AND NOT WONDER WHAT IF?

indie. priv/highly sel. rachel berry.

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‘ you turned out so wonderful, smart, beautiful, successful, and brave. ’

For whatever the reason, Rachel Berry was always the one who seemed to know just what to say, and when to say it.  It used to absolutely infuriate Quinn to end, but that was even now, a few years ago.  

Now they’re seniors, and everything is different.

Being named valedictorian was, either shockingly or not, something that Quinn aimed for, maintaining her perfect 4.0 GPA even throughout her pregnancy, and now when it came time to write her speech, the words fell short.  Flat.  It was like she suddenly lost every moment that mattered to her, every person who helped shape her into who she was-

It’s when they’re in the library of McKinley, Quinn muttering to herself, when Rachel shows up, and after the ‘former’ Prom Queen had let it slip she was struggling to find the right words, when what had she really accomplished herself~. that the petite powerhouse spoke up.  A tinge of pink colored the blonde’s cheeks, giving her best sarcastic roll of her eyes as she slid the notebook back towards herself, a playful smirk on her lips.  “You have to say that because everyone knows you’re in love with me,” Quinn teased, then giving her shoulders a shrug, “Not that it’s really that difficult not to be…”

“But thanks, Rachel.”

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Sure, I’m aligning myself with terrible people, but think of all the wonderful people that will benefit from a national park.

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I am an intense person. I don’t do things half way. I’m all in or all out. You either have all of me or you don’t get me at all.

(via recurse)

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“She slept with wolves without fear, for the wolves knew a lion was among them.”

— Robert M. Drake   (via whoreofrp)

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‘ when will you learn? when will you learn that your actionS HAVE CONSEQUENCES! ’ (santana)

Rachel frowns at the other, straightening out the pleats in her skirt as well as her posture whens she stands from her seat. “You don’t need to yell, Santana. It’s literally Kurt and I–” She watches as Kurt waves goodbye as he exits the choir room. Rachel can’t resist rolling her eyes. He is supposed to be her moral support! “Well. I suppose just me now.” Lowering her voice, she looks around the choir room as Rachel gets closer to the Cheerio (in case someone comes into the room). “Is this because I ate more of the breadsticks when I took you to dinner the other night? I thought regardless it was a lovely date–” She can see Santana’s face unmoved. “The breadsticks are vegan, so I was quite ecstatic about it.” Rachel’s brain comes up with excuse after excuse, and each conclusion in her mind only ends up sour. This included kisses, which made sense because they weren’t exactly a couple during school hours and very few actually knew about it. “Are you really going to be mad at me forever because I ate breadsticks? I know that you know they’re unlimited, so I don’t understand why you’re acting like this. It’s quite troublesome to be honest with you.”

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‘ yo, drink this vodka down the hatch c’mon ’

Rachel frowns at Puck in the bathroom mirror. She may be a Skank, but it never meant Rachel was the type to lose her morals. She gets by being the travel buddy, designated driver, and having the guts for confrontation that the rest of the Skanks lack, so she’s never needed to unnecessarily partake in any smoking or drinking and other illicit activities . In fact, the fact a flask is being presented to her in ladies’ room is insulting. “I am not going to drink alcohol at school, Noah. Not only is that illegal, but it’s also stupid.”

Rachel turns to look at Puck face to face, eyebrows slightly drawn in and her bottom lip pouting. “And before you say anything else, I’m still me.” She offers him a comforting smile. “I’m still in glee club, I still have dance on Saturday mornings, vocal lessons after school for an hour on Thursdays... I just have a new group of friends is all,” she says, her voice soft and genuine. She wished for this; more of Puck’s attention, but it’s negative versus the rom-com she was hoping for. “But no matter what, you’re my...” Rachel bites the corner of her bottom lip before speaking on an exhale. “... best friend.”  

[chelseaperetti]

[movedscoresofzero]

A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort.

Sharp Objects, Gillian Flynn. (via movedscoresofzero)

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‘ do you ever shut the fuck up? ’

Rachel knows her already thin patience grew thinner the more she hung out with the Skanks. The tip of freshly manicured black nail trails down a strand of blue in her hair before she flips it over her shoulder. She may have ditched the bobby socks and the animal sweaters for crop tops, gothic lace, and ripped jeans, but her penchant for flair and dramatics would never cease from her. Rachel’s cheeks hollow, defining her cheek bones with sharper lines than the soft bubbly cheeks one would typically associate her with, and she defiantly purses her lips. Sometimes she can’t believe how much of a stranger Puck became over the course of a month, and she couldn’t understand it. She joined the Skanks because she thought it would mean her best friend would take more notice in her in a... non-platonic way. He is stereotypically a bad boy, but she knows how sweet he is on the inside like a Tootsie Pop. Rachel spent weeks planning for something that she’s been reaching for and pining after since even perhaps freshman year of high school when she discovered that maybe her feelings toed a fine line between friend and romantic partner. Finally, when she was ready, Rachel approached them, and the small group of women shrugged as they let her sit on the couch behind the bleachers. It would be her finest performance yet.

Unfortunately, her joining only killed it, and with each passing day, her acts of rebellion seem to kill the dream further.

“I don’t understand what your problem is. All I did was go with Mack to the truck stop, and she made out with some truckers. You don’t have to blow up about it, Noah.” Rachel crosses her arms, and her face quickly adapts to that irritated yet apathetic look of a typical Skank. “All you’ve done for weeks is get on my case about everything. I thought you were a badass not a jackass.”

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‘ aHH STOP! i could’ve dropped my croissant! ’ (cooper)

When she laughs, it’s boisterous, and she briefly thinks maybe obnoxious. Her arms are wrapped around Cooper from behind as she hides her face into his back, grinning from cheek to cheek. After a long summer hiatus, the duo were back for their first table read of their third season of their show. She’s missed him, even if she saw him at least twice a week during the summer, but there’s something different about being on set, working together… The energy and their dynamic is different. But Rachel doesn’t think about it too hard when her closest friend is holding a croissant between his teeth, coffee in one hand with the script in the other, and he looks exactly like belongs in sitcoms (which she supposes is perfect casting if they’re in a sitcom together anyway).

She lets go of him and calms her laughter, eyes twinkling with amusement and mischief. Moving to stand in front of him, she holds her hands out to Cooper. “Here, give me your croissant so you don’t look like you stole it with your teeth from a bakery,” she teases. Rachel can’t help the way her smile softens and even rolls her eyes at her co-star. Tina, one of the wonderful women on the production team, describes her smile as affectionate, nervous – like she’s been gifted with a butterfly that fits in her hands, delicate and beautiful, unafraid to flutter its wings and rest contentedly in Rachel’s palms. You can tell you like him, Rachel is what Tina would say, which would result in a pout and go on a tangent about how crushing on Cooper wouldn’t be worth it even if she knows how right Tina is and then some more. “I hope you missed me,” she half-seriously flirts.

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the difference between you and me is that I free my time to talk to you while you talk to me in your free time.

misjudgments (via misjudgments)

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plot lines where the characters pretend to be in a relationship and end up catching real feelings will never get old and that’s just the FACTS

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‘ can i get a waffle??? can i PLEASE get a waffle!!! ’

She’s trying to hide the awkwardness in her smile, but she knows it’s failing easily. “… I suppose yes?” Rachel lifts Sam’s arm that is draped over her shoulder to get off the couch. “Although, I don’t see why it’s necessary to watch The Bachelor…”

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imblwcrbler‌.

my computer crapped out and deleted the psd i made for my blaine and my haru okumura icons so i’m just gonna go SCREAM and theN I’M GONNA TRY TO RECREATE IT LIKE A SAD SON OF A BITCH

i gueSS THIS ALSO INCLUDES MY RACHEL PSD IT’S FINE JUST GONNA THROW TOGETHER A NEW ONE I GUESS

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#it is not a true otp unless they have tried to kill each other at least once

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‘ oh my god why can’t you just take the fricken compliMENT ’ (cooper)

Rachel is storming away from Cooper when he basically calls her out. She’s halted in her tracks, pausing to take in Cooper’s words. She is Rachel Berry, the practical queen of accepting compliments left and right, and the fact that he’s accusing her of otherwise makes her more upset than she already is. Her head rolls, lips purse, and she inhales heavily through her nose. She whips herself around (if her hair could make the cracking sound of a whip, it would as it follows behind her) to look at her co-star. “I can take a compliment !” 

This isn’t the first time she’s been on a set, this isn’t the first time she is a series regular on a show, but it is the first time she is the lead of any television series. For 24 years old, she knows she isn’t doing too shabby in the slightest. Rachel will always take her craft seriously, and she continues to show the desire to improve in her acting classes and voice and dance lessons. She feels insulted; the small creeping hand of insecurity rests upon her shoulder, and the fact it feels so present on her skin, the weight apparent on her back irks her even further. Her hands ball into fists, arms swaying outright as she marches over to Cooper; the clicking of her heels echoes eerily on the set. “You, Mr. Anderson, did not give a compliment ! If you are going to give a compliment, I expect it to not insult any work that I’ve done previously !”

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*   —  —   VERY SERIOUS RIP VINE SENTENCE STARTERS

‘  when will you learn? when will you learn that your actionS HAVE CONSEQUENCES!  ’ ‘  can i get a waffle??? can i PLEASE get a waffle!!!  ’ ‘  go suck a dick, suck a dick suck a motherfucking dick  ’ ‘  you better stop! biTCH STOP  ’ ‘  do you ever like wake up and do something and you’re just like what the hec– fuck is goin on  ’ ‘  what’s good, brah you don’t know me! you don’t– WHAT IS GOOD! YOU DON’T KNOW! YOU DON’T KNOW ME! ’ ‘  it’s summer i got my hat on backwards and it’s time to fucking party  ’ ‘  anyone ever tell you you look like beyonce?  ’ ‘  I LOVE YOU, BITCH. I AIN’T EVER GONNA STOP LOVING YOU BITCH  ’ ‘  BITCH I HOPE THE FUCK YOU DO YOU’LL BE A DEAD SON OF A BITCH, I TELL YOU THAT  ’ ‘  and they were roommates!  ’ ‘  oh my god, they were roommates  ’ ‘  oh my god, i love chipotle chipotle is my liiiiife   ’ ‘  this bitch empty YEET!!!!  ’ ‘  WHERE ARE THOOOOOSE  ’ ‘  THEY ARE MY CROCS  ’ ‘  bitch disgusting  ’ ‘  yeaaah. yeAAAAAH.  ’ ‘  so no head?  ’ ‘  THIS IS WHY MOM DOESN’T FUCKING LOVE YOU!  ’ ‘  i’ll kill you. i’ll kill you. i’m not even worried about it.  ’ ‘  ahh, fuck. i can’t believe you’ve done this  ’ ‘  aHH STOP! i could’ve dropped my croissant!  ’ ‘  what’s up me and my boys are going to see uncle kracker  ’ ‘  give me my hat back, jordan!  ’ ‘  do you wanna go see uncle kracker or no!?  ’ ‘  i sneezed! oh, i’m not allowed to sneeze?!  ’ ‘  look at all those chickens  ’ ‘  i smell like beef  ’ ‘  i gotta go home cause i forgot to… vacuum my room  ’ ‘  actually, megan, i can’t sit anywhere. i have hemorrhoids.  ’ ‘  is there anything better than pussy? yes! a really good book  ’ ‘  mom, i’m peein on myself  ’ ‘  sorry, i’m on the toilet. i hope the ice cream don’t melt, bitch  ’ ‘  honestly i don’t remember, i was probably fucked up. yeah, i was crazy back then  ’ ‘  I WON’T HESITATE, BITCH!  ’ ‘  just shut up and die slowly, okay?  ’ ‘  two bros chillin in a hot tub five feet apart cause they’re not gay!  ’ ‘  mother trucker, dude! that hurt like a butt cheek on a stick!  ’ ‘  i said WHOEVER THREW THAT PAPER, YOUR MOMS A HO  ’ ‘  you remember one time i liked you? GOOD! cause it never happened  ’ ‘  if your name is junior and you’re really handsome, come on raise your hand  ’ ‘  i’M WASHIN ME AND MY CLOTHES, BITCH! I’M WASHING ME AND MY CLOTHES  ’ ‘  waddup i’m jared, i’m nineteen, and i never fucking learned how to read  ’ ‘  whAT THE FUCK IS UP, KYLE? NO WHAT’D YOU SAY? WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE! STEP THE FUCK UP KYLE  ’ ‘  oh my god why can’t you just take the fricken compliMENT  ’ ‘  is that a wEED? i’m callin the police!!!  ’ ‘  yo, drink this vodka down the hatch c’mon  ’ ‘  it is wednesday, my dudes. aaaaAAAAAAH  ’ ‘  there is only one thing worst than a rapist… a child!  ’ ‘  get to del taco, they got a new thing called fre shavocado  ’ ‘  *to the tune of ghostbusters* i’m an adult virgin  ’ ‘  hi my name is tre, i have a basketball game tomorrooooow  ’ ‘  babeyou’reafuckingbitchiwantyoutogetthefuckoutofmycarcauseiwannabreakupwithyou i fucking hate you   ’ ‘  todays forecast we can clearly see that somebody got me fucked up. FUCKED. UP.  ’ ‘  whAT’S UP FUCKERS  ’ ‘  FUCK YOU, THAT’S WHY  ’ ‘  he needs some milk!  ’ ‘  you are my dad. YOU’RE MY DAD! boogie woogie woogie  ’ ‘  yEAH NO SHIT, HONEY  ’ ‘  oooooh my boy going to prom. fuck it up! fuck it up! fuck it up!  ’ ‘  hey, how you doin? i’m doing just fine. i lied. i’m dying inside  ’ ‘  honey, you got a big storm comin  ’ ‘  i wanna fucking DIE  ’ ‘  road work ahead? uh yeah i sure hope it does  ’ ‘  the yo-yo master did not answer, he just kept on yo-ing  ’ ‘  welcome back to me screaming  ’ ‘  you know sometimes i think to myself what are you waiting for you dumb stupid fuuuuuuck!  ’ ‘  do you ever shut the fuck up?  ’