, the pig raised for slaughter. Another clue as to why Harry and Severus are so much alike.

[dionysus-lover-ao3-deactivated2]

In the end I think he was attached to life. Even if Rowling said he could have saved himself but he didn’t want to… That was the moment where he knew everything had been planned to that specific moment, his death, Dumbledore’s greater good. That must have been too much to bear. He let go. But he desperately needed some kind of redemption, he did everything he could to become the best version of himself despite being so bitter and traumatized. He had wanted to live, there had to be a moment in which he said: fuck you Voldemort, fuck you everyone, I’m going to fucking live and fucking love again, shame on everyone who think I can not.

After all this is what Alan Rickman said about Snape’s future:

«He might get married to somebody beautiful and live happily ever after and stop wearing black.»

Alan Rickman during the Prisoner of Azkaban Premiere, on what he would like to see happen to Snape in the future movies.

[ottogatto]

Alan—tearing my heart away—Rickman; this is basically what I want for post war Snape x Happiness.

[dionysus-lover-ao3-deactivated2]

Snappiness

Noun, singular, feminine

Snape × Happiness, the happiness Snape would get if he survived.

[ottogatto]

Not to confuse with:

Snappy-ness

noun, feminine, singular, also written: snappyness, snappiness (homonyms)

Being snappy, being like Snape.

ex: believing in snappy-ness is believing that you can be snappy, which means being happy and and snappy like Snape, or happy being like Snape and snappy, or a Snape that’s happy and snappy.

@snictionary

[snictionary]

snappiness (posted Aug 30th 2018)

Thank you for your snontributions for additional definitions!

[dionysus-lover-ao3-deactivated2]

They did it.

[littlelivebloggs]

OK. I’m going to take some time to talk about this scene. 

Severus 100% thinks he’s saving the kids here. As far as he knows, Sirius is out to kill Harry and he defiantly knows that Remus hasn’t taken his potion. To his eyes, A unmedicated werewolf and a mass murderer have three students trapped in an abandoned building. AND  this has happened to him before. Being in the Shack, on the full moon, with an unmedicated Remus, because of Sirius. Hell, Ron is actually injured!  

And how does Sirius react? By taunting him. He doesn’t explain. He doesn’t deny anything. He doesn’t even let Remus talk when he could almost certainly get Severus to at least hear what he has to say. (Not saying he would believe him but he would hear him out.) In the book he even called him ‘Snivullus’. 

So, yeah, this is one of the few times I will side with Severus completely. He believes the kids are in danger and no one does anything to prove him wrong.

[jamiesclaytons]

[literary-structures]

“Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it. We anticipate (we know) that someone close to us could die, but we do not look beyond the few days or weeks that immediately follow such an imagined death. We misconstrue the nature of even those few days or weeks. We might expect if the death is sudden to feel shock. We do not expect this shock to be obliterative, dislocating to both body and mind. We might expect that we will be prostrate, inconsolable, crazy with loss. We do not expect to be literally crazy, cool customers who believe their husband is about to return and need his shoes. In the version of grief we imagine, the model will be “healing.” A certain forward movement will prevail. The worst days will be the earliest days. We imagine that the moment to most severely test us will be the funeral, after which this hypothetical healing will take place. When we anticipate the funeral we wonder about failing to “get through it,” rise to the occasion, exhibit the “strength” that invariably gets mentioned as the correct response to death. We anticipate needing to steel ourselves the for the moment: will I be able to greet people, will I be able to leave the scene, will I be able even to get dressed that day? We have no way of knowing that this will not be the issue. We have no way of knowing that the funeral itself will be anodyne, a kind of narcotic regression in which we are wrapped in the care of others and the gravity and meaning of the occasion. Nor can we know ahead of the fact (and here lies the heart of the difference between grief as we imagine it and grief as it is) the unending absence that follows, the void, the very opposite of meaning, the relentless succession of moments during which we will confront the experience of meaninglessness itself.”

— Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking (p. 188–9)

[literary-structures]

“People who have recently lost someone have a certain look, recognizable maybe only to those who have seen that look on their own faces. I have noticed it on my face and I notice it now on others. The look is one of extreme vulnerability, nakedness, openness. It is the look of someone who walks from the ophthalmologist’s office into the bright daylight with dilated eyes, or of someone who wears glasses and is suddenly made to take them off. These people who have lost someone look naked because they think themselves invisible. I myself felt invisible for a period of time, incorporeal. I seemed to have crossed one of those legendary rivers that divide the living from the dead, entered a place in which I could be seen only by those who were themselves recently bereaved. I understood for the first time the power in the image of the rivers, the Styx, the Lethe, the cloaked ferryman with his pole. I understood for the first time the meaning in the practice of suttee. Widows did not throw themselves on the burning raft out of grief. The burning raft was instead an accurate representation of the place to which their grief (not their families, not the community, not custom, their grief) had taken them.””

— Joan Didion, The Year of Magical Thinking (p. 74-5)

[macrolit]

“Grief turns out to be a place none of us know until we reach it.”

—

Joan Didion

[scpacheco]

[thisaintasceneitspatrickstump]

Dear Maximum Ride community:

I’m correctly doing a reread of the books, and I’ve never read the last book in the series, “Maximum Ride Forever”, I guess I had outgrown the series when the final installment came out.

My question is, is it worth reading? I’m about to start “Nevermore”, and “Fang” really discouraged me from the series. I’m just disappointed with the way James Patterson is taking the characters and I’m worried that both “Nevermore” and “Maximum Ride Forever” will only dissapoint me further.

Any advise would be greatly appreciated!

[avicecaro]

dress up just to study, chew on the caps of your highlighters while you scribble notes in the margins of your books, put your feet up on your desk and drink cinnamon tea with too much sugar, learn calligraphy and write your favorite quotes on pages of old books and tape them to your wall, drink wine and read in the bath and use that bathbomb you keep forgetting is in your cabinet, play your favorite music play classical music play music from the 20s and dance down your hallway just because, call your friends and read aloud like each word is the most important one on the page, see if you can light enough candles to not need to use a lamp and open your window even though it’s cold, go for a walk and see if you can take a turn you haven’t taken before, live life as a challenge of how fun and dramatic a tiny world can be