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I just cleaned out the freezer. Like I actually manually removed the frost (no defrost option), wiped it down and washed the drawers.

I’ve been meaning to do this for about a year and a half.

#cleaning #freezer #chores #motivation

Can you hear that?

It’s silence.

I have a day alone; up until 6:00 p.m. anyway. I haven’t had a day alone since the beginning of the month. Fuck knows I need it.

#silence #alone time #solitude

I’m so tired at the moment.

You’d think that a week of smoking weed and shoving space cakes down my gob would have helped me unwind. Truth is sometimes I struggled to get high. Just to give you an idea, my partner who is several stone heavier than myself passed out twice by consuming far less sensi than I did. We’re both seasoned users and had eaten beforehand, so I’m assuming my tolerance it just so utterly high at this point that I’m not able to get stoned or high properly anymore.

#personal #weed #marijuana #space cake #cannabis #joint

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#mental illness

I am...

... tired of crying today.

#crying #i am #who am i

I’ve finally got a minute to myself after arriving from abroad.

The past 24 hours have seen me ride one plane and three taxis, which isn’t bad for someone who’s not keen on travelling.

I confirmed once again that I’m not suited for northern climates. I love the overcast skies, the rain and the wind, but I honestly wouldn’t trade the milder winters here for them. This is something I have known all along but I think my partner was hoping I’d change my mind during our stay.

It felt like my partner had a lot to complain about this time around: the weather making the park to cold and wet to enjoy, shops being to warm and stuffy, the hotel room being too small, how gentrification has driven the prices of everything up... and to be fair he was/is right on all counts. In fact, the complaining didn’t start to grate on me until it extended to everything else: gift shopping, the bed mattress, not having enough creamer in our room...

By departure day it felt like my partner had gone on a full-on complaint marathon. He started moaning about how badly he slept the moment we woke up and pretty much didn’t stop until I lost my shit twelve hours on. In the interim I patiently listened to how shitty the check-in process was, how sub-standard the flight back was, how incompetent the taxi driver picking us up was, how mad he was at Rosa for reneging on her promise to drive us home from the airport, how sticky home weather is... it just went on and on and on until I lost my shit in the evening and told him I’d catch a taxi to fetch my cat back from Rosa’s house because I literally wouldn’t have been able to stomach a drive to hers with him grumbling throughout. He readily accepted, leaving me to fork out more than 50 quid to bring my cat back home. To be honest I think it was money well spent.

Rosa and I had a nice long chat and a surprising number of laughs in the short time I spent at hers. In true Rosa style, she greeted me with a glass of white wine and a fat one: I couldn’t have been more grateful at that point.

Now it’s back to the daily grind and I’m eerily relieved. This last holiday was the second most stressful one of my life (but never eclipsed by the awful festival I reluctantly trawled to abroad to please my then-boyfriend in 2010).

#holiday #abroad #travel #relationship #friendship

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#palm tree #summer evening #beach #sunset #sea #ocean #waves #summer #sky #photgraphy #art #hawaii

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#quote #quotes

I’m trying to get my things in order seeing that I’ll be going abroad later in the week.

I should be taking my darling princess to a friend’s house who will be cat-sitting her during my absence.

I am going to miss my furball so much that part of me almost thought of cancelling!

My cat has been an immense support since I first got her a bit over a year ago. She saw me through the worst of my mental breakdown and not one day has passed since she came into my life that she hasn’t managed to make me laugh (if only just for a second), even when I was extremely suicidal.

I fucking love her and I’m going to miss her.

That is all.

#cat #holiday #abroad