unhuman

a god in the core of a star

[thisofthestars]

♯┆hello .ᐟ

͝ ⏝𝅄︶ ͝ ⏝ ⊹ ⏝ ͝ ︶𝅄⏝ ͝ ͝ ⏝𝅄︶ ͝ ⏝ ⊹ ⏝ ͝ ︶𝅄

•➤ name ;; Gabriel.

•➤ pronouns ;; he/him, Sol/Sols, Xe/Xem, It/Its, most other neopronouns (capitalized)

•➤ other stuff ;; bodily 17, but truly infinite in age. autism, hpd, npd, ocd. phoenixal godkin and angelkin. intersex. physically and mentally disabled. chronically ill and in pain.

•➤ godship ;; the god of a star, cake, rain, and writing. this will be updated as i remember more.

•➤ plurality ;; i am a member of a system. i'm not the host. my headmates do not like to use this blog, but if/when they do, their posts will be tagged #[not gabriel].

•➤ dni ;; radqueers and radfems. stay away from me.

do feel free to check out my pronouns.cc for more information.

our main blog is @acetaminohim .

[userbox one and two]

[thisofthestars]

Would you have a relationship with a normal mortal human? And how would that be if he/ she is also a worshipper?

hmm. truth be told, i've tried with humans, and it's very difficult for me to establish a comfortable relationship where i don't feel on edge all of the time. (to an extent, i am also on the aromantic spectrum, so my answer is a little skewed because of that.) i could, probably, be in a relationship with a human, but it's hard for me to put my guard down.

as for if they were to worship me, i suppose we'd need to set specific boundaries and such to ensure that we're both happy and not allowing anything we dislike.

[thisofthestars]

considering our host is now in a romantic relationship with a human (sort of), i do have an answer to this.

i do not interact with this partner. i don't want to. i believe i'm still holding on to the god i used to love, and the idea of giving up on them and allowing this human in to see me feels like a betrayal.

also... the host doesn't feel comfortable with me nor the other headmate speaking to his partner, which i suppose makes sense. he finds us embarrassing.

[thisofthestars]

the host had an absolutely wretched retail job for so long that it nearly sent me dormant. thankfully, hesh landed us a library job, which seems a bit more fitting for a former god. nice and quiet. i can stew mysteriously in the shelves as much as i like. and get paid for it. delightful!

[ayaminari]

I am not meant to be understood, my friend. only to be observed, to be seen, perhaps to be admired, even. For those who devote themselves to me to trust me, and to take part in my domains. But understood? Absolutely not. I am an enigma. something strange, difficult-to-impossible to comprehend.

[thisofthestars]

hope u r well, sending the goodliest vibes

thank you, kind soul. i am alright. i have been mostly dormant as of late, and the times i haven't been, i've had to be a (retch) normal human. but i am well, and is that not all that matters? i wish you the best as well. much love.

[thisofthestars]

i feel so isolated.

[thisofthestars]

to anyone who sees this, my askbox and messages are always open. i love to talk to people, and am willing to answer any questions related to... well, any part of my or your identities. :)

[thisofthestars]

irl i am entirely nonverbal, but online i'm one of the chattiest people you'll meet. it's quite interesting. i suppose i'm just not used to communicating via mouth; more so through thoughts and prayers.

[thisofthestars]

i dislike being in front whilst my host is at university. it is quite irritating being here and certainly not a good place for me to be. i do not know anything about sociology, nor do i care to.

[thisofthestars]

i really do miss my wings, you know... what i wouldn't give to have them again. being a human is so underwhelming. two arms? two legs? BORING! where's the intrigue? humans should at least have antennae, if you ask me...

[thisofthestars]

i've been writing about a godly pantheon recently... i don't know why. it's not mine. i just... miss that a lot.

[thisofthestars]

sorry for the lack of posts on this account, the headmate running it is MIA and me personally i have NO idea what to post

[thisofthestars]

i like being an alterhuman. i like people watching and trying to understand why humans act the way they do. i like translating weird concepts to my friends in human-speak because they don't talk the way i do. i like learning how to be a human.

[transmechanicus]

You’re never gonna get an angel bound in human form that isn’t some sort of fucked up. You’re cutting it off from all sorts of metaphysical senses, extradimensional perceptions, and biologically impossible physiology all at once. That’s like if you pancaked a human down to 2D and took away all our senses besides touch and smell. You’d be pretty weird too.

[amoratia-deactivated20251112]

ㅤ♥︎-̮ my core is paradoxical and incomprehensible, you could never wrap your head around the concept of my body; my existence. I am everything and nothing, I constantly destroy and rebuild, I break my soul just to be reborn. I'm not a benevolent deity, my disjointed form often brought doomsday more than salvation, driven by selfish desires for a pure rebirth - all to please my rotting Heart.

[puppyubus-deactivated20251115]

Your feminism is fake and pointless if it doesnt include trans and intersex people.

and yes, im talking about transfems, transmascs, nonbinaries, intersex trans people, intersex cis people, intersex cistrans people, people with xenogenders, people who use neopronouns, etc.

[thisofthestars]

what i wouldn't give for a day in my old body.